2 Days Clean

Heroin
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I'm going through withdraw and its the worst! I cam't find any weed. and i am having these crazy thoughts in my head. Im so depressed right now. Dont know what to so. I was using h for 2 years and got clean for six months. just relapsed twice in two months. The last using 4-5 bags daily for a week. I then quit for 8 days and went back using for another week. How bad is this going to be what should I do no one to talk to. 2 days clean at 1:oo am tonight. I need something. Helppppppppp!
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is anybody out there? please help me!!!!!!!1
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Jon,
What you need is to give yourself a chance! You are to be commended for making it this far...now continue to fight to take your life back. The pain and all the withdrawl that comes with addiction will come to pass.....you and your life are worth something to this life! All the best.
Darin
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I filp floped for about a year before stoping this time 14 months clean. Sometimes i'd just get dope sick be broke not motivated enough be to depressed to keep up so i'ld try to half a*s quit, my heart was not in it, soon as a friend droped by i was full into addiction again. Not to sound non supportive "i am" but, are you only out by no other choice or really putting effort into stoping now? Either way all those time I tried to stop lead up this stoping i'm at now. TO get to this I lost my children, lost my house, moved to a differnt state with a box of clothes to stay at my grandmothers. I HAVE NO contact with anyone who still uses exept my brother "can't cut him out". I Had to go to a methadone clinic for 7 months. It took losing it all to ACUALLY stop. I have my life back my own place I OWN STUFF! digital cams, t.vs, dvds, jewlery, i'm working on a car as i lost mine using. Those 1st few days are TERRIBLE everyone agrees even after that you need a plan to deal with the cravings. You've been clean 4 a while before you know the urge to use dose not stop because you stoped. Find a supportive person to lean on, maybe even try meetings, i still have yet to go to a meeting myself but, i know they help many people. If this is to much on your own, don't go back look full hearted into a rehab or methadone clinic. Always post here using or not using this board is a great step in getting to the right direction.
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before i was addicted to heroin i remember people sayin" yeah..3 days and no heroin" and i was thinkin to myself-what's 3 days??when it's 2-3 months-that's good. but after going thru it myself i Know that 2 days is really good, just find it within urself 2 carry on the good wirk a day at a time..best wishes, herman
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Two days seems like an eternity, doesn't it? You will start feeling better!!! I've found that really loud, really angry music helps me. I don't know why. It just does. I used to always play Lincoln Park,s Hybrid Theory over and over. Try it. It might help. PEACE, Shirley
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i agree. i love linkin.p. i used to listen to slipknot. to take my mind off it.
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thanks for all your comments have helped alot. just toke a shower, feel a little better. going to smoke some weed hopefully i can make it through the night! thanks guys

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hita mate hope your still sticking to it im on day 6 now on subutex and it was hard but soooo pleased i stuck to it and u will be to just roll yourself a big fat one and chill out id be losed without my smoke as it just chills ya when your feeling anxious when your feeling edgey just think of all that s*** what comes with the gear and if you really wanna wate your life surrendering to that stuff keep posting good juck let me know how u get on with it .
k
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Remember Jon when u had the good run of 8 days clean,ok you had a lapse not a total relapse&you are still trying to beat the devil,so your doin sumthin right.We all know wot a horror doin a rattle is,even with a bit of ganja,but its staying off thats the real day to day battle,as im sure you know.The muck is gonna be gone in a day or two,got any plans for after,take care mate,All the best ...Davey