Hi To All
Ive been posting to this board since Nov 06, not very long but what an impact it had on me. Ive only posted 5/6 times and will hopefully do a lot more, as I am in the early stages of my de-tox (started Nov 05, yes 05). Ive been de-toxing very slowly because after over 30 years of Heroin addiction I really believe this has to be the time.
Ive never been a great fan of N/A but I do think as we all go down those different roads to addiction, there are many different ways to recovery and if it works for you then its the right way. After reading lots of posts on this board I have got a list of the local N/A meeting, my mind is telling me go have a look, the last time I went to one was over 20 years ago and that was by order of the courts, so things have changed. Ive changed.
This is what Im getting from all your posts, your question & answers, ideas, its all very thought provoking. I go to bed after a session on this board with my mind buzzing; yes my brain is working again.
I do feel very lucky living here in UK, when I read that some of you having to pay for your script and having to travel long distances to attend a doctor that will treat you. I was always in my little world of addiction, reading the posts from all over the world shows just how global it is.
Things have really changed since my early days, I never wouldve believed I would be able to go to my local chemist and collect meth, sub whatever and be treated like a person. And there were never places like this board. Youve all made a very real impact on me and my life for that a BIG Thank You.
Peter
p.s. I do get little confused with the time difference, but do logon most nights 2200/2400
Hey Pete,
It sounds like you've got your head in a good place. This message board has also helped me out alot! I don't feel so alone now. I've tried na in the past and I've been meaning to go again adn check out the local na here. One group will feel completely different than another. What I mean is, sometimes, it's not the na philosophy. It's just that you don't mesh with that particular group. It's a good idea to check out a few different groups before you decide yea or nay. Listen to me!!! I'm giving advice and I can't even get off my lazy rear and go myself. I promise!! I'll go to a meeting this week! (well, I'll try.lol) No! I'll go. I'm sure, that even if I am not comfortable, I'll learn something that I can take with me. And that's the whole idea. Sorry I'm rambling. Glad to see you're hanging in there. Keep up the good work.
It sounds like you've got your head in a good place. This message board has also helped me out alot! I don't feel so alone now. I've tried na in the past and I've been meaning to go again adn check out the local na here. One group will feel completely different than another. What I mean is, sometimes, it's not the na philosophy. It's just that you don't mesh with that particular group. It's a good idea to check out a few different groups before you decide yea or nay. Listen to me!!! I'm giving advice and I can't even get off my lazy rear and go myself. I promise!! I'll go to a meeting this week! (well, I'll try.lol) No! I'll go. I'm sure, that even if I am not comfortable, I'll learn something that I can take with me. And that's the whole idea. Sorry I'm rambling. Glad to see you're hanging in there. Keep up the good work.
Hi Shirley
I've always received very warm welcomes on joining this board and I do enjoy all the very different opinions from everyone, never too old to learn. I'm interested in what's making me so determined this time as I wasn't what they call rock bottom. I can remember in 1995 sitting in a prison called 'Dartmoor' one of our worst, I was in the seg unit accused of bringing drugs into the prison and just starting a 5year sentence I thought that was my rock bottom. But on the day I was released, (in time for the milenium) I went right out and used. Then 18 months ago decided one more go and I'm so glad things are going well, but I'm not taking anything for granted.
Peter
I do love my Pink Floyd music
I've always received very warm welcomes on joining this board and I do enjoy all the very different opinions from everyone, never too old to learn. I'm interested in what's making me so determined this time as I wasn't what they call rock bottom. I can remember in 1995 sitting in a prison called 'Dartmoor' one of our worst, I was in the seg unit accused of bringing drugs into the prison and just starting a 5year sentence I thought that was my rock bottom. But on the day I was released, (in time for the milenium) I went right out and used. Then 18 months ago decided one more go and I'm so glad things are going well, but I'm not taking anything for granted.
Peter
I do love my Pink Floyd music
Now I get the name: Darkside! Cool! I definetely had a bottom. I didn't stop at that point but that's when I started trying desperateley to quit. It was a nightmare. I was homeless, my husband was in prison, I had no friends and my family would have nothing to do with me. That's when I realized that heroin wasn't covering up the pain anymore. I guess I finally realized that it was the cause of the pain. It was an uphill battle after that but it gets easier and I do have my family back. I'm especially grateful to have my son,s respect back. Like I said, It's helped alot being able to get stuff off my chest here also. My husband spent 10 yrs. in prison. (where he was clean 90% of the time) He also got high the day he got out. That's the power of addiction. That's the darkside of the moon!
