yes i am starting a new thread for myself to read tomorrow.
And, yes, i am talking to myself.
So, here goes:
Okay, Jodi. Remember how you felt last night? Remember how you felt when you "needed only one or two drinks" just to feel a little better? Remember that after only a few you started feeling sicker yet you forced them down? Remember how pissed you were because that pill you took to try to ease the pain in your gut got wasted when you puked it up? Remember how you sat there with your head in the toilet (AGAIN) and prayed to god and swore that if you could just feel better now, then you'd do better tomorrow?
Well tomorrow is here and its time to pay up.
No more f***ing around or you will die. You might not care to live. But your mom and your kids care.
So quit being so selfish and suck it up and just do it and get through it.
And, Jodi, I love you....even if you don't know it yet.
way to go Jodi - YES you CAN do it.
Jodi, I have noticed such a big change in you these last few days. Keep on posting and talking it out. Everyone is here to help you get through this. I have a really good feeling this is your time to shine. Shantel
Jodi-IT'S A NEW DAY.
What are you going to do to check out local Rehabs?
I noticed in the other post Kerry[Little Beach] has offered to locate you some facilities.Please honor her kindness by e-mailing or calling her.
It's time to take action.It's good to talk about this but bottom line you have to do something.
Everybody here supports you and none of us are dissapointed.This disease ain't pretty.It will kill you.
Continue to e-mail me,call Lisa,call Stacey,call any of the other women on here but I am expecting you to follow through with at least attempting to make a phone call.You can't get this through the internet.
My thoughts are with you today.
timlincoln@aol.com
What are you going to do to check out local Rehabs?
I noticed in the other post Kerry[Little Beach] has offered to locate you some facilities.Please honor her kindness by e-mailing or calling her.
It's time to take action.It's good to talk about this but bottom line you have to do something.
Everybody here supports you and none of us are dissapointed.This disease ain't pretty.It will kill you.
Continue to e-mail me,call Lisa,call Stacey,call any of the other women on here but I am expecting you to follow through with at least attempting to make a phone call.You can't get this through the internet.
My thoughts are with you today.
timlincoln@aol.com
Yes it is a new day. And instead of looking at it with dread and fear, I'm going to think of it as a gift....a gift of another chance.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
You can do it this time!!!
You do sound more positive and I loved your post to yourself...keep up the good thoughts...
You can do it this time!!!
You do sound more positive and I loved your post to yourself...keep up the good thoughts...
Jodi-
I can tell you are so ready to beat this. The change in you has been amazing.........
You are so worth this.........Keep posting, We are all here every step of the way.
I can tell you are so ready to beat this. The change in you has been amazing.........
You are so worth this.........Keep posting, We are all here every step of the way.
Jodi...
That brought tears to my eyes...I read your post & I could have wrote it myself...I can feel the desperation and it is so vivid to me the night I finally had a moment of clarity and poured the alcohol down the drain...for me, this was God working and showing me a glimmer of hope....
Call me, or e-mail me anytime...I can relate to a lot of things you are going through and I am here for you....
Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 152
Someday he will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know loneliness such as a few do. He will be at the jumping-off place. He will wish for the end.
Jodi...I have read your posts and struggles for quite awhile and you are in my prayers daily that you are at the jumping off point and ready to surrender and accept the help to start a new life...I'm here all day....
(((hugs))))
Stacey
That brought tears to my eyes...I read your post & I could have wrote it myself...I can feel the desperation and it is so vivid to me the night I finally had a moment of clarity and poured the alcohol down the drain...for me, this was God working and showing me a glimmer of hope....
Call me, or e-mail me anytime...I can relate to a lot of things you are going through and I am here for you....
Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous pg. 152
Someday he will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know loneliness such as a few do. He will be at the jumping-off place. He will wish for the end.
Jodi...I have read your posts and struggles for quite awhile and you are in my prayers daily that you are at the jumping off point and ready to surrender and accept the help to start a new life...I'm here all day....
(((hugs))))
Stacey
Jodi...just think how good you will feel about yourself tomorrow if you make a positive change today. If you can get away into a detox/rehab I think you will be better off mentally than at home...you will be able to detach and focus on you. You can do this...so can I. WE are not alone. You have gotten some wonderful advice here...I pray for you to be well...you deserve to be healthy and happy. God bless....Sharonn
Yep, it's a new day...time for change.
So...what about that rehab? Or at least that meeting down the street...?
So...what about that rehab? Or at least that meeting down the street...?
I'm going to look up meetings in my area. I am going to go to the first women's meeting that comes up next as long as I'm not too sick.
I know rehab would be the very best thing I could do. I just can't make it work out right now.
Ok...I used the word can't. It would be very very difficult for me to make it work out right now.
