Hey Everyone,
I know we always get on here when we are down or just need to vent but
But I wanted to share that my son has been clean 14 days. It has to start somewhere.
He's been in a Christian shelter for 11 days and has called several times wanting out.
I didn't cave like I did in the past. He needs to step outside his comfort zone. God has taken care
Of him for 8 years. He should be in prison or worse but his higher power watched over him.
He called today and didn't mention leaving. I pray he's opening his heart. I know it's way too
Soon to get excited. Believe me I know but I'm having faith. Miracles happen every day and I'm
Praying for Zachs miracle.
Faith....
prayers and Hugs
PAULA
Hi Paula, It's so good to hear your sons doing well. I'm happy for you and I'm praying with you. Take care, Mary
Paula, that is great news! You're right - it has to start somewhere. I read on a different post that the place offers free medical and dental? What a gift. I hope he continues to renew his mind and commit to sobriety on a daily basis. Continued prayers for you and your family.
J
J
What wonderful news!!!! Too soon to Snoopy dance. But this is a GREAT start!!! This goes to prove that God is still in control. I'm soooo happy for you and him. Thanks for sharing!!!!!
Still praying for you, Paula, and Z.
Lynn
xoxo
Still praying for you, Paula, and Z.
Lynn
xoxo
Paula, Hugs to you! - stay firm. do not wavier.
one day, one week, one month....
one day, one week, one month....
Paula,
I hope your son continues on the right track. Every day that he stays clean is a blessing.
Michelle
I hope your son continues on the right track. Every day that he stays clean is a blessing.
Michelle
Paula==
Proof that letting go and letting God works! Praying that it continues and Z stays the course!
Praying for your peace of mind and rest!
(((HUGS)))
Proof that letting go and letting God works! Praying that it continues and Z stays the course!
Praying for your peace of mind and rest!
(((HUGS)))
2 weeks in is amazing... hard going those first few weeks. ..good news ....hoping for his magic space
Michael Z's WISDOM of the ROOMS
September 26, 2016
Quote of the Week
My brain is like a photographers dark room; the only thing I develop is negative.
Towards the end of my drinking I was as much addicted to negative thinking as I was drugs and alcohol. Alcoholism robbed me of hope, took away possibilities of happiness, and the only snapshots of the future I could see were dark and blurry. As I descended further into the abyss, I was convinced that things werent ever going to get better, and somewhere deep inside I had given up. When I finally got some help, my sponsor told me I had reached my bottom.
When I began to recover by working the Steps, I learned that alcoholism is a disease. At first I didnt believe that instead I thought I was just weak willed. But after listening to hundreds of other alcoholics share the same dark fears and feelings that I had, I realized the common characteristics of alcoholism: self-loathing, negative thinking and utter defeat. To recover from this seemingly hopeless state of mind, my sponsor told me I needed to work the Steps and experience the spiritual transformation that God would make possible.
While I didnt believe that would happen for me, I am grateful to report that it did. Today I have a different, more positive voice inside that comes from my true self, from the child of God that I actually am. Recovery has returned the hope and happiness that I believe God wants for me, and today I experience those feelings by doing what God wants me to do help other alcoholics recover and discover His light.
Today in the darkroom of my mind, I develop some beautiful images and pictures of a life that is happy, joyous and free.
September 26, 2016
Quote of the Week
My brain is like a photographers dark room; the only thing I develop is negative.
Towards the end of my drinking I was as much addicted to negative thinking as I was drugs and alcohol. Alcoholism robbed me of hope, took away possibilities of happiness, and the only snapshots of the future I could see were dark and blurry. As I descended further into the abyss, I was convinced that things werent ever going to get better, and somewhere deep inside I had given up. When I finally got some help, my sponsor told me I had reached my bottom.
When I began to recover by working the Steps, I learned that alcoholism is a disease. At first I didnt believe that instead I thought I was just weak willed. But after listening to hundreds of other alcoholics share the same dark fears and feelings that I had, I realized the common characteristics of alcoholism: self-loathing, negative thinking and utter defeat. To recover from this seemingly hopeless state of mind, my sponsor told me I needed to work the Steps and experience the spiritual transformation that God would make possible.
While I didnt believe that would happen for me, I am grateful to report that it did. Today I have a different, more positive voice inside that comes from my true self, from the child of God that I actually am. Recovery has returned the hope and happiness that I believe God wants for me, and today I experience those feelings by doing what God wants me to do help other alcoholics recover and discover His light.
Today in the darkroom of my mind, I develop some beautiful images and pictures of a life that is happy, joyous and free.
Paula
Every minute every second they stay clean is positive
Here is my hand to stay strong. Don't listen to whining .begging ,crying and I am so depressed
Only thing I can compare it to is he is two years old throwing a tantrum not getting his way lol
So he stays in time out until he shows moderate success !!
