I QUIT mdone (4 to 6/10mgs a day), on November 12, 06. 1 week later, relapsed back to compounded hydros (15/325) 6 to 9 a day for 2 weeks..I guess I tried to taper? Actually I am just so glad to have my sense of humor again because I am 8 days "PURE" now! That just don't even sound like an accomplishment, but I became so hardcore, that you all must know where I am coming from. Those 6 to 9 a day were only half of what I was actually doing WITH mdone on the side. WHAT AN IDIOT! Just in a week, I have gained 8 lbs, I was down to 110, and still no one came forward, and i would have lied anyway.
After I attended 2 funerals in early November, I think I finally got hit with the right brick. One of the deaths was oxy contin related. He was truley hurt, but it escalated out of control.It just stopped his heart. He was a great guy, 48 years young. I want to make it to 48, I am 47. I am extremely stubborn, and had no help other than the internet. I knew what to expect, as I had quit Hydros before, but the other doc, sure had me messed up! I have a great friend who has been my lifeline. He will never truley know what help he has been.
I AM FINALLY MAKING IT! I absolutly appriciate the day to day accounts, and I can't count back to November now because I screwed up a week later. But, when you are at day 6 and you can't get out of bed? This is a great place to see it is a short time away. Thanks to everyone!!!!
Congrats to you. Keep it up.
hugs,
Heath
hugs,
Heath
Brendi...just wanted to say a big hello to you and congrats man! Thats fantastic...its a tough road but look at you...way to go. I am praying that you get some f2f help...councelling meetings.....there are so many groups out there to help you through this!! You are not alone.....
Way to rock!!
*edited to say* come on guys!! lets lend a little support here! Its so frustrating to see so many posts on silly threads...and this one has all but 2!!!
This person is in need of some comfort!! That is what this place is really for!!!!!
Hugs to you...Brendi..keep it up!! That really is quite an accomplishment....and CT too! You are very strong!!
Way to rock!!
*edited to say* come on guys!! lets lend a little support here! Its so frustrating to see so many posts on silly threads...and this one has all but 2!!!
This person is in need of some comfort!! That is what this place is really for!!!!!
Hugs to you...Brendi..keep it up!! That really is quite an accomplishment....and CT too! You are very strong!!
Brendidi...
8 days is awesome and I remember that is about the time the fog was lifting, I started feeling better physically and had some hope...Remember to be good to yourself and day by day, it does get better....
Congratulations...you are a miracle...
Take care,
Stacry
8 days is awesome and I remember that is about the time the fog was lifting, I started feeling better physically and had some hope...Remember to be good to yourself and day by day, it does get better....
Congratulations...you are a miracle...
Take care,
Stacry
Good on you for 8 days Brendidi!!!!!!! One foot in front of the other, one day at a time...
Congratulations!
Jan
Congratulations!
Jan
Welcome Brndi and keep posting..you are doing a wonderful job..you are going to make 47..and many more after that..
Brandi.........
Welcome to the board.......
You are doing an amazing thing...............Keep up the good work.
Please keep posting here, We are all here for you every step of the way.
Hugs.
Welcome to the board.......
You are doing an amazing thing...............Keep up the good work.
Please keep posting here, We are all here for you every step of the way.
Hugs.
Wow, thanks for the cheers! I look s forward to the two week mark. It seems everyone feels good again by then? So far, the most annoying thing has been my back aching. I think just being in bed so long? A heat pad is helping. I try to get out during the day, and next week I have work to do. I was lucky and scheduled my time off the last week and a half. Can anyone relate to the back pain?
I looked forward to that week 2 as well. But.. I suffered well into my third week. Its different for everyone. But.. you have two digit clean time soon. Keep it up
It does get better, slowly but it does.
It does get better, slowly but it does.
Thanks Dog, I have been checking out your posts, and it is an inspiration! This has really made me see how poison it really is to the system. I did it 5 years, so I didn't expect easy. The sweating at night is really strange. It actually smells foul, and it's a lot like I stepped out of a shower. Hate to be so descript, but any of that happen to you?
I have to laugh, 8 days? I know that sounds so small, but it really was tough to get here. I am in for the long haul (and I never say never, but I can sure relate. I'll be looking for meetings next week, when i can drive!
hey - 8 days is awesome.
only? hahahaha. no way- it's wonderful.
hang in there - give your body a chance to adjust & go back to "normal". just give it a chance. like reddog mentioned, it's different for everyone - but just give it a chance. you owe it to yourself.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
only? hahahaha. no way- it's wonderful.
hang in there - give your body a chance to adjust & go back to "normal". just give it a chance. like reddog mentioned, it's different for everyone - but just give it a chance. you owe it to yourself.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Brenda..you hang in there...8 days is no small feat. Withraw from opiates is really tough..8 whole days....thats a huge!!!!
