I can't believe it's already beem thirty days for me but it has I'm totally clean and feel great. I guess if I were going to meetings I would be getting my 30 day chip Huh? Instead of the chip I'll just have some Ice Cream before bed. To tell you the truth I'm very proud of myself for doing this cold turkey and at home. This may not be the route to take for everyone but it was good for me.
I just believe that if you really want to quit all these medications then if have to tell your mind and heart that this is the way its going to be and most importantly you have to believe in yourself.Unfortunately when we go through rough times like this we get down on ourselves and we feel we do not have the will power to get through, but we do.
I've been reading all the post and believe me all the hard times will pass and you future is much better after the first week.I do have one question and that is, should I be craving any of the medications I took? The reason I ask is because I crave nothing at all and seeing a lot of the post talking about cravings I just wondered if this was normal. Normal or not I do not want anything.
Anyway, thanks to everyone and I hope everyone will feel better soon.
TH
Congatulations on your 30 days, you took the hard route and made it, you get a big high five from me. Hey, consider yourself lucky you dont have cravings, I hope to make 30 days soon and it would be a godsend if I dont have cravings.
JohnDee
JohnDee
Trying hard,
Exactly what and how much were you taking? I'm just wondering because I'm trying to do this at home too and I am already feeling very anxious. I am tapering and have my friend holding my pills, because when I have them, even though I have good intentions, I still take them.
Could you please give me that info and anything else that you did to help through the withdrawls? i appreciate it. Congrats on 30 days. You must be a very strong person. Thanks in advance and have a good night.
Perc.
Exactly what and how much were you taking? I'm just wondering because I'm trying to do this at home too and I am already feeling very anxious. I am tapering and have my friend holding my pills, because when I have them, even though I have good intentions, I still take them.
Could you please give me that info and anything else that you did to help through the withdrawls? i appreciate it. Congrats on 30 days. You must be a very strong person. Thanks in advance and have a good night.
Perc.
Per/Oc
I was averaging around 5-6 10/500 a day for about 9 months in total. Yes I have back pain but the strange thing is that since I have stopped my back pain has improved. My body thought I neede them so I took them.
My advice to you is,if you aren't taking very many now,just quit them altogether.
Flush what you have and be done with it. Once you do this your heart will tell your mind that you mean business and you are going to recover from this crap. Thats what I did and it worked. The mind can play tricks on you if you let it. I say turn the tables and you take control. Weaning is good for some but for others c/t has to be the way to go.
Yes I am a very strong person but at a time I felt the weakest and vunerable I turned to medication for my pain instead of being strong.I just thought it was time to take back my life and be the strong person I once was. This is all about decisions and we have to decide to make them and make good ones.
You have already made an important decision to quit now may be the time to make another one. The first 3-5 days are hell but after that it will get better and better and before you know it 30 days have gone by.
Be strong and decisive and everything will work out in your favor.
Best Wishes,
TH
I was averaging around 5-6 10/500 a day for about 9 months in total. Yes I have back pain but the strange thing is that since I have stopped my back pain has improved. My body thought I neede them so I took them.
My advice to you is,if you aren't taking very many now,just quit them altogether.
Flush what you have and be done with it. Once you do this your heart will tell your mind that you mean business and you are going to recover from this crap. Thats what I did and it worked. The mind can play tricks on you if you let it. I say turn the tables and you take control. Weaning is good for some but for others c/t has to be the way to go.
Yes I am a very strong person but at a time I felt the weakest and vunerable I turned to medication for my pain instead of being strong.I just thought it was time to take back my life and be the strong person I once was. This is all about decisions and we have to decide to make them and make good ones.
You have already made an important decision to quit now may be the time to make another one. The first 3-5 days are hell but after that it will get better and better and before you know it 30 days have gone by.
Be strong and decisive and everything will work out in your favor.
Best Wishes,
TH
TH,
Thanks for your reply. I was taking double what you were. Do you think that makes a big difference or will w/ds basically be the same? Will it be dangerous for me? Thats what I'm worried about. I figured if I could wean down some, then it would not be such a major shock to my body. Am I just making excuses? Idont know anymore. Guess I'm just scared. I know alot of it is mental, but just not having my pills with me is sending me into a panic attack!! I do want this with all my heart. For myself and my children. Do you still think I should just quit c/t? Thanks.
Thanks for your reply. I was taking double what you were. Do you think that makes a big difference or will w/ds basically be the same? Will it be dangerous for me? Thats what I'm worried about. I figured if I could wean down some, then it would not be such a major shock to my body. Am I just making excuses? Idont know anymore. Guess I'm just scared. I know alot of it is mental, but just not having my pills with me is sending me into a panic attack!! I do want this with all my heart. For myself and my children. Do you still think I should just quit c/t? Thanks.
per/oc
Obivously I'm not a doctor and do not want to tell you what to do however if you feel you need to wean off a little before you quit altogether then thats what you should do. W/d from hydro is not as dangerous as some other drugs but it is still uncomfortable.
