Hi all,
Im going to waffle on a bit a about my situation as reading other peoples has been inspiring. (and hopefully theraputic)
Ive been smoking pot for 15 years, for the last 12, its every day, sometimes its all day..... and nobody in my life knows! Ive morphed into a recluse. I go to work and socialise the bare minimum,
Its been on my mind to quit since 1997, but ive never convinced myself of the need to quit, untill i came across this site. I got up this morning and threw out everything. skins, tobacco, last bit of grass, even the ashtray. I just know that this is it. I hope i can keep this feeling.
I didnt touch ittill i was 23, I hardly knew it existed. Then i started going to different clubs and on to chillout parties with a new crowd. Spliffs, ecstasy and silly conversation. I thought i was in heaven.
All my friends that werent smokers got pushed to the sidelines and 10 years of secret smoking commenced. (secret from family, profession and my oldest friends)
I didnt know that pot can still affect you for months after you stop smoking it. In the past few years i have made a point of traveling with non smokers to places i couldnt and wouldnt find a smoke. I return from these trips thinking im the same quiet man whether im secretly stoned or not. Is there hope for my supressed personality to return?
Graham, there's ALWAYS hope.............ALWAYS!
Sure sounds like you want this bad enough............so that's a given right there you can be successful.........absolutely.
I don't smoke........it's never been my thing...........I'm just a recovering heroin addict, but there's as you've read some really wonderful people here and I am certain they will be around to reply for ya.
Just wanted to cheer you on and surely it won't be easy..........it's habit and all, but it can be done.........nice to meet you and congrats on tossing all your stuff..........good step.
Sure sounds like you want this bad enough............so that's a given right there you can be successful.........absolutely.
I don't smoke........it's never been my thing...........I'm just a recovering heroin addict, but there's as you've read some really wonderful people here and I am certain they will be around to reply for ya.
Just wanted to cheer you on and surely it won't be easy..........it's habit and all, but it can be done.........nice to meet you and congrats on tossing all your stuff..........good step.
I was the same way!
If I can do it, anyone can. It hasnt been easy and I still slip from time to time and a whole barrel of other issues, but honestly I do not miss it. Can you imagine? I never could.
If I can do it, anyone can. It hasnt been easy and I still slip from time to time and a whole barrel of other issues, but honestly I do not miss it. Can you imagine? I never could.
Im optimistic, even though its only a couple of days. Ill have to get into some activities There are too many hours in the day! I keep reaching for for a smoke thats not there. Not even a cigerete.(i was on about ten a day, as joints) people thought i quit smoking 3 years ago.
Its a tangled web we weave.
Ive walked the dog twice already.... its not even dark yet.
Im doing this because, for the first time in years, if ever. I dont have any smoker friends. (ive nobody to hang around with all, just casual friends tru work, that im happy to keep at a distance) There are suppliers everywere. Its as easy as getting milk. But, If im going to do this with out peer pressure, the time is now!
Everybody seems to fill there day with boring little activities to pass time which i dismissed as sad (unenlightened) I was happy with the smokers for company, a nintendo, and a late beer. Bliss?? Its a self conscience thing, i feel to old for this.
Ive always had enough money to be independant. (ie, a well paid job, now i have a small business) But for the last few yeas ive been aware of a certain level of paranoia. I dont know if this is common, its always been there, or, have i just matured enough to see the light?
I doesnt feel right to live that life anymore. Im 36, i have a dread of snapping out of this at 46 or 50, then what? will i have social maturity of a youth.
tune in tomorrow for another babbling message........
I found other peoples messages very inspiring, maybe my nearly coherant amblings will make someody else look in the mirror and ditch the habit thats gone too far
Graham
Its a tangled web we weave.
Ive walked the dog twice already.... its not even dark yet.
Im doing this because, for the first time in years, if ever. I dont have any smoker friends. (ive nobody to hang around with all, just casual friends tru work, that im happy to keep at a distance) There are suppliers everywere. Its as easy as getting milk. But, If im going to do this with out peer pressure, the time is now!
Everybody seems to fill there day with boring little activities to pass time which i dismissed as sad (unenlightened) I was happy with the smokers for company, a nintendo, and a late beer. Bliss?? Its a self conscience thing, i feel to old for this.
Ive always had enough money to be independant. (ie, a well paid job, now i have a small business) But for the last few yeas ive been aware of a certain level of paranoia. I dont know if this is common, its always been there, or, have i just matured enough to see the light?
I doesnt feel right to live that life anymore. Im 36, i have a dread of snapping out of this at 46 or 50, then what? will i have social maturity of a youth.
tune in tomorrow for another babbling message........
