I HAVE BEEN THU MUCH STARTED TAKING PILLS SINCE 1985. INJURED BACK GIVEN PAIN PILL O THE RACE ISON FIRST FEW YEARS WORKED UP TO TAKING 10 PERKS A 2 SOMA 350 MG. THATS ALOT OF WORK TO FEED THAT HABIT,I HAD 2 OTHER OF MY FREINDS IN N.J BUY MY SIDE WE WORK MANY DOCTOR VISTS WENT TO MANY HOSPITALS ER ROOMS A A TIME WE WOULD ALL REGISTER UNDER FAKE NAMES AND FIGURE 3 AT THE HOSP ONE OR WOULD SCORE, IF A DOC WOULD WRITE A RX FOR 10 PILLS PUT A LINE IN THE 1 10 GO TO FORTY. IM NOT BRAGGING ANYWAY THIS WENT ON FOR YEARS THEN WE LEARNED TO WHITE OUT ANY WRITING ON ANY PRESCRPION, AND PHOTO COPY IT WE WOULD HAVE A BLANK OR AS WECALLED IT THE MASTER, WE WOULD RIGHT ARE SELFS ARE ON RXS 40 60 PERKS EVEY DAYAFTER ALL WE HAD TO FEED 3 OF US, WE NEVER SOLD THE PERKS WE NEEDED EVERY ONEFOR US. WE HAD AFEW COME BY FOR AWHILE OTHER PEOPLE DOPERS BUT IT WAS JUST US.COOL IT COST 10 CENT A PHOTOCOPY AND JUST THE PRICE OF THE RX GENERIC NEVERMORE THEN 20 BUCKS THIS WENT ON TILL I WAS UP TO 20 PERKS A SWALLOW ,THIS WENT ON TIL ABOUT1995 , THE COST TO US WAS LOSING MY COUSIN AT 23 DEAD, NONE OF US EVER MARRIEDOR HAD KIDS ,I WAS ARESTED AT LEAST 4 TIMES FOR WRITING RX I COULD EVEN CALL PHARMACYS AS A DOC GIVE IT ACALL IN FOR VICODIN WHEN NEEDED,NUBER 2 FRIEND GOT BUSTED MORE AND WENT IN AN OUT OF JAIL DID ABOUT 4 TOTAL, #3 friend ENDUP GETTING HIS BROTHER HOOK TO AND A STILL LIVING IN NJ IN A ONE BEDROOM APARTMENT WITH THERE MOTHER, IMOVE AWAY WITH MY MOM AND DAD TO NC TO GET AWAY I WOULD HAVE WENT TO JAIL OR DIED I DID OD 2 TIMES ENDED IN INTENCIVE CARE FOR AWEEK, ANY WHEY I CAME HERE TO NC LIVED WITH MY PARENTS IN A APARTMENT MY DAD TALKED THE MANGER TO HIRE ME AS A MATINANCE MAN THEY HIRED ME IMEET A GREAT WOMEN AND MOVED IN WITH HER IM STILL WITH HER 10 YEARS A COUNTING SHE IS NOT A DOPER AND IS TO GOOD FOR ME.LIFE IS GOOD BUT SINCE I HAVE BEEN HERE I WOULD GET PILLS MAYBE 2 TIMES A MONTH BY FED X VIA A FRIEND IN NJ, IN THE LAST 2 YEARS I BEEN GOING TO A PAIN CLINC GIVEN METHADONE 40 MGS 4 X ADAY ANYWAY THAT WORKED NO MORE CHASING PILLS. THAT WAS UNTII DEC 2004, DOC HADE TO RETIRE, JAN 05 A GOT A NEW DOC HES WIENING ME OFF METHADONE REPLACING IT WITH ROXACODNE 15 MGS. IM BACK WERE I STARTER ITS A CIRCLE I BELIEVE I WILL NEVER BE FREE, I THOUGHT THIS STORY MIGHT HELP SOMEONE IF IT DOES KEEP JUST ONEPERSON NOT TO TAKE THEM DAM PILLS MY LIFE HAS BEEN WORTH IT I ALSO LOST MY DAD WHILE I WAS HERE I KNW I HURT MANY TIMES HE ALWAYS BAILED ME,HE HAD BRAIN CANCER ,LUNG CANCER ANDWAS GIVEN 6 MONTHS TO LIVE, HE HATED PAINPILLS SOMUCH HE WOULD NOT THAT ANY PAIN PILLS THE WHOLE 5 MONTHS AND 29 DAYS ,ON THE 30TH DAY HE DID THE FAMILY WAS IN HIS ROOM AT HOSPICE THEY TOLD US THIS IS IT FOR 3 HOUR WE HEARD HIM TRING TOGET AIR AS HIS LUNDS FILLED WITH WATER ITOLD THE GIVE HIM THATOXYFAST SO THEY DID A MINUTE LATER I THOUGH I MADE HIME FEEL BETTER THE BREATING SOUNDED GOOD, WHAT IT WAS IS THE LUNGS WERE FULL HE DIED3 AFTER THE SHOT,ANYWAY WEEKS BEFORE HE DIED HE SAID TO ME ALONE HE WAS PROUD OF ME.HE KNEW I WAS DOING BETTER HERE AND AM, BUT PROUD NO ROGER Y
Dear Roger,
I was reading your postand wanted to tell you that you've had a hell of a life!! I know it took alot of courage to get away from NJ. It sound's like you know the pill's have ruined your life!! I saw where you said you were on methadone and you have been taken off, I'm not understanding why this Doc is putting you on Perc's, I think that what you said, that seem's like that's taking you right back where you started!!! Have you ever heard of the new medicine called SUBOXONE? This is a med that will help you detox off of any opiate. I think you should check it out it sure is worth a try!! I also was hooked on pain pill's for about 8 to 10 year's and it was HELL!!! The constant game of trying to get them. I also doc shopped and ER shopped. It all became so demeaning and made me feel so worthless!!! I couldn't function without the pill's. In June of 2003 I joined the methadone clinic, It has changed my life alot, even though I battle alot with the fact of feeling like I'm not clean!! But let's face it it's better than those demon pill's!!! I'm now slowly detoxing off of the meth. I go to AA faithfully!! I don't know whether you have a support group but it sure help's alot. We addict's have to get down to why we use!!! I really do wish you all the luck with your addiction. if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here!
