As far as babysitting the little ones, i have no say..
there already here!!
But i would like to yell realy loud at my mom for doing this to me. I have my own two kids to take care of through all this and to add two more in the mix is just alot for me to handle right now.
At this moment i have already vacummed the whole house (2 times ) and i have cleaned the bacement and i have made dinner for four kids and i keep shaking. Half of the dinner hit the floor a few times. I told my fiancee that i was o.k. and that he should still go to his side job tonight, but i just wish that someone would see me the way i realy am. I wish that my mom or my fiancee would just come though that door and tell me to go to bed and watch some t.v. and go to sleep!!! But is apparent that its not gonna happen to me and it never will. Everyone just seems to think that im stronger than i realy am. God, no wonder i took so many pills everyday. It made me SUPER MOM!! And there wasnt one person that complained about that!!!
Your Friend, Christina
OMG, christina, i feel the same way about popping those f***ing pills and the super mom thing, s*** your not alone sister, look if you want give me a jingle, maybe talking will help ya, its all up to you, ....is there anything at all that I can do for ya?? let me know and keep me posted, wheres evryone now??
My mother and sister are at the casina...my fiancee is at work doing a side job, ...and the kids are running around the bacement screaming and yelling and chasing the dog around!!!!!!
All this and im going through withdrawls.!!!!!!
I just hope i can make it through this night. Thats all i keep thinking...Just get through until about 9:00pm and ill be able to lay in bed and get the rest that i feel that i decerve!!!
Other people tell me that i should be feeling much better by now, but its just getting worse by the min. I would call, but my hands cant hold the phone and i cant even talk right now!! It just hard, thats all.
Your Friend, Christina
All this and im going through withdrawls.!!!!!!
I just hope i can make it through this night. Thats all i keep thinking...Just get through until about 9:00pm and ill be able to lay in bed and get the rest that i feel that i decerve!!!
Other people tell me that i should be feeling much better by now, but its just getting worse by the min. I would call, but my hands cant hold the phone and i cant even talk right now!! It just hard, thats all.
Your Friend, Christina
Thats ok hun, just a suggestion, i understand.. damm just hang in girly! deep breaths, s*** i would be crying right know if i was you... not to much longer right?, ok.... hang in there , damm i wish that i could help you, and i wish that i had better words of wisdom but i dont so just post your butt off if needed i am here, hehe....
The best thing anyone can do for me is just to listen right now. There is nothing to make the withdrawls go away and i have to do this on my own anyway. I just feel like i want to scream some hours of the day. Well, alot of hours of the day i guess. But i have to do this for eveyone that thinking of me. I just am fearing that ill let people down. You ever felt that way before. Its a horrible feeling to always have to put everyone eles first and me last. I just wanted 3 days to put me first and nobody bug me. I realy wanted to get the relaxation with out probloms and then come x-mas it would all be better!! Guess i had this comming for along time now. But as the saying goes.....
GOD NEVER GIVES YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE..
I think hes playing with me alittle right now.
Your Friend, Christina
GOD NEVER GIVES YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE..
I think hes playing with me alittle right now.
Your Friend, Christina
Thats a great attuide chris, and hang in there hun i have to go for a few min, but i will be back, take care and ill write cha when i get back, mitzy..
Christina,
you are much stronger than you think......look at what you are enduring......hang in there. I feeeel real bad that you have nobody to help you.....it's hard to go the go alone and even harder if you have to do things(like 4 kids). Hope you are able to sleep .......I know that's a tough one for me. This is all so wrong though..you should be getting the help you need for what you are trying to accomplish. I really wish i could help....
take care you
you are much stronger than you think......look at what you are enduring......hang in there. I feeeel real bad that you have nobody to help you.....it's hard to go the go alone and even harder if you have to do things(like 4 kids). Hope you are able to sleep .......I know that's a tough one for me. This is all so wrong though..you should be getting the help you need for what you are trying to accomplish. I really wish i could help....
take care you
IM BAAAACK Christina... R-U still here??
Ya, im here!
Just got the kids to bed and my nieses left about 10min. ago!!!(thank god)
I have to get some rest before i fall over. I think im gonna take some NYQUIL to get to sleep for a few. And my fiancee just got in.
I guess its time to try and sleep.
Love ya and ill be back if sleep dosnt find me!!!!!
Your
Friend, Christina
Just got the kids to bed and my nieses left about 10min. ago!!!(thank god)
I have to get some rest before i fall over. I think im gonna take some NYQUIL to get to sleep for a few. And my fiancee just got in.
I guess its time to try and sleep.
Love ya and ill be back if sleep dosnt find me!!!!!
Your
Friend, Christina
Okkie Dokie, i hope that you have sweet dreams!! see you in the morning:)))
