well it has been 14 days since i last used and the monkey was on my back today big time someone wrote that when your feeling good it kind of sneaks up on you yesterday was a good day today sucked went to the counselor he wants me to keep a pain journal what the f*** is that and work on things like stress and my depression finally slept a whole 5 hours not at all the same time but while it was dark probably wont sleep for 3 days now everyone hang tough and keep on keeping off where the hell are you atoz lets hear from you
wow, you r doinging great rember this shall pass, hope that helps, i understand what u r going thru, take care..
Hey BA,
Regular sleep took a while for me too. I don't know what a pain journal is, but I've done some writing over the past 5 months and it has helped. Don't know why exactly. I'm pretty cynical about the "feelings" stuff, but I got pretty far afield from who I am -- or want to be -- when I was living the life of an active user, so getting back takes some work. Hang in my friend, good days and bad -- you're doing it. M.
Regular sleep took a while for me too. I don't know what a pain journal is, but I've done some writing over the past 5 months and it has helped. Don't know why exactly. I'm pretty cynical about the "feelings" stuff, but I got pretty far afield from who I am -- or want to be -- when I was living the life of an active user, so getting back takes some work. Hang in my friend, good days and bad -- you're doing it. M.
Hey BA - you are not alone! I saw my counselor on Wednesday and he gave me a "homework assignment" too! I need to jot down all the situations that cause me worry, anger, fear and then write why. Guess I've been stuffing a lot of feelings for years, and he said if I don't start to deal with this sh#@ now It'll just be a matter of time until I relapse. So I'm plowing ahead. Am I happy about this? Not really. Do I know deep down I need to do this work? Yup.
Good luck to you;
Jim
Good luck to you;
Jim
hey ba
have been off but have still been reading. my wife went and gotten her methadone for pain management we both have been in car wrecks and accidents to where we ar so broke up we have metal in us. me more than her
so i gave into temptation . and was kinda ashamed howevewr i am proud of the fact that i am not taking them by the handfuls now , so far i have only taken 3 a day as needed for pain if i can keep this up i think i will be o.k. i went back to my dr. and shared how i was abusing them he still gave me an rx. for the methadone @ 8 a day keep me in your prayers i am so proud of you, and you are doing so well i didn't want my failure to trigger your desire in any way keep it up i take advil in between to help so pray that i keep this regimint up i will keep reading and posting .
thanks to you all
johnny
have been off but have still been reading. my wife went and gotten her methadone for pain management we both have been in car wrecks and accidents to where we ar so broke up we have metal in us. me more than her
so i gave into temptation . and was kinda ashamed howevewr i am proud of the fact that i am not taking them by the handfuls now , so far i have only taken 3 a day as needed for pain if i can keep this up i think i will be o.k. i went back to my dr. and shared how i was abusing them he still gave me an rx. for the methadone @ 8 a day keep me in your prayers i am so proud of you, and you are doing so well i didn't want my failure to trigger your desire in any way keep it up i take advil in between to help so pray that i keep this regimint up i will keep reading and posting .
thanks to you all
johnny
however ba
i still just want to stay @ no more than 3 per day, if i have to i will give them to someone i trust to keep me at that limit , sometimes my pain is so intense i can't even hardly walk, i was sick of running out early because of the abuse . if i can have alot left at the end of the month it will be a great accomplishment for me
keep up the good work
i still just want to stay @ no more than 3 per day, if i have to i will give them to someone i trust to keep me at that limit , sometimes my pain is so intense i can't even hardly walk, i was sick of running out early because of the abuse . if i can have alot left at the end of the month it will be a great accomplishment for me
keep up the good work
way to go bad attitude!!!!!!!!! Love and hugs to you and your wife. See, aren't you glad you made it to that feeling good point?
Kerry
Kerry
