See I think we're all out of sorts......maybe it's the pollen.
Tres, well she's my friend and has been pre-heroin, and during it, and now three years in to being clean.
So, my surprise is to read a post by her and she's having anxiety, and dreaming, and I know she worries.........constantly...........and she'll just say her life is crazy.........she never breaks down.......she always did have a way of turning a bad thing around.......kind of a coping mode.....not detached, but you'd think she ain't got a nerve in her body.....she kind of goes into a veiled like fantasy mode.....that's how she does.
Dreaming of her EX.......that's the guy turned her onto heroin......now mind ya she was a big girl and knew that was nothing to mess with, but still there's no way she'd even know where to get heroin.........without him........and she got issues to work through regarding that.......but she won't because she works her hinney off........busts her tail........her car breaks down and she has to walk home at 12:00AM in Philly so many miles cause the buses stink here.
Her day off..........everyone lives in her house was like........how ya gonna do all the stuff you need to do with no car on your day off.????? WHAT? So, she trudged on out to feed, clothe and administer to the fam.........that's her and what did she do for her? NOTHING.
Addicts..........that's us..........but now this is just me..........but I mean it.......for all the selfishness we pushed on loved ones.........we're some good hearted, helping people clean.........and Tres is the bestest at it.
Thanks for listening about this awesome woman who needs $500.00 for something and it ain't for her.......and her kids willget what they want and what they think they need..........and of course the baby will that's a given, but he isn't going to cause her no darn heartache.........and I want my friend to be happy and healthy and have some peace......cause I am selfish....LOL.
Yo, Tres I should have known you were out of sorts when ya send an e-mail bossing me around we're going to ONE of those shows......selfish? Yo, yo where's my darn Sonny Rhodes date at girl.........huh? I wuv ya, Sister.
Peace everyone feel better, please.
yo B..........thanks for thinking of me...been in a bad place.....but it will get better.......cos that damn program promises me if I dont get high it will get better and I'm banking on it :-)
Yeah, yeah, yeah.............blahbadee blah.........s*cks I know.
Nothing ya can do about none of it anyway........I'll talk to ya.
Right? How ya said we got all that money together daily when we were using and now yer working yer tail off..........and waht? Debt, and misery......well ya got new rugs to show for it.......hang in there, sweetheart............and ummmm, stop bossing me the heck around..........LOL...........all "We WILL be going to one of these shows"........ummm alright? LOL I'm there don't sweat it.
Nothing ya can do about none of it anyway........I'll talk to ya.
Right? How ya said we got all that money together daily when we were using and now yer working yer tail off..........and waht? Debt, and misery......well ya got new rugs to show for it.......hang in there, sweetheart............and ummmm, stop bossing me the heck around..........LOL...........all "We WILL be going to one of these shows"........ummm alright? LOL I'm there don't sweat it.
yesterday was three yrs ??? WOO HOO !!! I am sooooooooooo way proud of ya.......we rock.......life might suck here and there but damn girl...........if we dont get high, thing wil never be as bad as they were.........and Hopefully I'll never again be sitting in a car by the park trying to kill myself..........and we wont be down the way all hours of the night desperate and sick and we wont get sold baby powder for our last 10 dollars.........and we dont have to be nice to G anymore so he'll sell to us............or pawn our s***..........or wake up sick......and even when our kids try to throw crap at us, we know they aint got nuthin on us anymore........cos we rock and do our best.........and we have OVERCOME !!! I'm so so proud of ya sugar
