Hi Guys,
Well I have some questions and I would appreciate some feed back on them.
I still have temptation to use pills and its most of the time even though Ive been clean for a few months will this ever end.
I also get dizzy lately and my doctor told me my liver isnt very good but it was ok before. I do do a lot of exercise but I dont get a kick out of it anymore. Like I was a few weeks ago. I love mowing the lawns and doing the gardening but when I come in to cook dinner or iron I just wish to run and hide. I sleep a lot now when before I didnt at all when I was going through withdrawals. I am finally down to one tablet a day of xanax and 100mg of zoloft and my thyroid tablets
in which my thyroid I will have to take for the rest of my life I have it for 11 years so Im used to it. I dont want to take any more zoloft because then I just become tired. I love watching tele at night time and enjoy it because all my kids are in bed.
What can I do to overcome the need to use and how long does it take for it to go away. if it ever does I miss being high I miss being super mum even though I am working so hard to keep up to what I used to be when I was taking oxy's.
I have worked so hard and lots of disaplen and control but I dont know why I get dizzy is it from having high blood pressure lately and if so why do I have it.
I do all the right things I really am working at this addiction and I know Ill always have it. But bugger why cant I be normal just one day and not think about drugs
Help
me
Rhonda
Hi Rhonda, can't speak to the dizziness -- I don't think that's directly related to stopping the oxys, or at least I hadn't heard of it before. Maybe another health condition? Better to tell your doctor, I think.
As for the other, yes, the mental part of addiction is a real kick in the a_ _. Tells us that maybe it was better when we were still using, or maybe we could just take less this time, or maybe we could just have a little break or holiday from abstinence......it's all a crock, of course, but the thoughts can be so powerful. I know. It's why many attend NA/AA, or see an addiction counselor, or pursue some other kind of structured program of action in order to re-wire our brains when it comes to using pills, or all of the above. I'm kind of doing all three this time. It's staying stopped that has always been the real challenge for me, and pain pills have been a lot harder than alcohol or smoking (for me). M.
As for the other, yes, the mental part of addiction is a real kick in the a_ _. Tells us that maybe it was better when we were still using, or maybe we could just take less this time, or maybe we could just have a little break or holiday from abstinence......it's all a crock, of course, but the thoughts can be so powerful. I know. It's why many attend NA/AA, or see an addiction counselor, or pursue some other kind of structured program of action in order to re-wire our brains when it comes to using pills, or all of the above. I'm kind of doing all three this time. It's staying stopped that has always been the real challenge for me, and pain pills have been a lot harder than alcohol or smoking (for me). M.
Hi,
I agree with what N-4Me had to say 100%. When I got past the withdraws and the physical cravings the obsession to use was the next hurdle. I convinced my-
self I couldn't get through a day without using or at least thinking about using.
I remember going to work and standing at my toolbox looking at the orders for the day wondering how the hell I was gonna get it all done without the help of a
handfull of pills. At this point the only thing I knew to do was pray. So, it started
by me going to the bathroom every, what seemed to be 5 minutes praying to God, all I said was, "Please God Get Me Through This Day, Give Me The Strength To Do My Job And Help Me With This Obsession". As one day turned into two than three than a week I started just praying in my head while I worked.
Always repeating the Serenity Prayer too. I went to meetings every night, talked to my sponsor, I even called my sponsor from time to time from work. I'm not sure exactly how long it took, but suddenly one day it dawned on me I hadn't thought of a drink or drug at all and had at some point started just doing my job without the need for prayer. My point is, hang in their, it'll happen for you too.
But, it does take work and determination. I still wake up and ask God in the morning for another day clean and sober, I still start my day with the Serenity Prayer and a few other readings. I thank God at night for another day, and I try to do whats right inbetween, including making meetings and working with my sponsor. It's not work for me any more, it's fun, I have a life and for me A.A. helps me live my life free from active addiction.
As far as your other problems, I'd say call your doctor, like N-4Me, I can't give you medical advice, but I don't think one has anything to do with the other.
Good luck to you, try praying it really works, God and A.A. has done for me what I could not do for myself.
Take care.....................................God bless......................................Bob
I agree with what N-4Me had to say 100%. When I got past the withdraws and the physical cravings the obsession to use was the next hurdle. I convinced my-
self I couldn't get through a day without using or at least thinking about using.
I remember going to work and standing at my toolbox looking at the orders for the day wondering how the hell I was gonna get it all done without the help of a
handfull of pills. At this point the only thing I knew to do was pray. So, it started
by me going to the bathroom every, what seemed to be 5 minutes praying to God, all I said was, "Please God Get Me Through This Day, Give Me The Strength To Do My Job And Help Me With This Obsession". As one day turned into two than three than a week I started just praying in my head while I worked.
Always repeating the Serenity Prayer too. I went to meetings every night, talked to my sponsor, I even called my sponsor from time to time from work. I'm not sure exactly how long it took, but suddenly one day it dawned on me I hadn't thought of a drink or drug at all and had at some point started just doing my job without the need for prayer. My point is, hang in their, it'll happen for you too.
But, it does take work and determination. I still wake up and ask God in the morning for another day clean and sober, I still start my day with the Serenity Prayer and a few other readings. I thank God at night for another day, and I try to do whats right inbetween, including making meetings and working with my sponsor. It's not work for me any more, it's fun, I have a life and for me A.A. helps me live my life free from active addiction.
As far as your other problems, I'd say call your doctor, like N-4Me, I can't give you medical advice, but I don't think one has anything to do with the other.
Good luck to you, try praying it really works, God and A.A. has done for me what I could not do for myself.
Take care.....................................God bless......................................Bob