I know rehab would be the very best thing I could do. I just can't make it work out right now.
Ok...I used the word can't. It would be very very difficult for me to make it work out right now.
Then go to that meeting,Jodi.that would be huge. It's o.k. if you are a little sick.you're not going to a PTA meeting.Those people have seen their share of sick.I am so proud of you.You go do this.don't sit around and think about too much.
Everyone here is waiting to hear all about it.
Everyone here is waiting to hear all about it.
You remember what it was like when you used to go Jodi. There were sick people there all the time. As long as you aren't puking...go. I wish I was there to hold your hand but you're going to have to do this on your own. And you can.
If you need help finding meetings, just let me know Jodi & I can shoot you an e-mail with some websites & listings...
When I first went to AA, I remember I couldn't even brush my hair it hurt so bad but I never felt so accepted & loved than I did that 1st meeting...
You are worth this and I am so happy for you....
xoxo
Stacey
When I first went to AA, I remember I couldn't even brush my hair it hurt so bad but I never felt so accepted & loved than I did that 1st meeting...
You are worth this and I am so happy for you....
xoxo
Stacey
Stacey,
Do you have that link for a meeting locator handy?
I could look it up or call the number in the phone book.......but I'm trying to conserve my energy. I've still got stuff to get done here at home...you know, fun stuff like laundry and dishes.
Life must go on even when we don't want it to.
Do you have that link for a meeting locator handy?
I could look it up or call the number in the phone book.......but I'm trying to conserve my energy. I've still got stuff to get done here at home...you know, fun stuff like laundry and dishes.
Life must go on even when we don't want it to.
Hey Jodi...
I do not know how to post a link but here's the web address:My Webpage
I hope this worked...anyways, it has the meeting locator & Big Book on-line...
Let me know if you need some phone numbers....
xoxo
Stacey
I do not know how to post a link but here's the web address:My Webpage
I hope this worked...anyways, it has the meeting locator & Big Book on-line...
Let me know if you need some phone numbers....
xoxo
Stacey
Jodi-1-818-7739999 is NA but you would probably have a better selection with AA.Look in your phone book or call information for the main number for AA.
Jodi JMO but Rehab is hat you need. Meetings? You need to be in a safe place 24/7. Meetings are fine but then you leave and your all alone again.
I read all your posts and feel your pain. I have been there a few times in my life.
This is just my opinion but reading all your posts? You need rehab ASAP. I don't know your situation but I pray you find a rehab in the near future.
Jeff
I read all your posts and feel your pain. I have been there a few times in my life.
This is just my opinion but reading all your posts? You need rehab ASAP. I don't know your situation but I pray you find a rehab in the near future.
Jeff
Jodi...
I screwed it up and it says My Webpage but when you click, it does take you to the AA site....for me, even though I am both addict & alcoholic, I prefer AA due to the years of sobriety in my area and in AA there are a lot of us that are double blessed (both alkie/addict)...
Let me know if you need anything else..
xoxo
Stacey
I screwed it up and it says My Webpage but when you click, it does take you to the AA site....for me, even though I am both addict & alcoholic, I prefer AA due to the years of sobriety in my area and in AA there are a lot of us that are double blessed (both alkie/addict)...
Let me know if you need anything else..
xoxo
Stacey
Jodi
Im so proud of you...
Your post reminded me of a sort of diary i kept when i was first starting.. called Note to Self or something like that...it really does help to write down what you are feeling and going through...
Does your situation with hubby have anything to do with your decision not to go to a rehabilitation place? Is he being at all supportive ...do you think he would "freak out' at you going away? From what i know about him he is very controlling and posessive, and he would fight any positive changes in you for fear of you getting better, thinking more clearly and leaving him in the dust...
One thing at a time...once you get yourself well, you can make any decisions about your marriage...
Is there anything anyone here can do for you to help you get into a place that can really help you? Surround you with love and support and watch over your medical sysmptoms??
Hope this isnt too personal to be asking you..
Hugs
Ali
Im so proud of you...
Your post reminded me of a sort of diary i kept when i was first starting.. called Note to Self or something like that...it really does help to write down what you are feeling and going through...
Does your situation with hubby have anything to do with your decision not to go to a rehabilitation place? Is he being at all supportive ...do you think he would "freak out' at you going away? From what i know about him he is very controlling and posessive, and he would fight any positive changes in you for fear of you getting better, thinking more clearly and leaving him in the dust...
One thing at a time...once you get yourself well, you can make any decisions about your marriage...
Is there anything anyone here can do for you to help you get into a place that can really help you? Surround you with love and support and watch over your medical sysmptoms??
Hope this isnt too personal to be asking you..
Hugs
Ali