Keeping fingers crossed for 14 days turns into 14 months to 14 years and then lifetime !!
Xx sue
Every minute every second they stay clean is positive
Here is my hand to stay strong. Don't listen to whining .begging ,crying and I am so depressed
Only thing I can compare it to is he is two years old throwing a tantrum not getting his way lol
So he stays in time out until he shows moderate success !!
Keeping fingers crossed for 14 days turns into 14 months to 14 years and then lifetime !!
Xx sue
Thank you all my friends
All of you help me so much and I think about y'all through the day.
Zach called me today second day straight to say hello and didn't mention
Leaving. Wow...14 days no drugs 11 days no cigarettes..amazing!
I just keep praying that one thing, that one person, God will show him the way.
This is so outside his comfort zone.
It's a 6 or 7 month program...... a week ago he was begging to get out and I stood firm
And said give it 1-2 months. I said that to buy time. If he ask to leave after that time
Should I tell him that he needs to work the program to the end? I don't want to lie but
I think he is where he needs to be.
Something I wanted to share... I've only known Pastor Vic for a short time. Zach met him
2 weeks ago when Pastor Vic took him to the shelter. Zach had to detox a couple of days
Before they would accept him. Pastor Vic checked up on Zach and then asked to take him
Fishing..... this is BIG. I believe Zachs dad (who passed a year and half go) was there somehow.
Zachs dad was big into salt Water fishing and Pastor Vic wanted to take him salt water fishing.
I know this sounds crazy but it was Gods plan to bring Pastor Vic in my sons life.
And guess how I met him??? Through my best friend...he showed up at her grandsons birthday
Party and was immediately drawn to my friend talking about him bring an addict, dealer, involved
In the cartels but now clean, a pastor and helping others with their struggles.
Ok sorry for the ramble but this is happening.
Praying for all of you and your families
Hugs
Paula
All of you help me so much and I think about y'all through the day.
Zach called me today second day straight to say hello and didn't mention
Leaving. Wow...14 days no drugs 11 days no cigarettes..amazing!
I just keep praying that one thing, that one person, God will show him the way.
This is so outside his comfort zone.
It's a 6 or 7 month program...... a week ago he was begging to get out and I stood firm
And said give it 1-2 months. I said that to buy time. If he ask to leave after that time
Should I tell him that he needs to work the program to the end? I don't want to lie but
I think he is where he needs to be.
Something I wanted to share... I've only known Pastor Vic for a short time. Zach met him
2 weeks ago when Pastor Vic took him to the shelter. Zach had to detox a couple of days
Before they would accept him. Pastor Vic checked up on Zach and then asked to take him
Fishing..... this is BIG. I believe Zachs dad (who passed a year and half go) was there somehow.
Zachs dad was big into salt Water fishing and Pastor Vic wanted to take him salt water fishing.
I know this sounds crazy but it was Gods plan to bring Pastor Vic in my sons life.
And guess how I met him??? Through my best friend...he showed up at her grandsons birthday
Party and was immediately drawn to my friend talking about him bring an addict, dealer, involved
In the cartels but now clean, a pastor and helping others with their struggles.
Ok sorry for the ramble but this is happening.
Praying for all of you and your families
Hugs
Paula
Paula:
An old Catholic priest ran the recovery home I was in .. he saved countless lives as well.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBUd7289TTI
God works through people.
Bob
An old Catholic priest ran the recovery home I was in .. he saved countless lives as well.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBUd7289TTI
God works through people.
Bob
Exactly Papa
Have a good evening.
Time to watch the debate. That's pretty scared also
Lol
Hugs
PAULA
Have a good evening.
Time to watch the debate. That's pretty scared also
Lol
Hugs
PAULA
Paula - what a sweet story. we know 14 days is a short amount of time, But it is such a Big deal at this moment. keep praying. keep the momentum going!
If Z wants to leave he has to be able to support himself. He may be tempted to leave when he has a job and starts having money. using my son as an example, I think he left the hwh too soon. (5 months) it was too soon because he left for the wrong reasons. he left because he didn't like the rules, curfew, etc..
he went out on his own, although he has been able to work and keep his job, he has been half in and half out of using drugs.
Now, my answer to my son is go back to hwh or stay where he is and make it work (pay rent and stop the drugs). I have gotten pulled in recently, but I am happy to say I have been off the hook of being his main support since January. so we just have to keep it going.
If Z wants to leave he has to be able to support himself. He may be tempted to leave when he has a job and starts having money. using my son as an example, I think he left the hwh too soon. (5 months) it was too soon because he left for the wrong reasons. he left because he didn't like the rules, curfew, etc..
he went out on his own, although he has been able to work and keep his job, he has been half in and half out of using drugs.
Now, my answer to my son is go back to hwh or stay where he is and make it work (pay rent and stop the drugs). I have gotten pulled in recently, but I am happy to say I have been off the hook of being his main support since January. so we just have to keep it going.
