Hello Everyone,
Well here I am 30 days sober! Wow,God and I did it together one day @ a time. Finding this site was a God Send. Finding all of you has given me so much hope! You taught me that theres no shame to admitting that I can't do it alone. Which lead me to re-hab, which led me to private counseling,which led me to AA. All of this made me understand that this is a disease. Now I'm grateful that my disease is called Alcoholism which can be treated. For there are disease's for which no treatment is available. Although 30 days is still a short time I can tell you my life & my families life's is so much better today. I'm not as depressed,neither is my family. I still have days but I'm learning thru God,counseling that I can change my attitude one of which is so much more positive then before. Spirtial progress not perfection! I'm glad that I realize that I'm capable,that I'm not doomed. I have along way to go in recover,it is still a slippery slope for me. Years of habit can be changed one day @ at a time. For now I stay away from bars & people who drink for I'm just not strong enough yet. Alcohol was literally killing me inside & out. I drank for 30 yrs the last 12 or so hard. It came to a point where my once high tolerance for alcohol had disappeared. Alcohol no longer fixed my depression,my anxiety,my escape,my insomnia,my fatigue,my isolation,my fears,my lonliness,my self concept,my self image what other's think of me, my so called fun. It got to the point where I drank for every reason under the sun. I'm not joking when I say it nearly stole my life. Today I'm not so lonely,I have hope,I brush my teeth at night,I exercise,I eat healthier,I sleep better,I laugh more,I spend time in God's word,I pray more,I go to bed earlier,I get up earlier,I'm focused on the present not the past,I make meals,I sometimes bake cookies,I garden,I throw the ball for the dog,I write on this board,I'm there for my family, I'm there for a stranger, I'm there for me, I'm there for any of you on this board if you need me. I havn't had a job for almost 6 yrs because of alcohol. I can hope that with more sober time more clarity I will one day be employed again. I can hope that my brain will return to some where normal. I can remember a woman who once was so organized,who was intelligent,who could accomplish many tasks in any given day. I can remember parts of my last few drunks & the negative consequences of that behavior. I can remember today how my life & my families life's have improved from not drinking. My private therapist told me the one thing booze didn't steal from me was my kind heart towards others. She was right for I truly was that Dr.Jekyl Mr.Hyde drunk. Dear God, please help me to stay sober one day @ time. I can no longer cope with life thru alcohol. I don't ever want to go back being that hopeless,crazy,mean spirited,irresponsable drunk woman. I want to be the person that God intended for me to be. A sober woman who can be a positive contributer to herself, to her family, to society. Thankyou,for letting me share. Love, Chris
~hug~
~APPLAUSE~
Liberating, ain't it?
~APPLAUSE~
Liberating, ain't it?
Ditto.
What a great post Lookinup. I love the feeling of liberation round here at the moment!! So pleasing to hear those little things you are doing that make all the difference; brushing your teeth at night, getting up in the morning, throwing the ball for the dog - cool, the dog must be well chuffed too!!
What a great post Lookinup. I love the feeling of liberation round here at the moment!! So pleasing to hear those little things you are doing that make all the difference; brushing your teeth at night, getting up in the morning, throwing the ball for the dog - cool, the dog must be well chuffed too!!
Happy Birthday Chris...
30days is HUGE! Congratulations and thank you so much for sharing...I absolutely love reading your posts and watching you blossom...You are such an inspiration and make sure you treat yourself to something real special on your birthday today!
Again, Happy birthday...
Take care,
Stacey
30days is HUGE! Congratulations and thank you so much for sharing...I absolutely love reading your posts and watching you blossom...You are such an inspiration and make sure you treat yourself to something real special on your birthday today!
Again, Happy birthday...
Take care,
Stacey
Congradulations, Lookinup! its good to have you back with us!!!!
one day at a time Cookster
one day at a time Cookster
Lookinup, 30 days is so awesome!
Hi Chris
Congrats that is awesome. I remember the first time I made 30 days sober I couldn't believe I'd finally done it. I didn't think it was ever possible!!! But it is and so many more wonderful things are coming your way.
take care
Idgie.
Congrats that is awesome. I remember the first time I made 30 days sober I couldn't believe I'd finally done it. I didn't think it was ever possible!!! But it is and so many more wonderful things are coming your way.
take care
Idgie.
Gidday Lookinup
Congradulations on 30 days, keep posting and doing all you need to do to stay sober. One day at a time, it works if we work at it and it is such a cool achievement.
Light and love Zac
Congradulations on 30 days, keep posting and doing all you need to do to stay sober. One day at a time, it works if we work at it and it is such a cool achievement.
Light and love Zac
WELL DONE XX
Hey cool! My official 30 is next week, although I've been doing this for a while. Congrats--now don't celebrate too much.
"If you haven't had a drink today, give your Higher Power a hand"
"If you haven't had a drink today, give your Higher Power a hand"
Thankyou, for all your kind words I really do appreciate the positive feedback.
Thankyou, Chris
Thankyou, Chris
Today's my (re)birthday--30 days of serenity and sobriety. I'm chem-free, alcohol-free, angst-free and free-to-be-me. Prior to that I was living the dry life--and totally miserable.
Just for today, it's good to be alive.
Just for today, it's good to be alive.
Yay! Go you! I hear the joy in your post - more to come...~:~MomNMore~:~
Well done skg. That is so cool, you must be well proud of yourself. Here's to the next 30, and the next and the next .......
Yesterday was my (re)birthday--60 days of serenity and sobriety. I'm chem-free, alcohol-free, angst-free and free-to-be-me. STILL.
Just for today, it's good to be alive.
Just for today, it's good to be alive.