YEs you are making excuses but thats okay too because you have to do what is right for you and the main thing is that you recover. I will tell you though that it is a great feeling when you tell yourself I do not need them anymore and just decide enough is enough. It certainly sounds like you are determined to beat this so I'm sure you will do the right thing for you. I will tell you that if you decide to go c/t then take a few days off work to take care of yourself and that doesn't mean don't do anything. Once you quit stay busy and try to exercise and try your best to go through a normal day.
You can do this so please have faith in yourself and reach out to others when your in need. People really do care! Sounds to me like your children have a strong parent and need you around for a long time to come.
TH
Obivously I'm not a doctor and do not want to tell you what to do however if you feel you need to wean off a little before you quit altogether then thats what you should do. W/d from hydro is not as dangerous as some other drugs but it is still uncomfortable.
YEs you are making excuses but thats okay too because you have to do what is right for you and the main thing is that you recover. I will tell you though that it is a great feeling when you tell yourself I do not need them anymore and just decide enough is enough. It certainly sounds like you are determined to beat this so I'm sure you will do the right thing for you. I will tell you that if you decide to go c/t then take a few days off work to take care of yourself and that doesn't mean don't do anything. Once you quit stay busy and try to exercise and try your best to go through a normal day.
You can do this so please have faith in yourself and reach out to others when your in need. People really do care! Sounds to me like your children have a strong parent and need you around for a long time to come.
TH
trying hard way to go on making it 30 days i got 9 days to go and I will be at 30 to no chip for me either but maybe the counselor will throw me a party lol i am not finding to many prolbems with cravings except for the one day i was working and it was raining an cold as s*** that was a really bad day keep on going and before 60 will be in your sights
TH -- congrats on your 30 days. I can't say I had a lot of "cravings" at 30 days either, but it's a long road we walk, stay vigilant.
Perc/oc -- I was doing 20-30 hydro 10s a day and, like you, was afraid of the w/d. It's natural. I tapered down to 6/day over the course of 2 weeks, and then went c/t. It was my first time in w/d. I got all the flu symptoms, restless legs, and had trouble sleeping for a while, but my fear of it was worse than the reality. Hang in, and good luck to you. M.
Perc/oc -- I was doing 20-30 hydro 10s a day and, like you, was afraid of the w/d. It's natural. I tapered down to 6/day over the course of 2 weeks, and then went c/t. It was my first time in w/d. I got all the flu symptoms, restless legs, and had trouble sleeping for a while, but my fear of it was worse than the reality. Hang in, and good luck to you. M.
Dear None4ME,
Thank GOD I'm not the ONLY person in the world awake right now:)
Yes, I think so much of it REALLY is in the mind. Actually, I think I KNOW that now.
Rachel REB
Thank GOD I'm not the ONLY person in the world awake right now:)
Yes, I think so much of it REALLY is in the mind. Actually, I think I KNOW that now.
Rachel REB
Congratulations TH! 30 days is a huge achievement, way to go!
For me, this is truly a "disease of the mind". Stay strong and a day at a time you will continue to reap the rewards of a clean and sober life.
Jim
For me, this is truly a "disease of the mind". Stay strong and a day at a time you will continue to reap the rewards of a clean and sober life.
Jim
Dear TH and None:
Thanks for the words of encouragement. I have read that alot of people are more scared of the w/d than they actually are. Of course, I know its going to take time to get this crap out of my system. I cant believe I've been taking them for a year already- time flies- I hope it flies the same when getting off these little monsters. I have tapered down ALOT and am already feeling stomach pains, couldnt sleep last night- do you really think I could just dump them and go on? Will I be able to function at all. I still have kids to think about and really no one to help (nearby). They have to go to school, so I cant just send them off to a relative to "visit" for a week. They do have next Wed, Thur and Fri off for Thanksgiving. We're supposed to be going to their grandmothers -she want the kids to spend the weekend with her. So I might just bow out on Thanksgiving dinner and say that I have "the flu" and let the kids go and enjoy themselves. I dont think I'll feel like eating a big dinner anyway. If I could do this, maybe I'd be feeling alot better by Christmas? I hope- I just dont want my kids to suffer because of my problems. Of course, I know in the long run, I'm going to be a better mother for this. I'm just so confused right now. Thanks everyone for their input. P.
