I went to my Christmas party. Greedy, selfish, expecting at the very least to come home with a ham. I left in tears, with a great lesson learned.
Christmas is for giving. No matter how angry I had gotten over deals lost or stolen, I was leaving my family. People that care about others, People willing to go without, in order to help a precious member of the flock. It was decided that rather than give presents and door prizes to the family members, there was one of our fellow realtors, in dire need.
You see, this man and his wife are going to deliver a baby girl, on the 18th. There are some problems with the child, she has a hole in her diaphram, they are not sure what other birth defects that she will have, she will be struggling for her life, the minute she gets it. The realtor family raised money, the company offered to match donations up to $2,000. A prayer was said and the announcement that they had raised over $2,400, so the couple would have over $4,400 to help with the expenses. I felt so humbled, so selfish, like a Grinch. I went to get my goods and go, I was only thinking of myself. I didn't realize that I was going to miss this extended family so much, before I left I grabbed three dollars...all I had, and gave. As I gave I began to cry, feeling badly about my attitude. How could I be so selfish?
I left in tears, grateful to still be clean, but disliking myself for being so petty. Realizing how much I will miss these wonderful people. People that helped Jana last year, when she needed money for her husband's funeral. People that loved me, no matter what I was or wasn't doing. This Christmas, I am learning so much, feeling so much more.
Christmas is for giving, not filling your pockets...it's for the children, even the unborn. I am humbled, I am in prayer for this child. I ask that you pray for her also.
Thank you.
Prayers for the baby.
may she grow ...every day
and be born to this world,
happy and healthy....
and gow up and grow strong
and proud
and never
ever...
feel the need
to see this world
with rose colored glasses.
Amen
may she grow ...every day
and be born to this world,
happy and healthy....
and gow up and grow strong
and proud
and never
ever...
feel the need
to see this world
with rose colored glasses.
Amen
Sending all my prayers for the baby.
Janet,
This is the second time this week you have made me cry. Your post on the F&F board, and the exchange back and forth with KerrBear had me bawling like a big baby. You've come so far lady, I hope Santa is good to you this year, you deserve it!
Janet,
This is the second time this week you have made me cry. Your post on the F&F board, and the exchange back and forth with KerrBear had me bawling like a big baby. You've come so far lady, I hope Santa is good to you this year, you deserve it!
Janet,
What can I say...you are a miracle. Thanks for reminding me no matter how bad things seem to be, my life is full of blessings and I have so much to be grateful for. You give me hope. You give me strength. I think I just might get that Christmas tree up after all.
Peace be with you.
What can I say...you are a miracle. Thanks for reminding me no matter how bad things seem to be, my life is full of blessings and I have so much to be grateful for. You give me hope. You give me strength. I think I just might get that Christmas tree up after all.
Peace be with you.
Janet,
what a wonderful post and much needed for all of us.
Thank you for humbling me tonight.
Sharon
what a wonderful post and much needed for all of us.
Thank you for humbling me tonight.
Sharon
Hi Janet
Funny how life always has another lesson for us isnt it? . Sometimes all the Holiday bullspit clouds our minds from the real spirit,and the real meaning of the season.
Thanks for sharing,your story is typical of many things that smaller companies do around this time of year.
To show ya your not the only one who has f**ked up thoughts- Our company had this huge food drive for Thankgiving. Everyday on the way out of the building ,I watched the boxes of canned goods,, etc... pile up. I started thinking I might grab a box of cereal on the way out- who would miss it.
Now of course I didnt, but the shame I felt for even thinking like that was terrible.
I went home and grabbed everything that had been in my cubbards for more than a month -boxed it up -& added it to the kitty.-
Sometimes I guess its good to get humbled by our shameful thoughts. I mean after all ,the re-wirering of our minds takes a bit before all the shorts are fixed.
peace,love,and respect my friend
jack
Funny how life always has another lesson for us isnt it? . Sometimes all the Holiday bullspit clouds our minds from the real spirit,and the real meaning of the season.
Thanks for sharing,your story is typical of many things that smaller companies do around this time of year.
To show ya your not the only one who has f**ked up thoughts- Our company had this huge food drive for Thankgiving. Everyday on the way out of the building ,I watched the boxes of canned goods,, etc... pile up. I started thinking I might grab a box of cereal on the way out- who would miss it.
Now of course I didnt, but the shame I felt for even thinking like that was terrible.
I went home and grabbed everything that had been in my cubbards for more than a month -boxed it up -& added it to the kitty.-
Sometimes I guess its good to get humbled by our shameful thoughts. I mean after all ,the re-wirering of our minds takes a bit before all the shorts are fixed.
peace,love,and respect my friend
jack
thanks to all of you who understood the message I was putting forth
Kerry, get that tree up, life goes on, we must continue on with the traditions, to keep us whole. To remind us that we are still alive.
Hugs to everyone!
Kerry, get that tree up, life goes on, we must continue on with the traditions, to keep us whole. To remind us that we are still alive.
Hugs to everyone!
