I had a very close friend at my previous work who died a few years ago and all i can think of lately is him, i was sad when i heared he died, but i actually feel like im mourning now.....a friend of mine a few yrs ago, her mum died and im just starting to wake up to the reality of that now too!....is this part of w/d's? maybe i was too 'doped up' to really, even though i knew, the verosity of it hasnt really hit me until recently. thanx for any input xx
Hey sweety Its funny the stuff we push down & not feel when we are usen.I think all of us have something we havent dealt with yet.some pain that is just starting to serface.Can I help in anyway????mj
thanx mj, just by replying u helped me! u are right! i think i will go and 'visit' my friend, i will find out where he is at rest, and go visit, that might help! xx
Maybe you just need closer(sp) I hope I said that right.Maybe you just need a private goodbye.OK more molly baggage.I still dont go to my dads grave.He passed away(cancer)3 years ago.I was in such a drugged out haze those last 2 weeks I dont remember much.Me & him never got a chance to come together & if I ever go to therapy I know Ill have to deal with that but not yet....mj
Im trying to send your pics OK????mjYes I did get the one of you & those 2 beautiful people.You are very very lucky to have that love...BUT I LUV U 2
Darn they keep comming back email me your address maybe Im getting it wrong>>>>>mj
HEy Elvis!!!!!!!!!!!!
E CHECK YOUR MAIL SWEETY....mj
Hi Elvis - your post hits home because I am in the middle of an IOP program right now and we spent a good amount of time last night talking about how hard it can be dealing with "feelings" after always stuffing them and pushing them away with chemicals, etc. I sure don't have all the answers as I have my own issues to deal with on this subject, but it sounds like your taking a positive step to deal with the feelings you're experiencing about your losses. Good for you. Jim
JR,
Glad too see your working on yourself. It can be scary when we start getting to know ourselves, and begin to understand that our addiction is just a symptom of the disease. When I first got clean and sober they were gonna send me to IOP but I pretty much begged them to keep me in rehab, I was only a week and a half in at that point and had a feeling if I was let out I'd screw up. They somehow worked it out for me to stay in rehab. I ended up doing 33 days. I also ended up picking up anyway after two years but I needed to go through what I did to get where I'm at today. Continued sucess to ya' Jim,
Take care.....................................God bless....................................Bob
Glad too see your working on yourself. It can be scary when we start getting to know ourselves, and begin to understand that our addiction is just a symptom of the disease. When I first got clean and sober they were gonna send me to IOP but I pretty much begged them to keep me in rehab, I was only a week and a half in at that point and had a feeling if I was let out I'd screw up. They somehow worked it out for me to stay in rehab. I ended up doing 33 days. I also ended up picking up anyway after two years but I needed to go through what I did to get where I'm at today. Continued sucess to ya' Jim,
Take care.....................................God bless....................................Bob
My doctor warned me when I got off of pain pills and got on sub that all of my problems and issues I had been "numbing" all these years would resurface. She recommended counseling (which I'm already in) to deal with these things and work through them
Hi. Elvis, sorry to hear what you are going through. The Post before are right on the mark. That is why most people not all, that have those dissruptions in life while using are so numbed mentally that they can not deal with theses kind of issues but have to once they are start to get some mental clarity back form our disease. It is important that you find a support group locally so that you can find people to talk to about these issues. This can be a valuable step in relapse prevention. You have alot of people on this forum who care about you!
Best Wishes
God Bless
Coolbeans
Best Wishes
God Bless
Coolbeans
Elvis, when I first got clean, they made me do grief therapy in treatment...my mom had died 2 years before. I used the pills to numb it out, and had to process it later..
no you aren't alone, and I am sorry this is happening to you..
Kerry
no you aren't alone, and I am sorry this is happening to you..
Kerry
Hey thanx mj i did get ur pics and sent u an email back they are lovely. And thankyou mj, jim, bob, coolbeans, danielle littlebeach and mk, for ur stories and kind words of support. I'll be ok, but all u guys help me so much and i really appreciate it! Im glad to hear this isnt a weird thing, only happening to me, it makes sense what uve all said about how the drugs numb u, and then u have to deal with it later! Ive always dealt with my probs with pills, so now i will have to find other strategies cuz i am determined this time not to mess up the schedule my doc has me on tapering me with the pills! Thankyou all so much! All my love xxxxxxxxx
p.s it seems i have broken out in some sort of a very itchy rash this morning?! my face and neck and arms, everything is itchy and of course im scratching and going red?!?
p.s it seems i have broken out in some sort of a very itchy rash this morning?! my face and neck and arms, everything is itchy and of course im scratching and going red?!?