Well guess what?
Zach was asked to leave today? He has a pass to go to the Dr yesterday.
They had one guy goes as an escort. After the Dr appointment, they walked around
Downtown. His escort took off and went drinking leaving Z alone. He walked around
Thinking about getting high but he said a prayer and decided to go back. They tested
Him and he was clean but since he didn't follow the rules he was asked to leave.
I think he is at another shelter..... not sure but still praying.
Also I didn't take his word for it all. All was confirmed with the pastor.
And guess what?? I also work with a pastor...I didn't see him this morning but he
Called me and said God wanted him to tell me to rest and have faith.
WOW...God is working.
Please keep Z in you're prayers
Thanks friends
PAULA
Zach was asked to leave today? He has a pass to go to the Dr yesterday.
They had one guy goes as an escort. After the Dr appointment, they walked around
Downtown. His escort took off and went drinking leaving Z alone. He walked around
Thinking about getting high but he said a prayer and decided to go back. They tested
Him and he was clean but since he didn't follow the rules he was asked to leave.
I think he is at another shelter..... not sure but still praying.
Also I didn't take his word for it all. All was confirmed with the pastor.
And guess what?? I also work with a pastor...I didn't see him this morning but he
Called me and said God wanted him to tell me to rest and have faith.
WOW...God is working.
Please keep Z in you're prayers
Thanks friends
PAULA
Oh boy, it is always something isn't it!! LOL!
Sometimes what seems so simple and makes sense to us doesn't to our addicts. They overlook small things and make bad choices.
I am praying he sees the importance of compliance to any program no matter how small it seems.
Hopefully this will be an eye opener for Z and he will realize there is no room for mistakes in any program. All the programs my son was in were very strict with no room for screw ups even if they seemed minor. He always left and never was compliant.
Hang tight and stay strong cause you are doing the right thing! He needs to makes changes and decisions to get better if that is what he wants. He has to do it because he wants too ,not for you or anyone else!
Praying things work out for both of you and that he makes the right choices!
God is in control---
(((HUGS)))
Lori
Sometimes what seems so simple and makes sense to us doesn't to our addicts. They overlook small things and make bad choices.
I am praying he sees the importance of compliance to any program no matter how small it seems.
Hopefully this will be an eye opener for Z and he will realize there is no room for mistakes in any program. All the programs my son was in were very strict with no room for screw ups even if they seemed minor. He always left and never was compliant.
Hang tight and stay strong cause you are doing the right thing! He needs to makes changes and decisions to get better if that is what he wants. He has to do it because he wants too ,not for you or anyone else!
Praying things work out for both of you and that he makes the right choices!
God is in control---
(((HUGS)))
Lori
may I say something stupid. Who said Z was clean , Z or the pastor? usually they get a probation for first time offense. Sorry, but I have heard this so many times with my son.
Mom they said I had to leave, I was sober and was tested and tested negative. ( he knows how to test negative) don't asked me how he does it but he always does!.
Just be on the fence Paula and watch the space, he really REALLY has to commits. They know the rules and need to follow through.
I hope he makes the right choice and keeps focusing on staying clean.
X
Sue
Mom they said I had to leave, I was sober and was tested and tested negative. ( he knows how to test negative) don't asked me how he does it but he always does!.
Just be on the fence Paula and watch the space, he really REALLY has to commits. They know the rules and need to follow through.
I hope he makes the right choice and keeps focusing on staying clean.
X
Sue
I talked to the pastor. He was 2 hours late and they did all the drug test and alcohol test.
I verified everything with the pastor. I don't know where he is at the moment so I just have to have faith.
Not a good day!
PAULA
I verified everything with the pastor. I don't know where he is at the moment so I just have to have faith.
Not a good day!
PAULA
Hi Paula, I'm sorry this has happened. That wasn't a very good escort they sent with Zach when he took off and left your son like that. Maybe I'm missing something here? But I don't think Zach is all to blame. Getting thrown out for being two hours late is a bit strict too. Why wouldn't one of the people in charge take him to the doctors instead of trusting an inmate? Doesn't make sense to me. I think they need to give your son another chance if his tests come back clean. I'll say a prayer for him as I do for us all on here. God bless. Mary.
I'm not taking up for him but he didn't use. He could have but he chose
Not to...bottom line..it is very strict and he didn't follow the rules.
Makes me sad!!he doesn't have any ID so S Army would not accept him.
He went to another one that would accept copy of ID... praying
Praying
Faith faith Gods got this
Hugs
PAULA
Not to...bottom line..it is very strict and he didn't follow the rules.
Makes me sad!!he doesn't have any ID so S Army would not accept him.
He went to another one that would accept copy of ID... praying
Praying
Faith faith Gods got this
Hugs
PAULA
