New here! Its hard for me to talk about this to just about anybody I know, so I feel like this is the place where I can get it all off my chest with others who understand.
im 36 and my fiance is 37. We went to elementary school as well as junior high together. We end up dateing 20 years later. Things moved pretty fast for us. Let me first say, ive never used drugs, maybe smoked pot about three times in my whole life but that's it. So I can say that a couple years ago, I had no clue what subutex or ciboxin strips even were. I am in healthcare, so I am familiar with the pain pills that are out Here these days. Anyways in the beginning, things were so wonderful. I was head over heels in love.. I did notice in the beginning, that he would ask his friends if they had any "strips" when I asked him what they were, he said " oh they're for energy! Dumb me didn't question him. Even after the strips which only lasted a cpl months, things were still great. He had a very high sex drive. If we didn't have sex at least 3 times a week, something was wrong.. I knew at one time my fiance had a pain pill problem due to a motorcycle accident. He started on roxies, and snorted them. But at that time he told me that his pain pill problem was long gone. As time moved on, him and I moved in together. Well actually he moved in with me and my two teenage boys. I noticed money missing from my account, $30 each time, in which here where I live the 30mg roxies are $30. So he admitted he had been snorting Roxies. To make a long story short, he then began cocaine (did it a few times) then he went to shooting up heroin. The heroin use was stopped once I kicked him out due to the stress of it all and he entered a 7 day detox program. Things were ok for a while, then he began the pain pills every now and then, and started on subutex. With the subutex, he would take a quarter of a tablet daily. (Not sure of the milligram) I guess my main reason for posting tonight is because i noticed marks on his hands. Needle marks.I asked and he admitted but said it wasn't an everyday thing. Ive been so upset i havent been able to look at him much. The question now is, ,, Is he shooting up subutex or heroin????? I just dont know what to do anymore. Im so scared that if I tell him to get out, he will harm himself in some way. The most important thing is we just had a beautiful baby daughter back in November.... Hes a great dad... im the only one working which is stressful enough. Behind on bills and trying to raise a 5 month old... It's gotten to the point where we barely speak. I sleep on the couch.Again I just dont know anymore
I am new here and have no advice but just wanted to say my heart breaks for you.
Hopeful,
Trust me. He is not shooting subutex and or suboxone (correct spelling) which comes in strips. These are replacement drugs when trying to get off pain pills or heroine. Pain pills and heroine are physically addicting. When he doesnt take these drugs he will feel ill. Like flu symptoms. He will get chills and be very restless. Most times direar will come and he will have no sex drive either. When I was addicted to oxicontin in the past I was a stallion. Not to seem rude but I can have sex everyday and for long periods of time. The sad part is herione is much cheaper to use than roxies. You CAN NOT use heroine some of the time. Its nearly impossible. You need to use it everyday or like I said he will be very sick. He can not hide this sickness. He will be sick to his stomache and will be having cold sweats. Unfortunately he is an addict. You can not believe anything he says. If he is suffering enough he will want to go into some sort of drug program. Inpatient, outpatient and or N/A. Sorry it took this long to get back to you. I hope I helped. If you have any questions keep posting. Good Luck..
Trust me. He is not shooting subutex and or suboxone (correct spelling) which comes in strips. These are replacement drugs when trying to get off pain pills or heroine. Pain pills and heroine are physically addicting. When he doesnt take these drugs he will feel ill. Like flu symptoms. He will get chills and be very restless. Most times direar will come and he will have no sex drive either. When I was addicted to oxicontin in the past I was a stallion. Not to seem rude but I can have sex everyday and for long periods of time. The sad part is herione is much cheaper to use than roxies. You CAN NOT use heroine some of the time. Its nearly impossible. You need to use it everyday or like I said he will be very sick. He can not hide this sickness. He will be sick to his stomache and will be having cold sweats. Unfortunately he is an addict. You can not believe anything he says. If he is suffering enough he will want to go into some sort of drug program. Inpatient, outpatient and or N/A. Sorry it took this long to get back to you. I hope I helped. If you have any questions keep posting. Good Luck..
Posted: April 14, 2015, 3:58 AM
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Hi al I am new to this but realy struggling. I am 23 and was with sum1 with a drink problem for 7 years we have a 5 year old together. He went into rehab in may and came out the end of august. The whole time he was there he talked about a better life with me and how much he loved me. He told me this everyday rite up to the day he came home. Then within the 1st week he came home he broke up with me an said he didnt love me I realy didn see it coming because I believed he loved me an wanted a life with me. He gave me no other explanation or answers and I still have none. He is in recovery and. On his 12 step programme an told me he might have answers when its over. He tells me he wil make amends when were both ready but I know that doesnt mean get bak together as he recently told me he is seeing an older woman goin through the same thing. How is this good for him this woman has kids of her own why would he want to jump into something like that instead of trying to make things work with me and his daughter. I need help understanding all this.
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Joined: April 14, 2015
Hi al I am new to this but realy struggling. I am 23 and was with sum1 with a drink problem for 7 years we have a 5 year old together. He went into rehab in may and came out the end of august. The whole time he was there he talked about a better life with me and how much he loved me. He told me this everyday rite up to the day he came home. Then within the 1st week he came home he broke up with me an said he didnt love me I realy didn see it coming because I believed he loved me an wanted a life with me. He gave me no other explanation or answers and I still have none. He is in recovery and. On his 12 step programme an told me he might have answers when its over. He tells me he wil make amends when were both ready but I know that doesnt mean get bak together as he recently told me he is seeing an older woman goin through the same thing. How is this good for him this woman has kids of her own why would he want to jump into something like that instead of trying to make things work with me and his daughter. I need help understanding all this.
