Yesterday I went for a walk to clear my head. Was suffering a little from a hangover from an all day and all night session of champaign, vodka and WKD. I get a little sensitive when I am hungover and I just wanted to walk and keep walking with no thoughts, no problems..NOTHING.
I ended up at a cremitorium, looking at grave's. Was going along reading them, tiding them up, sorting the flowers, clearing any rubbies etc. Went along to the babies section and there was a baby 1 day old and he dies. He had so many flowers and so man cards, and he had only lived 1 day. I cried. I thought to myself how much we abuse the right to live and life itself and how the poor little boy didnt have a choice and his famil didnt even get a chance to get to know him. I also thought about the selfishness of this world and even myself. Somethings you dont get a choice, others like my situation, well I have a choice however difficult it is. But you know what, I feel I am always moaning, but there is people so far worse then myself. I dont deny I am entitled to a moan as we all are but...GOD I just felt so sad for those without a choice, that poor little baby.
Lynz xx
Know exactly what you mean. I saw a little boy, must have been about 5 or 6 years old, losing his hair, I assume from chemo-therapy. It made me suddenly really really angry...angry at Sean for whingeing about his life and how s*** it is...well you know what? You got choices. That little boy doesn't.
He didn't appreciate that. Lol.
Good to seeya back Bunny!
Maddy x
He didn't appreciate that. Lol.
Good to seeya back Bunny!
Maddy x
Funny how a walk can take you somewhere you never intended...
It's reading posts like that that makes me realise how lucky I am. I've got my limbs, health, friends and family... And i still moan. I take this life for granted sometimes...
..Yep..you walk n ya see sumfin to put ya life into perspective or see sumfin that makes ya realise theres sum selfish people in the world who take life for granted while sum did'nt even get the chance to live a life..Robbie..
Yeh it gives you something to think about eh?? I find it really strange how I ended up there though! Its like I was meant to go there to figure things out.
I went to see m sisters baby's grave too. Well she aint my sister but grew up with her and she is like a sister. Pretty sad. Her daughter dies 11 year ago and her grave had never been visited for some time now. Probably last time I was there was when I was pregnant. See Angela blocks things out cos she never really talks about it, but I can see the hurt and I can see how attached she is to my little girl and I think its because of what she has been through. She dies from a spinal disorder. Its also m friends sons death anniversary today. He died from menacockle meningitius (spelling??) he was only 3 months old and my friend woke to find him black and blue stiff cold. So sad!!
We are so lucky to be who we are, to have who we have and what we have and am so gratefull!!
Thank you for my health, my safety, my family and my life xxx
I went to see m sisters baby's grave too. Well she aint my sister but grew up with her and she is like a sister. Pretty sad. Her daughter dies 11 year ago and her grave had never been visited for some time now. Probably last time I was there was when I was pregnant. See Angela blocks things out cos she never really talks about it, but I can see the hurt and I can see how attached she is to my little girl and I think its because of what she has been through. She dies from a spinal disorder. Its also m friends sons death anniversary today. He died from menacockle meningitius (spelling??) he was only 3 months old and my friend woke to find him black and blue stiff cold. So sad!!
We are so lucky to be who we are, to have who we have and what we have and am so gratefull!!
Thank you for my health, my safety, my family and my life xxx
I agree...sending up a silent thank you for my health, my beautiful healthy kids, my life...it's good stuff!
Thanks for this thread Bunny...good to have ya back!
Maddy x x x
Thanks for this thread Bunny...good to have ya back!
Maddy x x x
As a baby 5 months old i was in a coma 4 a short while my mom was told i would die and if i lived i'ld be retarded blind and possibly deaf. I do have brain damage and sizures from the meningitis and left sided weakness. I do not remember what strain i had. Meningococcal meningitis is scary stuff . My mom says i was fine lil cranky that day then in the middle of the night i was stif and hot she could not wake me up. She went stright to the ER they were all pretty sure it was already to late. I value life i know how fleeting it is.
I've lost a baby b4 "a pregnancy" the is a hurt like no other hurt on Earth, i'll spare you guys the details..
I've lost a baby b4 "a pregnancy" the is a hurt like no other hurt on Earth, i'll spare you guys the details..
thanks for this post ans the opportunity to give thanks for my family and my health and for life which means hope.........and herogirl....your post only goes more to show me and you hopefully that you r destined to LIVE and thankfully you havent taken that gift of lifeand thrown it away...........today you have hope and i am so proud of all you have overcome
