Hi my name is Ashlynn I'm 18.I have lived a life around drugs ever since I was four.My parents got divorced when I was five.The reason being was my father was using drugs and had been extremely violent with my mother, so you can understand why I wasn't really upset about this.When I was seven my mother met a man five years later become my step dad whom I love dearly.He had two children of his own.Both on drugs and both that have offered them to me in the past.When I was eleven my sister whom is 20 years older than me got a divorce from her husband of nine years the reason being because of drugs.When I was fifthteen I learn't that my older brother was on hard drugs also and had been for almost 2 years before anyone knew.I'm currently dealing with the man I love battling to stay clean in the horrible town that we live in.I just want everyone out there that have family members on drugs that they are not alone its hard to deal with but when you are at the end of your rope just remeber you are alsome first of all because GOD doesn't make anything bad and second because your not on drugs and you'rthe only hope the drug users have.If you're reading this and you're a drug user remeber your sister,daughter,son,mother,father,aunts,uncles,granparents,brother,wife,husband.or friends that your hurting and slowly killing.Also remeber how God is looking down on his creation.Sincerely a hurting sister,daughter,girlfriend,stepsister,and friend.
Hi Ashlynn,
Im sorry you have had such a bad time in your life and reading your post I feel your hurt. I must stress that you are totally free to express what you want in this forum and no-one will judge you, as you should not judge others.
But I want to put my side:
Everyone who uses drugs chooses at some stage to use that drug. But very soon it stops being a choice. This is addiction. Eventually your whole life revolves around your drug. All your friends do it. It becomes normal. Your drug becomes your whole world. When you hit that stage nothing else matters.
People who post here, like myself, have taken one of the most difficult decisions of our lives. To replace our whole life. To take away our life. To take away our drug.
And in the depths of our despair we try to rebuild our lives with what non-addicts call 'normal life'. To venture into the unknown.
I knew deep down that I was hurting those around me but the depression that comes with withdrawal and the paranoia I felt was enough to make me use again before I took that final step into suicide.
As I said, I am in no way judging you or condeming your opinion, I just want to give you my insight.
I hope and assume deep down your family aren't trying to hurt you, I never wanted to hurt anyone, and from your post it seems the area your from drug use is 'normal' which makes it so hard to break away.
Since I made the decision to quit, I have lost all but one friend (a non-addict), and am finding the loneliness hard to deal with.
You should be SO proud you stayed away from drugs and if you can let the people you love know you will support and help them if they decide to quit, maybe you could change things.
I send you strength, compassion, wisdom, bravery and hope.
Thinking of you in this difficult time
Love and hugs
Buffy x
Im sorry you have had such a bad time in your life and reading your post I feel your hurt. I must stress that you are totally free to express what you want in this forum and no-one will judge you, as you should not judge others.
But I want to put my side:
Everyone who uses drugs chooses at some stage to use that drug. But very soon it stops being a choice. This is addiction. Eventually your whole life revolves around your drug. All your friends do it. It becomes normal. Your drug becomes your whole world. When you hit that stage nothing else matters.
People who post here, like myself, have taken one of the most difficult decisions of our lives. To replace our whole life. To take away our life. To take away our drug.
And in the depths of our despair we try to rebuild our lives with what non-addicts call 'normal life'. To venture into the unknown.
I knew deep down that I was hurting those around me but the depression that comes with withdrawal and the paranoia I felt was enough to make me use again before I took that final step into suicide.
As I said, I am in no way judging you or condeming your opinion, I just want to give you my insight.
I hope and assume deep down your family aren't trying to hurt you, I never wanted to hurt anyone, and from your post it seems the area your from drug use is 'normal' which makes it so hard to break away.
Since I made the decision to quit, I have lost all but one friend (a non-addict), and am finding the loneliness hard to deal with.
You should be SO proud you stayed away from drugs and if you can let the people you love know you will support and help them if they decide to quit, maybe you could change things.
I send you strength, compassion, wisdom, bravery and hope.
Thinking of you in this difficult time
Love and hugs
Buffy x
