Hello everyone!
I have now dropped to a tablet and a half and will do another drop in three weeks, my goal now is try and get off the subutex in the new year. I wanted to do it before Christmas, but that means having the horrors for a week before Christmas and thats not very realistic! Not touched Heroin now for over 15 months and January or February will be an ideal time to get off them because those are horrible months anyway when nothing ever happens and nothing is ever on TV. So if I am going to feel down I may as well be down with coming off the tablets and then I can look forward to the year, being totally clean!
Also I think we should all write a petition to Diffs boyfriend and shame him into letting the dog back in the house! I would even go so far as to let the poor bugger on the bed and sofa! Lol! Anyway Diff hope the old pooch is a lot better now after his little set back at the vets, I really do think about him and at the end of the day all our problems are self inflicted, but his are'nt!
Wish me luck for the next drop and fingers crossed as it is going well. My love life and finances are still in a bloody mess, but you cannot have everything in Life can you?
You're just so sweet Marky Mark. I love the name Mark. I like it for a girl too.
Alright so I think Mark Wahlburg is hott. Fine. LOL Good thinking. You're thinking right too about that pre-holiday stuff. Nightmare. No wonder Tim Burton made a dang movie about it. LOL Odd fellow that dude.
Haven't been on much lately so I just read up on Diff's poochie. Ya know you are sooooo right. A dear doggie. What did the dog ever do to deserve an ounce of saddness, hurt or pain? Nothing.
I'm the biggest bleeding heart, and we had doggies our entire lives coming up. One of my siblings though had this dog it worked a nerve, and was just not likeable. Well, as the old girl got older she got all kinds of afflictions. I mean this dog was small and her spine was messed up, and her body was like a big baloon with a little head. Ya know she smelled, and even the kids kind of would blow her off.
'Ya know what, Mark??????????? That freaky dog I loved her. I thought now what in God's earth did this dog do to deserve these afflictions. LOL Her and I we were great friends. I had my friend pick her up and put her in the car to drive to grass so she could walk with her paws bleeding. Poor, poor thing. The concrete hurt her paws.
So everyone just was laughing like "Yep, there she goes. If there's and odd man out or a freak of a pet she loves them".
Hope Diff's pooch is better today, and you Marky are doing great. Carry on lover of animals, and all things innocent. Hell with love life I say. LOVE YOU>
Alright so I think Mark Wahlburg is hott. Fine. LOL Good thinking. You're thinking right too about that pre-holiday stuff. Nightmare. No wonder Tim Burton made a dang movie about it. LOL Odd fellow that dude.
Haven't been on much lately so I just read up on Diff's poochie. Ya know you are sooooo right. A dear doggie. What did the dog ever do to deserve an ounce of saddness, hurt or pain? Nothing.
I'm the biggest bleeding heart, and we had doggies our entire lives coming up. One of my siblings though had this dog it worked a nerve, and was just not likeable. Well, as the old girl got older she got all kinds of afflictions. I mean this dog was small and her spine was messed up, and her body was like a big baloon with a little head. Ya know she smelled, and even the kids kind of would blow her off.
'Ya know what, Mark??????????? That freaky dog I loved her. I thought now what in God's earth did this dog do to deserve these afflictions. LOL Her and I we were great friends. I had my friend pick her up and put her in the car to drive to grass so she could walk with her paws bleeding. Poor, poor thing. The concrete hurt her paws.
So everyone just was laughing like "Yep, there she goes. If there's and odd man out or a freak of a pet she loves them".
Hope Diff's pooch is better today, and you Marky are doing great. Carry on lover of animals, and all things innocent. Hell with love life I say. LOVE YOU>
Ohhhhh, Ohhhh,
If Mizz Tres gets on the board......that broad she's busy, but her pup is so sweet, and when we were using this poor dog no joke she was depressed.
You should see her now. Like a new doggie she is.
BUT Tres had this cat. She will kill me for this. This FREAK of a cat had three legs. Three. Born like that. She had alot of cats, but that one when we were using I would be like "Get that freaky thing OUT OF HERE" I'm not a cat lover to begin with, but this three legged cat, man freaked me out.
She named it after Sinatra. It had blue eyes. Thus the name. Well, I was like "Ya should have called it something pertaining to ODDITY". Poor cat. Got around fine though.
If Mizz Tres gets on the board......that broad she's busy, but her pup is so sweet, and when we were using this poor dog no joke she was depressed.
You should see her now. Like a new doggie she is.
BUT Tres had this cat. She will kill me for this. This FREAK of a cat had three legs. Three. Born like that. She had alot of cats, but that one when we were using I would be like "Get that freaky thing OUT OF HERE" I'm not a cat lover to begin with, but this three legged cat, man freaked me out.
She named it after Sinatra. It had blue eyes. Thus the name. Well, I was like "Ya should have called it something pertaining to ODDITY". Poor cat. Got around fine though.
Hi mark, well congratulations firstly for not using in 15 months and secondly for dropping down on your subs. GREAT..and i wish you all the luck in the world with your new life.I was wondering mark do you stay in the uk as i dont know how long have you been on subs but it sounds as if its been a few months anyway? My detox was only 17 days mark and i felt brilliant when i was on 4mg i felt stable and had no urges to use and i hardly ever thought about heroin. Ive used for 6 years and i personally think ive been taking off it to quick. When i was at school (long time ago) well 16yrs ago. we would play a game called "statues" where you ran around and when the person who was chasing you would shout STOP and you had to freeze and not move a muscle while the person came over to you and if you moved at all you were out and the game continued until who ever was last to be out Win the game......Well thats the way im feeling just now im scared to move, cause i dont trust myself and im terrified im going to be in a situation where i might want to pick up again and im so scared, i stay alone and i dont want to go home, i dont want to be on my own as in the past my own company has got me in to so much trouble and i really dont ever want to be like that again.
Hopefully this will get easier.
Congratulations again and keep us posted on how you doing
Take care
Yvonne
Hopefully this will get easier.
Congratulations again and keep us posted on how you doing
Take care
Yvonne
