Hi! I used cold turkey method to stop smoking weed. Now I haven't smoked 30 days. And so hasn' t my boyfriend. Before that we smoked about 2 years. We have known each other since childhood and been together on and off about 3 years. I feel like I am going crazy. I have always been emotional type but recent month has been the worst. I am feeling sad and depressed all the time. I am getting accupuncture treatment in the rehab center twice week and it makes me calm, but the rest of the time I am very unstable. I cry often and it is because of negative thoughts that I am constantly and obsessivly thinking about. Those thoughts are mostly about my life choices, the relationhip that I am in and work. Currently I am unemployed because of my anxiety attacks I feel like I am lacking energy to get a job. My boyfriend is doing alright and none of us has carvings for weed. We have lots of tensions between one another and it is hard to cope with all that. I am not sure if I love him anymore since the things he says during arguments hurt me so much. Sometimes if it gets tough we drink together. It takes the tension away. When things are good I am starting to belive that we can make it last. He says he loves me. But I am not sure if I can handle it anymore. Because of our financial situation we can't split up and move apart. In that manner we are supporting one another. And the sex is great as well. But mentally it is so exhausting.
I am afraid to tell my parents about the situation, because I don't want to make them worry and since they live far away, I can' t move back in with them anyways. My life is in the city I live now. I feel like I don' t know who I am anymore. Suddenly everything seems negtive and I don' t know what to do about it. I don' t want to make decisions that I would later regret. Especially since I am not in a good mental state right now. I need some help, I can't continue like that anymore. Any advice is welcome...
Are you attending NA meetings?
Putting the drug of choice down is just the beginning, not the end (if you are an addict like me)
The 12 Steps and meetings will help you get and stay clean, sane and grateful.
Here is Narcotics Anonymous BIG BOOK online. Read some and see if you can identify.
http://www.coastalcarolinaarea.org/...e/books/b_t.pdf
All the best.
Bob R
Putting the drug of choice down is just the beginning, not the end (if you are an addict like me)
The 12 Steps and meetings will help you get and stay clean, sane and grateful.
Here is Narcotics Anonymous BIG BOOK online. Read some and see if you can identify.
http://www.coastalcarolinaarea.org/...e/books/b_t.pdf
All the best.
Bob R