Jennie
I was reading your postand wanted to tell you that you've had a hell of a life!! I know it took alot of courage to get away from NJ. It sound's like you know the pill's have ruined your life!! I saw where you said you were on methadone and you have been taken off, I'm not understanding why this Doc is putting you on Perc's, I think that what you said, that seem's like that's taking you right back where you started!!! Have you ever heard of the new medicine called SUBOXONE? This is a med that will help you detox off of any opiate. I think you should check it out it sure is worth a try!! I also was hooked on pain pill's for about 8 to 10 year's and it was HELL!!! The constant game of trying to get them. I also doc shopped and ER shopped. It all became so demeaning and made me feel so worthless!!! I couldn't function without the pill's. In June of 2003 I joined the methadone clinic, It has changed my life alot, even though I battle alot with the fact of feeling like I'm not clean!! But let's face it it's better than those demon pill's!!! I'm now slowly detoxing off of the meth. I go to AA faithfully!! I don't know whether you have a support group but it sure help's alot. We addict's have to get down to why we use!!! I really do wish you all the luck with your addiction. if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here!
Jennie
Roger--- I don't know you and I am proud, so I am sure your father is, you have come a long way and you will beat this rotte disease. You sound like you have a good heart, but we all have done bad things in our lives. Don't beat yourself up over it. I was reading one of the other responses and someone mentioned SUBOXONE, or as I call it the "Miracle Drug". I have been on it for 7 months---Sober! Meetings, sponser and I work the program all that good stuff! I am a recovering addict from Oxycontin and Heroin. I was active for about 3 1/2 years and I have been detoxed off of methadone and suboxone and I am telling you I was up and out of bed the first day at detox when I took the suboxone. But with the methadone, I came out of detox and used. Methadone hurts to come off of and it is a big committment when in a clinic, but everyone is different. My boyfriend of 3 years is on the methadone clinic and loves it. I don't understand why your Dr. would want to give you other pain meds? It is hard to get the Suboxone because only 1 Dr. can prescribe it to 30 patients for Drug Abuse, but they can prescribe it for like back pain or injurys to anyone amount of patients. That is what I was told by my Dr. Look into it it is a good alternative and it is a prescription too that you just fill at the pharmacy. Keep Ya Head Up and if you need anything just remember I am always here!----JR
Hi Roger,
I'm so sorry to hear of your dad's passing from this life. My dad passed away, and I miss him terribly but I also can sense his presence with me when I need him too. You can ask your dad to help you...ask him to intercede for you...to ask God to make you strong to get drug free some day.
My 29 year old son just started suboxone. He was a heroin addict. He started with vics, then oxy, then heroin. He had detoxed in prison for retail theft to support his habit, but the cravings were pretty bad. He said that once he took the suboxone, he doesn't even think about the heroin; without it, he does. That's pretty much a miracle drug in my opinion. The doctors wants him on this for 2 months, then he wants him to try some other drug. I will let you know what that is later. Please check for a doctor in your area that can prescribe suboxone. Mistyeyes (Tina) on this forum has info on it. She has been very helpful to a LOT of people on here with providing that info. There is still some withdrawal from it, but it's not nearly as bad as methadone.
