Hi this is my first time on this page or any page for that matter.. I have been using since I was 15 when my dad was diagnosed with leukemia, long story short the sicker he got the more i used any kind of pain pills i could get my hands on. when i was 18 right before my graduation from high school he passed away I found myself using every day. It was soon time to go to college and i was using every day that i could get some but at this point I didn't have access to free pills anymore so it was about three days on three days off I call it geting "loaded" i had some control over it as far as i still went to class worked out and socialized with friends. At the begining of my 2nd year i lost all control, the only thing i wanted to do was get "loaded" watch tv and play video games. At the end of my 2nd year I told my mother and asked for help... she has been so understanding but she didn't know anything about any of this kind of thing. I moved in with her a few months later so she could help me, this would be the first time i had spent any real time with her since i was in 6th grade almost ten years ago. I have tryed lots of differnt things to help me quit, the most recent taking a nonnarcotic pain pills to help with the w/d but get the narcotics out of my body. But I dont think im doing enough because for the last week i have been sneeking into a safe that i was not even supposed to know about and stealing vic from my mom, I told her about it lastnight. The worst part is that i would never think about stealing money or anything else but i dont ever think twice about taking pain pills, and im so good at hiding every part of taking them that i dont even know how to protect myself.
hi tyler !
so glad you found this site.......
seems like you have been through alot....
but tyler there is HOPE and life after pills..........
please continue to post and learn......
God Bless you sweet heart..........
there are some nice gentleman here that are a wealth of information about recovery........
they will post to you.........
like tim, danny, jeffery, josh and kevin...
thumper
edit....just want to clarify...i mentioned men cause i believe your a man also...
the ladies here are awsome and loving also..........
((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))) everyone !
so glad you found this site.......
seems like you have been through alot....
but tyler there is HOPE and life after pills..........
please continue to post and learn......
God Bless you sweet heart..........
there are some nice gentleman here that are a wealth of information about recovery........
they will post to you.........
like tim, danny, jeffery, josh and kevin...
thumper
edit....just want to clarify...i mentioned men cause i believe your a man also...
the ladies here are awsome and loving also..........
((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))) everyone !
Tyler-Welcome
My friend,,,,we have such a similar beginning except now I'm a couple or three decades past you.LOL
I hope you can keep an open mind about what I share.
This is not going to go away.I started like you in my teens and although I did have stretches of sobriety,I had already developed all the earmarks of an addict.
I would switch to booze and then that would become a problem so I would go back to pills,speed,coke etc....anything to change my feelings.
The whole dillema was that all these substances were not my problems.The problem was why did I continually want to change how I felt?
There are some great 12 step recovery groups for teens.Alateen,NA.There are a lot of people your age and younger.Substance abuse is starting earlier and earlier these days.
If you try and isolate you just set yourself up because you can't do this alone.Your mom can't fix you and this BB can't fix you.It's a progressive disease that will get worse untreated.The most we can do is arrest it and start working on ourselves.You are a young man and if you can start treating it now the potential for you will be unfathomable.
I will post for you some more info.I have to go back to work.
I'm glad you are reaching out.
My friend,,,,we have such a similar beginning except now I'm a couple or three decades past you.LOL
I hope you can keep an open mind about what I share.
This is not going to go away.I started like you in my teens and although I did have stretches of sobriety,I had already developed all the earmarks of an addict.
I would switch to booze and then that would become a problem so I would go back to pills,speed,coke etc....anything to change my feelings.
The whole dillema was that all these substances were not my problems.The problem was why did I continually want to change how I felt?
There are some great 12 step recovery groups for teens.Alateen,NA.There are a lot of people your age and younger.Substance abuse is starting earlier and earlier these days.
If you try and isolate you just set yourself up because you can't do this alone.Your mom can't fix you and this BB can't fix you.It's a progressive disease that will get worse untreated.The most we can do is arrest it and start working on ourselves.You are a young man and if you can start treating it now the potential for you will be unfathomable.
I will post for you some more info.I have to go back to work.
I'm glad you are reaching out.
Tim and Thumper thank you for your posts I feel like im now doing the right thing.
I just found a meeting later 2 day that website was just what I needed.
I look foward to geting to know everyone thanks again!!!!!!!
I just found a meeting later 2 day that website was just what I needed.
I look foward to geting to know everyone thanks again!!!!!!!
Tim....you are awesome. It's not the drugs its the WANTING & NEED for the drugs. He is so right. You have to search out why you use...once you put a nail on that then you can correct the problem. Getting clean is easy...staying clean is the real fight.
