12 Stepper

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Morning Kat and Brook...

Still owe you a phone call Brook, my only defense is that I have the wrong area code programed into my cell phone (which is always in the car) and I left the correct one on the computer.

Hope you two ladies have a great day.


Love you
Brook
Check yours.
Good morning, Lisa. how are you today? I need a speaker for tonight at City Hall. One I had lined up is in the hospital. VERY inconsiderate of him LOL. Why don't you fly down? I'll even pick you up at the airport.
As long as you live some place warm, I'm on my way.

I actually have to speak at a rehab center next weekend and I'm nervous as hell. It's the same treatment center I went too 5 years ago. I've been trying to put something together for weeks and then just decided to speak from heart like I do here.

I'm good today...it snowed again!

How about you?
12 stepper
hope you dont mind me intruding in here but i wanted to ask you your opinion on melatonin. I really envy you because i so much want to be off all pills. I do have a major sleep issue though. so when i cant sleep i will take either melatonin for a while, then valerian, sominex, 4 motrins, etc. anyway, the melatonin has definitely set my mind to go to bed at the same time every night and wake up the same time every morning. but id rather take nothing, just have no discipline right now. Have you ever tried melatonin? do you think its safe?
I started out the day with a sweater but am thinking of turning on the a/c because the sun is making it warm in here. I think its supposed to be in the mid 70's. Warming up Monday or Tuesday though. I miss snow but I don't miss cold.
This City Hall meeting I chaired last December and am doing it this year again. I need 2 speakers for each meeting and there are 5 Saturdays this year. ARGGHHHH! I would still rather chair than speak tho. So far no one has asked me to speak at that one so I am grateful hehe.I always plan what I am going to say and then when I get up there I go blank and wind up unrehearsed anyway. You'll be fine. Just say a prayer and talk.
Fire
I've been thinking of trying melatonin myself. Isn't it a hormone or something that we lose as we get older? Or produce less of? I forget. I haven't researched it in a long time. My sponsor tells me I can take Tylenol PMs and stuff like that but I prefer not to. Besides they don't work for me. I am not against all sleep meds. Just the ones that can be abused or addictive. I am an advocate of Sleepy Time tea but I forget to buy it. Does the melatonin work for you? I remember taking it when I was still using but then I would take anything that was in pill form hehe
Melatonin actually works pretty damn good. I give it to my son once and awhile when he's anxious about school or whatever and it works good. Knocks him right out.

Tyelnol PM always made me feel like I had a hang over. Excedrin PM worked pretty good though, although I had to take triple the amount suggested. I had to quit taking it because I was abusing it. Like everything I do..lol
dont mean to butt in .. but... 12 stepper ... you brought back memories for me.. I remember when I was in rehab and a vereran came to speak while I was there. I remember the feelings that I had about what she had to say and what she said... the hope that she inspired for many of us... I used that experience when I too spoke at my rehab when I was 3 years clean... I tried to prepare a nice little speech but I gave up and just thought about the high points I wanted to cover and spoke from my heart... one addict to an other... the message of hope and strength that we can carry to those in rehab often when they are in there darkest more unsure hours is very powerful and needed.. I know I did and I often many months after looked back at that time what she spoke and remembered her words and her face/eyes full of confidence and compassion and was renewed again with that same hope I was given back then...

just wanted to share that with you.... hope you dont mind... I know you will do great.. I will be thinking of you..

God bless
Teresa
Theresa and Lisa
When you are done speaking do you think of a million things you should have said and want to go back and say them again? I hate that. I think that is my worst thing about speaking. The shoulda, coulda, wouldas.
for me and the melatonin, less is more. It takes a couple days to work--but yes, it does work. i would take it about 9pm and go to bed at 10pm. I feel myself gettng sleepy, but not like a tylenol pm. some mornings i would wake up a little groggy, but most mornings i would wake up great. the only thing i dont like, is when it gets close to "that time of the month", i will wake up at 2 am and be WIDE awake. no chance of going back to sleep. i guess it has something to do with the hormones. But now my body wants to go to bed at the same time. If Im out later then my bed time i start to freak---- i know its crazy. I thought you would know, but i would recommend it. since i have small kids i dont mind going to bed early and waking up early-- i actually like it.
Lisa, no sweat darlin.

This is a busy time for all of us. More so for you Moms. I know work wise I am going to be swamped until the end of the yr.

My only sanity is I do have Fridays off. So no complaints from this chick..
I do, kat, I always think of things I should have said or said differently. Drives me nuts.

Hey Teresa..good morning.

Sorry, didn't see you Brook.

Thanks for not kicking my a** over that one. Things are quieter now that she's back at the home...


Love you
Suggestion, video tape your speech.
Why?
When you are done speaking do you think of a million things you should have said and want to go back and say them again? I hate that. I think that is my worst thing about speaking. The shoulda, coulda, wouldas.

Once you are finished write down those coulda, woulda, and shouldas, (or carry a recorder around, I do,) then review your speech, do it again at home on tape with those coulda wouldas .

Next speech you will not leave out some of the things you forgot to say.

Just a suggestion.
Wow, who would of thunk you were so damm smart?


lol


Excellent suggestion. Now I just need one of those tiny recoders. All I have is one from the 80's.
12 stepper...
yep.. all the time... but I learned that first it helps to maybe show up if you can and know your audience a little.. are they single moms, or men .. homeless or professional... ect.. if that is not possible then just make notes of again the high points... and yes video tape it if it wont make you more self conscious.. for me the memory of what I looked like would be worse,,lol anyway I am certain you will do fine.....

mornin to you lisa...Hope all is well


Teresa
Brook
I don't really think of it as a speech. It's more like sharing your life with a group of people. I got high for a lot of years. I used a lot of different drugs. Seems like each decade I was getting high on something different but alcohol was there thru it all. Anyway, when I speak, it seems whatever mood I'm in directs it. I try to keep my drunkalog short because everybody there already knows how to get high and then tell what happened (why I got clean) and then how my life has changed. I don't know if recording it would work because it changes. Not that my story changes but I share different parts at different times. I think that's why my sponsor taught me to wing it when I go up there. Then its just me and God, more God than me. One time I tried to plan it and ran out of things to say in 10 minutes. That was a disaster. Nothing like babbling like an idiot in front of a bunch of people.
I need a nap, ladies. Have a nice afternoon and stay warm.
One thing I need to clarify..when I said I had to speak at the treatment center? What I meant is that I GET to speak at the treatment center. There's a difference.