I dont sometimes know anymore what to even say here...everything breaks my heart all the time...i wish I could heal every single one of us...take the pain, the cravings, the mind set, the relapses...everything away....
Im almost there...end of august I take the jump off for good...Im at the lowest i've ever been at on the methadone...the circles your head plays...the cravings...its a devils snare...its like being in withdrawals for months and months a little at a time....2 every two weeks down...sweating, no sleep...its not been much of a picnic...but Im almost freakin there...
Eck, its good knowing your out there...Thanks
Con
Con, we love you. Are you sure this is not rushing things a bit? Please take your time with this. I miss you, girl...come back and say more. How's H? How's the not-so-new-anymore place? Work? Do tell...
Peace ~ M&M
PS Is your email still the same? If not, shoot me a message so I can get back in touch.
Peace ~ M&M
PS Is your email still the same? If not, shoot me a message so I can get back in touch.
Just by chance I came back for a sec and caught your post M&M. Eck said the same thing to me..at first I thought I was really ready...honestly...right now Im maybe not as sure as I started off...its just bizarre how like the meth changed my outlook and now...I dont know...some things are good to have back...my desire to play music and create again has come bck slowly over the last few months...but...other not so great behaviors seem to be seeping in...god, what a relief to admit this...I dont know if Im doing the right thing yet...im doing some intense craving latley...I have to go now but I think I will be back later on...yes at same email...and Thanks M&M..I really sometimes have no idea what I would do if I couldnt come here now and then and talk...
Con!!!!!!!!!!!
Just me, but sounds like you're surely mvoing a lil too quick?
Talk it out, babes. Talk it here.
Hoping Jack and Zero Girl would pop on. They can definately help.
Con, I have so much respect for you. You've really come so far. Would it be that bad to say slow it down a bit. Man, now wonder you ain't sleeping and you're sweating. That's like nothing that amount, right?
Con, I am never much help, but know I care. Plus I need to borrow some shoes.
Thinking of you. Oh and yeah that Eckie knows his **** sometimes.
Just me, but sounds like you're surely mvoing a lil too quick?
Talk it out, babes. Talk it here.
Hoping Jack and Zero Girl would pop on. They can definately help.
Con, I have so much respect for you. You've really come so far. Would it be that bad to say slow it down a bit. Man, now wonder you ain't sleeping and you're sweating. That's like nothing that amount, right?
Con, I am never much help, but know I care. Plus I need to borrow some shoes.
Thinking of you. Oh and yeah that Eckie knows his **** sometimes.
Bryn !! U just made my morning...take the shoes ...hell walking in them,,,lol...
I know, but somtimes its like when u start something it gets a mind of its own....frankly, I feel like I'd be letting myself down so bad if I caved and went back to the arseholes asking to go on and back up...its all up and down right now...descions are never easy when ur feeling like crap...ya know ? God just hearing everyones voices again is helping more than u all know...thanks 4 the smiles Brynn...hell, u got me through so many bad days I cant even count them...owe u a whole damn bag of shoes girl !
I know, but somtimes its like when u start something it gets a mind of its own....frankly, I feel like I'd be letting myself down so bad if I caved and went back to the arseholes asking to go on and back up...its all up and down right now...descions are never easy when ur feeling like crap...ya know ? God just hearing everyones voices again is helping more than u all know...thanks 4 the smiles Brynn...hell, u got me through so many bad days I cant even count them...owe u a whole damn bag of shoes girl !
Hi con
I don't know you're story but I can feel your pain all the way here in south africa through your messages
Hang in there it has to get better
I will keep you in my prayers that is all that keeps me going
Lots of best wishes
Aka never give up mom
I don't know you're story but I can feel your pain all the way here in south africa through your messages
Hang in there it has to get better
I will keep you in my prayers that is all that keeps me going
Lots of best wishes
Aka never give up mom
