Congratulation to Stacey (24Gordon) on a year of sobriety! Tell us how you did it and what's changed in your life over a year's time?
Smooches, SKG...
I shared this just awhile back on the pill board....
I'm Stacey and I am an alcoholic/addict and what AA has done for me and my family is such a miracle that I don't need to question why it works, I just know for me it works...I started drinking around 12yrs old, from the first drink I felt like I finally fit in somewhere as I was a very shy and uncomfortable child and then when I became a teenager and moved thousands of miles from everything I knew and loved, it became my new best friend and I could socialize, I fit in, I was no longer fearful of my shadow and with it came the destruction...I started doing drugs in my late teens and early twenties to help my drinking along...the never ending cycle began, drink, do drugs, party half the night, wake up hung over, go to work, start the cycle all over...I would sober up enough when I got pregnant and stay that way through my pregnancy and the day I would get home from the hospital, I would have a couple of beers which always, no matter how hard I tried, progressed to the 12pack and off to the races I would go...When I was 31 years old, I was at the end of my career of drinking as I could barely make it through work without shaking, and the moment I got off work, I had to have 2 shots of Jack Daniels before I made it home...On Dec. 1, 1997 when my husband walked in after work, he packed his bags and left me with the 4 kids....talk about p*ssed off...how dare he and that was the last day I took a drink (by the grace of God) and Dec. 2 was my first AA meeting...I stuck around the program just long enough for life to become so much better but I didn't get a sponsor, I didn't look at the steps because I was still trying to do things my way and did fairly well until life started happening and I had no clue how to deal with life "sober" and my sister gave me a xanax to help me relax...Heaven in pill form...I loved it as it totally made me not care about any worries...next came the vicodin for my "bad" back and then fioricet for my "headaches"....After a vicious cyle of pill abuse for about 7 years, I CT'd all the pills on Feb. 2, 2005 and accumulated around 4mos of clean time, only to have life throw a curve ball and my first reaction was to get high and I did...then after a few months, I would quit again, had about 5 mos clean time only to pick up again...Another vicious cycle and it was explained to me that in order to stay clean, I had to do things differently so I walked back into the rooms of AA last year and was willing to do whatever I needed to do to stay clean & sober...I take suggestions, I work the steps, I built a huge recovery support network, I go to meetings, I am in service, I help others in any way I can, I do what is asked of me.......For me, I am so grateful for the program of AA as it did save my life and also gave me the life I had only ever dreamed of...Is it religious, I have no clue and it doesn't matter to me, I just know today I have a peace & serenity I have looked for my entire life and that hole that used to be inside me is being filled with love and acceptance....
Wow, one year...I did it one day at a time. Everything in my life has changed and changed for the better...I was skeptic in the begining but I kept going back anyway...I came to have hope, then I came to have faith and now, today I have trust in my HP, God...Recovery is awesome and I wouldn't change anything I've had to go through that got me here...Today I am grateful to be an alcoholic/addict and anytime, anywhere, anyone reaches out their hand for help, I pray I will always be there to help....
God bless everyone...you guys are part of my recovery network and I am so blessed to have found this site and learn from each one of you....
xoxo
I shared this just awhile back on the pill board....
I'm Stacey and I am an alcoholic/addict and what AA has done for me and my family is such a miracle that I don't need to question why it works, I just know for me it works...I started drinking around 12yrs old, from the first drink I felt like I finally fit in somewhere as I was a very shy and uncomfortable child and then when I became a teenager and moved thousands of miles from everything I knew and loved, it became my new best friend and I could socialize, I fit in, I was no longer fearful of my shadow and with it came the destruction...I started doing drugs in my late teens and early twenties to help my drinking along...the never ending cycle began, drink, do drugs, party half the night, wake up hung over, go to work, start the cycle all over...I would sober up enough when I got pregnant and stay that way through my pregnancy and the day I would get home from the hospital, I would have a couple of beers which always, no matter how hard I tried, progressed to the 12pack and off to the races I would go...When I was 31 years old, I was at the end of my career of drinking as I could barely make it through work without shaking, and the moment I got off work, I had to have 2 shots of Jack Daniels before I made it home...On Dec. 1, 1997 when my husband walked in after work, he packed his bags and left me with the 4 kids....talk about p*ssed off...how dare he and that was the last day I took a drink (by the grace of God) and Dec. 2 was my first AA meeting...I stuck around the program just long enough for life to become so much better but I didn't get a sponsor, I didn't look at the steps because I was still trying to do things my way and did fairly well until life started happening and I had no clue how to deal with life "sober" and my sister gave me a xanax to help me relax...Heaven in pill form...I loved it as it totally made me not care about any worries...next came the vicodin for my "bad" back and then fioricet for my "headaches"....After a vicious cyle of pill abuse for about 7 years, I CT'd all the pills on Feb. 2, 2005 and accumulated around 4mos of clean time, only to have life throw a curve ball and my first reaction was to get high and I did...then after a few months, I would quit again, had about 5 mos clean time only to pick up again...Another vicious cycle and it was explained to me that in order to stay clean, I had to do things differently so I walked back into the rooms of AA last year and was willing to do whatever I needed to do to stay clean & sober...I take suggestions, I work the steps, I built a huge recovery support network, I go to meetings, I am in service, I help others in any way I can, I do what is asked of me.......For me, I am so grateful for the program of AA as it did save my life and also gave me the life I had only ever dreamed of...Is it religious, I have no clue and it doesn't matter to me, I just know today I have a peace & serenity I have looked for my entire life and that hole that used to be inside me is being filled with love and acceptance....
Wow, one year...I did it one day at a time. Everything in my life has changed and changed for the better...I was skeptic in the begining but I kept going back anyway...I came to have hope, then I came to have faith and now, today I have trust in my HP, God...Recovery is awesome and I wouldn't change anything I've had to go through that got me here...Today I am grateful to be an alcoholic/addict and anytime, anywhere, anyone reaches out their hand for help, I pray I will always be there to help....
God bless everyone...you guys are part of my recovery network and I am so blessed to have found this site and learn from each one of you....
xoxo
Wow! thanks for sharing your storey Stacey. I've always enjoyed reading your posts, they're always full of warmth and wisdon.
here's to the next year, one day at a time, Cookster
here's to the next year, one day at a time, Cookster
Happy Birthday Stacey!
Thank you sharing what it was like, what happened and what it is like now...I can so identify with your story.
Thank you sharing what it was like, what happened and what it is like now...I can so identify with your story.
Yiiipppppeeee congrads Stacey
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Stacey, happy birthday to you.
It works if we work at it and its great when the passion of recovery becomes a passion of life
Light and love Zac
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Stacey, happy birthday to you.
It works if we work at it and its great when the passion of recovery becomes a passion of life
Light and love Zac
Wow Stacey, we all think we have our own stories to tell our own anxieties, guilt etc and we think we are on our own and nobody has been through what we are going through but we are so wrong arent we? thanks for your share. its early days for me but I so hope and pray that I can look back in 12 months from now like you and see how far I have come...much respect...Happy birthday
x Flojo
x Flojo
