Since I have been clean which is ten days today I feel a freedom of I have so much time on my hands and it feels free when you have been use to getting up everyday to pick that bottle of pills first thing to get out of bed and get that first initial high and follow through with the day and continue taking the pills till you go to bed.......And know more lies no more fears of what the next day would be like if you didn't have enough to get through the day with such freedom I feel now is unreal.So I am having a good day and I hope someone else is to.......
Hi,
Congratulations on your ten days! Thats great!
I know exactly how ya' feel and what your saying. Being in active addiction was a full time job, mentally and physically. Now all the sudden we have all this free time on our hands and in our heads. After I got a little time, and my first thought in the morning was simply getting a cup of coffee, I remember laughing out loud.
I just could never imagine there being a time where I wasn't thinking about how I was gonna make it through a day without those pills, I had myself truely believing that I couldn't do anything without the aid of a pill, everything from getting out of bed to helping put the kids to bed and everything in between. I swear there was a time I didn't think I'd make 30, now I'm coming up on 40 and
I think alot about how I'm looking forward to someday becoming a grandfather.
Talk about projecting! lol But, my point is today I look forward to my future, I don't
dread it anymore, that in itself is a gift for me.
Take care.............Bob
Congratulations on your ten days! Thats great!
I know exactly how ya' feel and what your saying. Being in active addiction was a full time job, mentally and physically. Now all the sudden we have all this free time on our hands and in our heads. After I got a little time, and my first thought in the morning was simply getting a cup of coffee, I remember laughing out loud.
I just could never imagine there being a time where I wasn't thinking about how I was gonna make it through a day without those pills, I had myself truely believing that I couldn't do anything without the aid of a pill, everything from getting out of bed to helping put the kids to bed and everything in between. I swear there was a time I didn't think I'd make 30, now I'm coming up on 40 and
I think alot about how I'm looking forward to someday becoming a grandfather.
Talk about projecting! lol But, my point is today I look forward to my future, I don't
dread it anymore, that in itself is a gift for me.
Take care.............Bob
10 days is something to smile about.I think I read your a homemaker?To me that is the hardest job.I worked up until 4 years ago & I still think being home is the hardest thing.I mean us homemakers touch & clean things a billy goat wouldnt go near.We usually do it with no thanks & low pay.....but on the other side to be here when my daughter gets in(shes12)& I get a couple minutes of her time before shes miss social butterfly again,to me that is worth so much more than a good paycheck.It was only after I stopped working outside my home that I realized I missed out on so much.
So new you sound very strong & happy today.I hope you keep going as well as you are it is worth it I promise...have a great day....mj
Bob you also have a beautiful day....mj
So new you sound very strong & happy today.I hope you keep going as well as you are it is worth it I promise...have a great day....mj
Bob you also have a beautiful day....mj
Said the same thing yesterday. the pills first thing in the am. ALTHOUGH I feel GREAT today, I still had RLS last night. Went two nights without it then bang, again. Strange. Anyone have the on/off RLS's?
Thanks bob I am only 28 and have a very long road ahead of me and most of the people on here have helped more than they know just to know your not the only one that feels the same way you do at times lets you know there is a normal way of life in the future for an addict....thanks a bunch as well molly
RLS ??????????
RLS=Restlesss leg syndrome. Tossing turning...just not comfortable.
Are you having any flu symptoms too...
Dear wiversen,you have my pity on that.I remember trying to CT & get off & those leg pains got me EVERYTIME.Now Rae on here swear on potassiem(sp) for that.I have heard that it really helps with that.That really stinks to not have um a couple days than bang they are backj
New WOW 28 you are so young.Was I right you are a stay at home mom?I was very lucky with my oldest I was able to stay home,by the time my youngest came I was a single mom & I remember thinking there was just NOT enough hours in a day.
How are you comming along so far.Im sorry I forgot if your going CT or tapering but I would very much like to be around if I can help...mj
New WOW 28 you are so young.Was I right you are a stay at home mom?I was very lucky with my oldest I was able to stay home,by the time my youngest came I was a single mom & I remember thinking there was just NOT enough hours in a day.
How are you comming along so far.Im sorry I forgot if your going CT or tapering but I would very much like to be around if I can help...mj
No flu symptoms..I feel great!!! Just had a so-so nights sleep but still feel good. How are you feeling? I have been clean Since Feb 27th.
Molly Jean, ironic but Im on potassium pills. Prescribed by my doctor. Was on six a day then he checked my level was at 4.8 which is on the high side. Too high can be dangerous so he cut me back to one a day last Tuesday.
anyone know if hydro causes low potassium?
Molly I tapered only by force meaning I would just make what I had last for those days but went cold turkey just mothers day of this year just ten days ago.i just simply did not have a way to get the pills at all times and i believe it was a blessing in disguise my WT were not as bad as i feared.WiversenI feel really good right now I have slept for the past two nights for a straight 6 hrs and i am sure everyone know what thats like at first it was maybe 2hrs then hoping to go back to sleep then getting frustrated and staying up the rest of the time but I have made myself get up at 5:30 so I can begin the day and know that i am not going stress all night from not getting sleep I have also taking sominex an it has helped some just take it as dirested and it will be good rest for you............good luck and also leg cramps I had those at first to and laying in a tub of water and a heating pad
I dont know but I think its GREAT since Febuary.Ive been on Suboxone since January,and for me it was is like seeing the world for the first time in 20 years.I know I still have along way to grow & learn but at least now I want to.Before I was too busy counting & ordering pills.
As for the Hydro question Im not sure but someone will know....mj
Dear New Im so glad you are sleeping better.I myself have been having a horride time sleeping.For about the last 2 weeks now,but I tend to think its just stuff on my mind.I cheat & go back to bed when everyone leaves & Im alone with the kittys,but somehow it doesnt make me feel better just rested.
So good luck with you.I hope if you ever feel the need to talk you will reach out to me I will always try to answer....mj
As for the Hydro question Im not sure but someone will know....mj
Dear New Im so glad you are sleeping better.I myself have been having a horride time sleeping.For about the last 2 weeks now,but I tend to think its just stuff on my mind.I cheat & go back to bed when everyone leaves & Im alone with the kittys,but somehow it doesnt make me feel better just rested.
So good luck with you.I hope if you ever feel the need to talk you will reach out to me I will always try to answer....mj