Brendidi,
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whoopeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!
8 days is huge. 8 days drug free is a major accomplishment.
Get out and walk and enjoy your new found freedom. Take good care of yourself now you have earned it. Get you hair done and a manicure. Splurge on yourself.
You have given yourself the most wonderfull Chistmas gift you will ever recieve.
Catherine
PS: I know all about "that aching back" lol. That will go away to.
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whoopeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!
8 days is huge. 8 days drug free is a major accomplishment.
Get out and walk and enjoy your new found freedom. Take good care of yourself now you have earned it. Get you hair done and a manicure. Splurge on yourself.
You have given yourself the most wonderfull Chistmas gift you will ever recieve.
Catherine
PS: I know all about "that aching back" lol. That will go away to.
Bren:
Welcome to the Board. Eight days is great!!! I had a sore back for a long time. I went to the Chiropractor, had Accupuncture and massages. That seemed to help. Try some light stretching and small walks, if you can :-)
~Rachel
Welcome to the Board. Eight days is great!!! I had a sore back for a long time. I went to the Chiropractor, had Accupuncture and massages. That seemed to help. Try some light stretching and small walks, if you can :-)
~Rachel
You guys are awesome! Something that started so "legally" and slow sure graduates into an absolute nightmare! I will take whatever time it takes. I remember quitting smoking, 5 years ago (I smoked 22 years, took me 6 tries) That was worse mentally, this is REALLY physical! Who would ever imagined a pill that made you feel good for so long, really only wanted to beat the crap out of you from the inside out! I have taken little cell phone pics, and I can't even believe it was me 8 days ago! I was really sick. I have done this before but never twice in a month frm 2 different addictions! The mdone was suppose to help get me off the hydro. After that horrible spout was over (mdone gone now since 11-12-06) I thought the hydro would be a breeze. Solly me, but you know... all this pain and I will NOT loose my sense of humor. I will look back and laugh? No, but I believe I will support anyone else through it, not judge an addict, and realize that we can all screw up sometimes. Another reason for this, is that I have a friend ( who followed my footsteps with both drugs). I am sick about that, as she is about a year behind me. I have to be there for her.
Great job,
Keep up the good work. It's such an inspiration to see so many newcomers doing so well.
Awesome!!
Wendy
Keep up the good work. It's such an inspiration to see so many newcomers doing so well.
Awesome!!
Wendy
Hurray for newcomers!
I get my 30 day chip on Sunday night. Then I am eating Chinese food for celebration. I havent had any in one month. Im ready lol
Its the small things that matter
I get my 30 day chip on Sunday night. Then I am eating Chinese food for celebration. I havent had any in one month. Im ready lol
Its the small things that matter
Brendidi,
You have laugh about going through WD's and all the rest of it. Always keep your sence of humor. A good sence of humor about things get's you over the hard spots.
It will always amaze how a itsy bitsy little pill took over my life. Of course I was the one who chose to munch 20 to 30 a day! Maybe if I had followed the directions on the bottle? Oh well to late now.
Catherine
You have laugh about going through WD's and all the rest of it. Always keep your sence of humor. A good sence of humor about things get's you over the hard spots.
It will always amaze how a itsy bitsy little pill took over my life. Of course I was the one who chose to munch 20 to 30 a day! Maybe if I had followed the directions on the bottle? Oh well to late now.
Catherine
Brendidi,
Welcome. Thanks for sharing your story, and congrats on 8 days clean. I can totally relate to the sweating and back pain. The sweating grossed me out so bad. I couldn't wait for it to be gone. I did many things for the back pain, it lingered so long. Then it felt like restless legs syndrome, but in my spine! The best thing for it is to get up and move. Stretching helped a lot and so did chiropractic, especially the electrical stimulation machines they have.
That's a lot of methadone to come off of and I'm so happy you are doing this well. I hope you stick around. You'll find lots of support and information here, and I'm sure you will be an inspiration to others who are working to be where you are now.
Welcome. Thanks for sharing your story, and congrats on 8 days clean. I can totally relate to the sweating and back pain. The sweating grossed me out so bad. I couldn't wait for it to be gone. I did many things for the back pain, it lingered so long. Then it felt like restless legs syndrome, but in my spine! The best thing for it is to get up and move. Stretching helped a lot and so did chiropractic, especially the electrical stimulation machines they have.
That's a lot of methadone to come off of and I'm so happy you are doing this well. I hope you stick around. You'll find lots of support and information here, and I'm sure you will be an inspiration to others who are working to be where you are now.