I found other peoples messages very inspiring, maybe my nearly coherant amblings will make someody else look in the mirror and ditch the habit thats gone too far
Graham
Hello,
Here I am :-) the 49yr old thats smoked the garbage since 1972. Im new here but have been reading lots of your letters and I find you all a nice friendly bunch of people. In the 36years I smoked think I gave up twice and each time I lasted 6 months umm clean. I had heaps of other drug addictions in between but Weed was my favorite.
I had a load of different professional types of jobs. When I was at work would of been the times I would have to hide it from everyone else. But at home it was sort of party time with everyone. I didnt hide it at all there I seemed to have the idea that it was a normal everyday life thing.
I found this webpage last weekend I did a search on "giving up marijuana"
The guy a bit paranoid here. Dont let it worry you because a bit of paranoia will keep you safe. If you have a lot of paranoia go see your doctor.
So far this time I have given up the Weed for 2 weeks now. I'm not sleeping much at all. Not sure if it has to do with my Bipolar Disorder and Im going Manic again or to do with not smoking the garbage. Anyway doesnt matter I called my doctor to come to see me. I will tell him what Im up to and let him decide.
(A mental illness : 1 person in 5 have a mental illness and 4 people in 5 wont let you forget it.)
I couldnt get to sleep before so I got back up and came here to read. Nearly 3am Thursday morning here now. Think I should go try sleeping now. If its possible LOL
Thanks if you read my dribble... See you again Soon.
Andrew
Here I am :-) the 49yr old thats smoked the garbage since 1972. Im new here but have been reading lots of your letters and I find you all a nice friendly bunch of people. In the 36years I smoked think I gave up twice and each time I lasted 6 months umm clean. I had heaps of other drug addictions in between but Weed was my favorite.
I had a load of different professional types of jobs. When I was at work would of been the times I would have to hide it from everyone else. But at home it was sort of party time with everyone. I didnt hide it at all there I seemed to have the idea that it was a normal everyday life thing.
I found this webpage last weekend I did a search on "giving up marijuana"
The guy a bit paranoid here. Dont let it worry you because a bit of paranoia will keep you safe. If you have a lot of paranoia go see your doctor.
So far this time I have given up the Weed for 2 weeks now. I'm not sleeping much at all. Not sure if it has to do with my Bipolar Disorder and Im going Manic again or to do with not smoking the garbage. Anyway doesnt matter I called my doctor to come to see me. I will tell him what Im up to and let him decide.
(A mental illness : 1 person in 5 have a mental illness and 4 people in 5 wont let you forget it.)
I couldnt get to sleep before so I got back up and came here to read. Nearly 3am Thursday morning here now. Think I should go try sleeping now. If its possible LOL
Thanks if you read my dribble... See you again Soon.
Andrew
all normal reactions to stopping pot
Hey Graham
Just been reading your posts.....good for you!!
I am off it 2 weeks, very hard when my husband is still at it but I have decided to take reponsibility for me and not let his decisions make mine.
I
I also WAS a secret smoker, no one knew, only my smoker pals not my closest friends... i am a professional worker and most peopel would be shcoked.
So how are you going now?
Just been reading your posts.....good for you!!
I am off it 2 weeks, very hard when my husband is still at it but I have decided to take reponsibility for me and not let his decisions make mine.
I
I also WAS a secret smoker, no one knew, only my smoker pals not my closest friends... i am a professional worker and most peopel would be shcoked.
So how are you going now?
hi oinky, i'm 49 too, but have only smoked since 76 off and on, but many years completely 100% ON. I am now straight for 3 days since I'm away on a short trip and left my bag at home. I was straight from Aug07 to July06 and I've had a number of periods where I've been clean for a year or more. But eventually I get this ache inside and I walk around with it, and eventually I give in, and the ache goes away and I am very happy for a bit.
I will be at my car tomorrow night late and we'll see what happnes.
pot has a chance of creating a complete disaster of my life if i get caught, otherwise i handle it pretty well.
I will be at my car tomorrow night late and we'll see what happnes.
pot has a chance of creating a complete disaster of my life if i get caught, otherwise i handle it pretty well.
Hi all,
Ive had mixed success. I found it difficult to keep my motivation. I have very easy access to good grass. Its no more awkward that buying milk.
Anyway, months later, countless relapes, but if nothing else i was smoking less and less. I quit cigs a while back and that has made things a lot easier.
I havent smoked a spliff in a week and feel a lot better for it. The faint haze of paranoia is gone. Its like a drug in itself. Im learning to deal with the boredom.
Ive had mixed success. I found it difficult to keep my motivation. I have very easy access to good grass. Its no more awkward that buying milk.
Anyway, months later, countless relapes, but if nothing else i was smoking less and less. I quit cigs a while back and that has made things a lot easier.
I havent smoked a spliff in a week and feel a lot better for it. The faint haze of paranoia is gone. Its like a drug in itself. Im learning to deal with the boredom.
