I went to the clinic this morning and I had forgotten my empty THB. They wouldn't give me my take-homes!!! It's some new rule they have. They're always coming up with new ways to annoy their clients! Now, I'm at home and I can't find it here either. I think I may have left it in the motel room when I went to visit my husband. I don't know what they'll do if I don't have it tomorrow either. I just had to vent!!! I'm really aggravated and I shouldn't be. I'm going to let this one thing ruin my whole day.
Christ what a load of control freak crap,there putting you in Shirley.I presume you got your dose for today,hope so.again things like this happening make being on meth.so frustrating,rules,rules,bollocks.Hope you get the bottles or the clinic will sort ya out,if you dont.Have you got an excuse if you dont find em? take care all the best...Davey
An addict can always think of a good excuse. We're experts when it comes to excuses. I even make excuses to myself. lol. I get take homes again on Wednsday. I should have my bottle back by then. It's a good thing Ted stayed on at the motel another night. I'm sure the housekeeper would have thrown it away. If I don't have it (and they notice), I'll lose a level and I'll have to go 2 times a week for a month! What a load of crap!!!
I don't believe this! I went to the clinic this morning. I figured with all the people that go through there every day that they wouldn't remember that I didn't have Sunday,s bottle! The nurse asked if I found it. I told her that I left it at my sister,s in Tn. (I'm in N. C.) She said that if I don't bring it tomorrow, I have to see my counsellor and I won't get any THBs until I bring the empty. What happens if a person loses their bottle? I can't get my empty back unless I drive to Tn. and confront Ted. (I don't want to do that) He'll talk me into doing something that I shouldn't do) Freakin' control freaks!!! My husband is too.
Go in and see the councillor, explain the situation.
I think you will find that they will help you out, especially since you are trying so hard for yourself and to keep away from Ted.
Ask to see the councillor before they try and control you even more and put you in a panic.
Take control, be honest and i think it will all work out for you.
Good luck.
Let us know how it goes.
karen
I think you will find that they will help you out, especially since you are trying so hard for yourself and to keep away from Ted.
Ask to see the councillor before they try and control you even more and put you in a panic.
Take control, be honest and i think it will all work out for you.
Good luck.
Let us know how it goes.
karen
Thanks Karen. You have the voice of sanity. I was trying to think of all these excuses and lies, when I already know that honesty is the best policy. I will take your advice and see my councellor in the morning. I'd rather go in of my own free will than have the nurse send me to her before I can dose.This too shall pass. I'm just letting everything upset me right now. I rearranged my furniture today. That always makes me feel better. (silly,Huh?) It wears me out so I can sleep at night too. peace, Shirley
Suppose Karen is right,honesty being da best policy,but as addicts we get so ingrained with our lil&big lies,that its hard to get yer head round being straight with folks when we are in a corner.I have a few golden globes for acting&im sure weve got a few oscar winners on the board.lol.Take care&hope it works out for ya....Davey
Thats right- those counslers have heard soooo much bullsh*t that they cant really believe anyone.
Same thing at my program- you forget 1 or lose 1 bottle & its gone for 3 months.
Even if the label gets wet & they cant read your name, they try and take it away for a month.(Ive beaten that one)
Its a hassle and a reason why so many try not to deal with a clinic. Myself,I just deal with it- I hate a lot of it,but I figure until the right time,it ,s better than taking a chance getting off. I just tried that a few months ago and it didnt work out real well.
If it keeps us working and productive,and we can stay realtively healthy- well then ,until we are truely ready mentally its the lesser of 2 evils
stiill trying,
jack
Same thing at my program- you forget 1 or lose 1 bottle & its gone for 3 months.
Even if the label gets wet & they cant read your name, they try and take it away for a month.(Ive beaten that one)
Its a hassle and a reason why so many try not to deal with a clinic. Myself,I just deal with it- I hate a lot of it,but I figure until the right time,it ,s better than taking a chance getting off. I just tried that a few months ago and it didnt work out real well.
If it keeps us working and productive,and we can stay realtively healthy- well then ,until we are truely ready mentally its the lesser of 2 evils
stiill trying,
jack
Well, I talked to my counsellor this morning. I told her that I had left my empty in Johnson City. I told her that I had no way down there and I didn't know if anyone could bring it to me or not. The director said since I had never had any behavorial problems, I could have my Wednsday and Friday take home,s. But Monday, I had to see my counsellor again and give her the empty or go to level 1 until I found it. I was like,"what if It got thrown away or destroyed? Do I have to stay at level 1 the rest of my life????" He said,"That's the rules." I fooled those control freaks those. A friend of mine was in Johnson City today and he stopped by where my old man was and got my bottle!!Ha!Ha! I'm going to walk in there tomrrow and ask them if they want to bronze it. It seems to be so important to them. They think if you don't have your bottle, you're selling your take homes. How stupid! I'm glad I've got that worry off my mind. I got a job today also. All in all it's been a good day. I've got my new (used) car on the road too. Y'all have a good evening. Love, Shirley
Good for you Shirley-
But you know you cant get too cocky with those people at the clinic,or they will remember you. If anything happens again you,ll be screwed.
Hope you string a couple of good days together and get on a roll!
love&respect
jack
But you know you cant get too cocky with those people at the clinic,or they will remember you. If anything happens again you,ll be screwed.
Hope you string a couple of good days together and get on a roll!
love&respect
jack
Shirley,really good to hear things are sorting themselves out,maybe they could put yer bottle on a pedestal in a glass case,modern art etc.Take care&hope things get better with yer job,car,clinic,etc.All the best Davey
Thanks Davey and Jack!! I really wouldn't get hateful with any one at the clinic but I'd like to. The only times I pitched a fit, I had to. (to defend myself) As u know, the nurses can refuse to dose anyone that they think is high. Once, when I had a 3rd shift job and came in tired and red-eyed, the nurse said I was high. I raised H$%%!!! The director finally went over her head and dosed me. Another time, my old man (ex) had been up all night.(geeking) and they wouldn't dose him. when I got to the window, they said my eyes were glassy. The director even said my pupils were dilated!!!! The only drug I'd had was coffee. Well, they U.A.'d me and It came back clean. Of course, nobody apologized for making a mistake. They don't bother me like that anymore, though. Y'all have a good day! Peace, Shirley
