You might want to print this as its long , but I think you will relate, I wrote it in a detox 7 years ago in 5 minutes.
Soul Resurrection
I am lost adrift
Hearing those who havent spoken
Seeing those who have no bodies
OBSESSED! OBSESSED1 SCARED, DEPRESSED
I reach for my bag of feel good
Long gone's the feel
Long gone's the good
The Boa constrictor of my addiction is tightening around my throat, slowly squeezing the last breadth from my lungs.
DESPERATION! DESPERATION!
Forgetting about my respiration I lay back in fear . The black hole has become my life.
The seen of my funeral passes before my eyes, the tears, pain, and heartbreak of my family, branded in searing pain upon my heart
Silence pervades.
IBM suddenly startled back, hit in the head with a black jack of my own consciousness.
I see the future before me.
HOPLESS 1 DESPERETLY IN PAIN1
I see in the distance the results of my insistence on self destruction.
Self destruction , pulling all that was dear down around me , self destruction of the lowest order.
How can this be? This degree of fear, scared of dropping this self Ive hated for years.
God you b******! How could this be? Loving ?, Forgiving ?, unconditional ?,
WHAT ABOUT ME
I SIT IN THE SILENCE OF MY OWN ADDICTION,STRUGGLING TO SEE ANY LIGHT.
Please god! Please God! Help free me from me
I know Im checking out, yet theres a place in my soul that longs for freedom, that longs to love me , as me , and for me.
Guide me , lead me oh shoeless ocean of sprit, to a new dawn, a new consciousness previously unknown.
Help me reach out for my arms are weak, my soul burdened with guilt shame and remorse.
Courage, oh courage I pray for . Hope, just a little will do. I want freedom from this burden of self hate I carry.
In the distance its, no just a dream, NO! It is . White dove with hope on its wings, soaring strait to my heart. Penetrating deeply the tears flow , flow like rain
The seed of my spirit being watered, the load of my heart being lifted.
Clearer and clearer I see, the answer and spirits always been in me.
No longer searching in bags of white snow for my lost spirit, no longer suppressing my spirit through my nose, arms and lungs.
Loosing my false me , finding my best friend inside, I fall to my knees, offering my pride. Not to the highest bidder but to the spirit whos circling up inside me.
A NEW ME !, A NEW ME !I SEE!, a smile so long forgotten my laugh, havent heard you in a while.
I was a yacht punching holes in my own bow, sinking in a wirlpool of misery and pain. Only then to be transformed by the spirit of spirits to sail freely on the wind of hope , love , and laughter. Oh shorless ocean of spirit thank you for rescuing my sinking ship. to all those who suffer from addiction Ramon
wow, That was intense. I got an uplifting feeling at the end when the dove of peace came .
* Very, very nice
Thanks for sharing,
Jake
* Very, very nice
Thanks for sharing,
Jake
Ramon that was wonderful! I'm really impressed. Amazing that you did that in just minutes. It's obvious you poured your soul into that one. I'm really glad you shared your talent with us. Thank you. Love, Kat