You sound like a very kind and caring person. I wish you all the best at getting free from the drugs. If there's anything I can do, please let me know, but be assured I will pray for you. I care!
Susan
I'm so sorry to hear of your dad's passing from this life. My dad passed away, and I miss him terribly but I also can sense his presence with me when I need him too. You can ask your dad to help you...ask him to intercede for you...to ask God to make you strong to get drug free some day.
My 29 year old son just started suboxone. He was a heroin addict. He started with vics, then oxy, then heroin. He had detoxed in prison for retail theft to support his habit, but the cravings were pretty bad. He said that once he took the suboxone, he doesn't even think about the heroin; without it, he does. That's pretty much a miracle drug in my opinion. The doctors wants him on this for 2 months, then he wants him to try some other drug. I will let you know what that is later. Please check for a doctor in your area that can prescribe suboxone. Mistyeyes (Tina) on this forum has info on it. She has been very helpful to a LOT of people on here with providing that info. There is still some withdrawal from it, but it's not nearly as bad as methadone.
You sound like a very kind and caring person. I wish you all the best at getting free from the drugs. If there's anything I can do, please let me know, but be assured I will pray for you. I care!
Susan
Roger,
I am very sorry to hear about your father. My Dad has also passed Sept,7, 2003. It is difficult. Wow!!! Sounds like you have had a very busy life... You lucky your still not in jail. Well I was reading in another post of yours to "stacyn" where you told her to try methadone and how it is great and how it gives you energy bla bla bla and I responded to you. To be honest I was thinking when I read your post this man is either on Methadone him self or has never been on it and never had to withdrawl from it.. Now I read your post and just as I thought you are currently taking it. I feel for you. I really do. It is a very difficult drug to detox from. So you have a long road ahead of you and you will soon see why I wouldn't suggest it to anyone... Unless they are dieing.You are lucky to have a doctor to help. However, switching addictions sounds crazy to me. That is just my opinion. I feel in your case and if I had it to do over I would have done anything to get my hands on suboxone. I was addcited to methadone for 2 1/2 years back in 2002. The iwthdrawl is very painful, unbearable too much for words to describe. I was totally clean from it for 9 months and weaned down to 2.5 mgs before stopping. So it can be done especially with clonodine from a doctor.
Just wanted to wish you the best of luck and suggest talking to your doctor about sub or just weaning you off the methadone until you can successfully quit altogether. You are going to end up in the same situation at this point with narcotics. That is unless you plan on being on them for the rest of your life. Anyway Have a great day... Rae
I am very sorry to hear about your father. My Dad has also passed Sept,7, 2003. It is difficult. Wow!!! Sounds like you have had a very busy life... You lucky your still not in jail. Well I was reading in another post of yours to "stacyn" where you told her to try methadone and how it is great and how it gives you energy bla bla bla and I responded to you. To be honest I was thinking when I read your post this man is either on Methadone him self or has never been on it and never had to withdrawl from it.. Now I read your post and just as I thought you are currently taking it. I feel for you. I really do. It is a very difficult drug to detox from. So you have a long road ahead of you and you will soon see why I wouldn't suggest it to anyone... Unless they are dieing.You are lucky to have a doctor to help. However, switching addictions sounds crazy to me. That is just my opinion. I feel in your case and if I had it to do over I would have done anything to get my hands on suboxone. I was addcited to methadone for 2 1/2 years back in 2002. The iwthdrawl is very painful, unbearable too much for words to describe. I was totally clean from it for 9 months and weaned down to 2.5 mgs before stopping. So it can be done especially with clonodine from a doctor.
Just wanted to wish you the best of luck and suggest talking to your doctor about sub or just weaning you off the methadone until you can successfully quit altogether. You are going to end up in the same situation at this point with narcotics. That is unless you plan on being on them for the rest of your life. Anyway Have a great day... Rae
i ALWAYS SAY PILL HEADS ARE FULL OF HEART WE CAN HELP EVERONE BUT ARE SELFS THANK ALL. THE REASON THIS DOC IS TAKEN ME OFF THE METHADONE MY LAST DOC WAS PAIN MANAGEMENT HE RETAIRED WITH NO NOTICE , THIS DOCTOR IS NOT AND SAID THERE TO MUCH PAPER WORK AND LAWS FOR METHADONE. HE CAN TREAT PAIN THU 15 MG ROXY 1 MG ZANEX FOR PANIC ATTACTS, IHAVE NO INSURANCE, THE FIRST VIST COST 197 BUCKS 100 FOR RXS. THIS IS JUST A GROUP OF REG DOCS .I GO BACK FEB I DONT KNOW WHAT HE WILL GIVE ME MOST LIKLY 10MG PERK ZANEX NOW THE PILL ARE NOT HELPING MUCH FOR PAIN.