Thanks for the words of encouragement. I have read that alot of people are more scared of the w/d than they actually are. Of course, I know its going to take time to get this crap out of my system. I cant believe I've been taking them for a year already- time flies- I hope it flies the same when getting off these little monsters. I have tapered down ALOT and am already feeling stomach pains, couldnt sleep last night- do you really think I could just dump them and go on? Will I be able to function at all. I still have kids to think about and really no one to help (nearby). They have to go to school, so I cant just send them off to a relative to "visit" for a week. They do have next Wed, Thur and Fri off for Thanksgiving. We're supposed to be going to their grandmothers -she want the kids to spend the weekend with her. So I might just bow out on Thanksgiving dinner and say that I have "the flu" and let the kids go and enjoy themselves. I dont think I'll feel like eating a big dinner anyway. If I could do this, maybe I'd be feeling alot better by Christmas? I hope- I just dont want my kids to suffer because of my problems. Of course, I know in the long run, I'm going to be a better mother for this. I'm just so confused right now. Thanks everyone for their input. P.
th
i am spo proud of you if i stayed with it i would now be on day 24 but i slid back and am now back on 3 methadone 10's a day it is a long way from 10 to 12 a day but i still have to try to make it. maybe in a week i will be on 2 a day.. i must say you and bad attitude have been my strongest partners in this. you guy's keep praying for me and i will make it. i know you are alot stronger than i am but i have been on pain killers now for about 6 or 7 yrs. went from darvocet to lortab to norco 10's to kadian to methadone. at one time i was seeing my rhumetologist and 2 pain clinics i know this is illegal and it scared the h*** out of me but now am just seeing my rhumetologist. i have come along way this year by next year hopefully by spring i will be totally clean my wife is on pain killers too . methadone . she seems to think if we can stay at about 3 pill per day we will be fine i am in pain most of the time but i think i will be o.k. if i finally get off this junk. but it will be hard for me if she is still on it. i know it is alot of if's, and's or but's.. however if you can i believe i can. and bad attitude has done it. i believe i can so keep up the good job and stay strong for you, and all of us
thanks
johnny
i am spo proud of you if i stayed with it i would now be on day 24 but i slid back and am now back on 3 methadone 10's a day it is a long way from 10 to 12 a day but i still have to try to make it. maybe in a week i will be on 2 a day.. i must say you and bad attitude have been my strongest partners in this. you guy's keep praying for me and i will make it. i know you are alot stronger than i am but i have been on pain killers now for about 6 or 7 yrs. went from darvocet to lortab to norco 10's to kadian to methadone. at one time i was seeing my rhumetologist and 2 pain clinics i know this is illegal and it scared the h*** out of me but now am just seeing my rhumetologist. i have come along way this year by next year hopefully by spring i will be totally clean my wife is on pain killers too . methadone . she seems to think if we can stay at about 3 pill per day we will be fine i am in pain most of the time but i think i will be o.k. if i finally get off this junk. but it will be hard for me if she is still on it. i know it is alot of if's, and's or but's.. however if you can i believe i can. and bad attitude has done it. i believe i can so keep up the good job and stay strong for you, and all of us
thanks
johnny
Hey...good job 30 days clean...let me ask you....when do you feel normal? I am on day 12 and I still have a cloudy feeling in my head...my eyes don't feel clear...can you help me out on this ?
I can't wait to be 30 days!!!
I can't wait to be 30 days!!!
Katboyd, Atoz,
I hope you are having a nice day. Katboyd, in another week or so you should feel pretty good although you still may not sleep great. I do understand the cloudy feeling you are having. Its kinda like you really can't focus real well right? That will pass and I feel absolutely perfect today with no side affects whatsoever.
It is a good feeling.
Atoz, I appreciate the support from you as well however it seems to me you are doing fantatic yourself. From what you were taking to what you are taking now I think that is a great accomplishment. As far as slipping back do not worry about that. Sometimes it takes a bump in the road to set you back to learn hoe to handle the situation next time it comes up. We have to learn from our mistakes. I am a very strong person but when I put things in perspective I get even stronger. I just thought it was time to end this crap for my family and when it comes to them nothing will come between our hapiness. Anyway you keep it up and I guarantee you will make it.You will gain strength everyday you cut back or quit so do not give up.
Take Care,
TH
way to go, trying hard. 30 days is a major accomplishment.
serenity is on it's way,,,
kerry
serenity is on it's way,,,
kerry
I am so glad you let me know that the "cloudy feeling will go away. I was wondering if there was permanant damage to my eyesight. Sometimes I feel like I am not in my body....and that I can't focus right. I am on day 13 today.....tomorrow will be two weeks. I haven't had anything in my system for that long. I went off cold turkey at home....for all of you out there .... you can do it at home. You have to make sure you have NO access to pills because it isn't fun. Believe me, I found myself searching all of my hiding places during withdrawal .... it's hard. I tried my hardest to keep up with my everyday life, except on the weekends I would pretty much stay home and not want to talk to anyone.....It's so weird how you can go from being a total socialite...to a complete recluse. Every day gets better....I can't wait for my eyes to clear.
congradulation tryinghard. Keep on doing what you are doing.
