Well I am starting back at day one today. I was doing ok for awhile but about 2 weeks ago I fell back into it. Then yesterday I watched a man burn to death in a horrific crash outside my house. The man was driving a semi & he was going to hit a family van packed with kids. Instead of hitting them he swerved & smashed head on into a telephone pole. Passerbys tried to pull him out but they abandoned their efforts as the man died in their arms & the flames became to intense. I pray the Lord takes his soul to Heaven for his sacrifice. This has snapped me back to reality. I just feel so bad for taking my life for granted. I am not the same person I was yesterday. Something has changed inside me & I just feel completely different. I am ready now to stick with it. All the times I tried before where just practice for now. I know I can do it as I see the world springing back into life around me. I have to embrace the life I have been blessed with. SO once & for all
I QUIT!!!
Love to everyone!
AEA
Hang in there girl.
hi aea- wow intense view of life. i've been out of touch and i'm doing my best to get back into the swing of things.....and post more and e-mail more. two weeks left till i'm done with my personal emotional task(s) at hand.
meanwhile for you....good luck dear friend, i take strength in your strength and you take from whatever is mine okay?
xo jojo
meanwhile for you....good luck dear friend, i take strength in your strength and you take from whatever is mine okay?
xo jojo
AEA
sorry to here that but glad to see you back on the board. have not heard from you in a while. be strong. you can do this.we are all here for you if you need us.
sorry to here that but glad to see you back on the board. have not heard from you in a while. be strong. you can do this.we are all here for you if you need us.
I must admit I'm dissapointed that you chose to not share your relapse with us. That is part of what this board is for-I hope-and not just a bunch of hey ain't we great we're all still clean groupies!
Oh, wait I just read Mr. B's fell of the horse thread, I don't think this, I know it.
So next time, and for anyone else in a similar situation, share! I need something to keep life interesting...
(ok, no I don't-but that's another story, LOL)
Oh, wait I just read Mr. B's fell of the horse thread, I don't think this, I know it.
So next time, and for anyone else in a similar situation, share! I need something to keep life interesting...
(ok, no I don't-but that's another story, LOL)
yo hippie- aea DID share she just didn't get on here right away and do it; she did it in her own time. as for your needing to keep life interesting for yourself i hope you don't count on people's slips and pick-ups to do so, i hope you were kidding about that (there were no %%) . yes it's great when we can help right away but maybe aea needed to spend some time before sharing, i can understand that. and i think she knows we are here had she wanted to talk about it.
and she showed up yesterday to tell us and did so in honesty.
this does works best when we speak up rite away but i'm more concerned that aea find this a safe forum to turn to in her own time in her own way.
my 2 cents.
jojo
and she showed up yesterday to tell us and did so in honesty.
this does works best when we speak up rite away but i'm more concerned that aea find this a safe forum to turn to in her own time in her own way.
my 2 cents.
jojo
jojo-
Yea I was kidding (about the interesting part, I thought the last line said that)
But to remove all doubt, yea I was kidding.
I guess my point was that folks should not just share with us when they get back on the wagon but would hope they feel safe sharing that they may have slipped again, and we should be ok with that.
Otherwise this board is nothing but an electronic AA/NA meeting.
Which is fine if that's what yall want it to be.
Yea I was kidding (about the interesting part, I thought the last line said that)
But to remove all doubt, yea I was kidding.
I guess my point was that folks should not just share with us when they get back on the wagon but would hope they feel safe sharing that they may have slipped again, and we should be ok with that.
Otherwise this board is nothing but an electronic AA/NA meeting.
Which is fine if that's what yall want it to be.
Jo~ I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! Thank you so much for being my big sis. You always know exactly what I need to hear & when I need to hear it. Thanks for having my back in good times & bad. You mean the world to me & I wish there was some way I could ever pay you back for all you've done. I am still clean today.
It hasnt really been hard but I am a ball of energy without much to do. I guess I'm just bored & I can't freakin wait to be able to get out of this house & immerse myself in my garden. I have a full schedule of shows starting soon & it will keep me busy too. I hope you are well & that things are going good with your girli. I am sure she is blossoming into such a sweet young lady now & I just wish I was there to see it. You know you & your family are always in my thoughts & prayers!
LOVE YOU!!
AEA
Thanks so much to everyone else to for your continued support!
Hippie, Please dont take Jo's words the wrong way. We are just very protective of one another as I'm sure you can understand.
Love to everyone,
AEA
It hasnt really been hard but I am a ball of energy without much to do. I guess I'm just bored & I can't freakin wait to be able to get out of this house & immerse myself in my garden. I have a full schedule of shows starting soon & it will keep me busy too. I hope you are well & that things are going good with your girli. I am sure she is blossoming into such a sweet young lady now & I just wish I was there to see it. You know you & your family are always in my thoughts & prayers!
LOVE YOU!!
AEA
Thanks so much to everyone else to for your continued support!
Hippie, Please dont take Jo's words the wrong way. We are just very protective of one another as I'm sure you can understand.
Love to everyone,
AEA
hippie- i hope you didn't take my words the wrong way. please don't.
aea - my love and support like your sister and i'll write you soon, i'm in the midst of much stuff... but all in all i'm okay which in itself is amazing:)
hang in all xo jo
aea - my love and support like your sister and i'll write you soon, i'm in the midst of much stuff... but all in all i'm okay which in itself is amazing:)
hang in all xo jo
Great to see you back on the message board and having another attempt at being straight. For some a relapse can meen another downward spiral with such guilt that we never try again. Well done for making the big decision and letting us know what happened (i was just thinking of you a few days ago). Keep up the good work and take care of yourself.
I'm hoping this is day 6 for you. Hope you're ok. That's a pretty traumatic experience you just went thru. please share how you are ok ?
Love,
Diana
Love,
Diana
Diana,
Yes, it is day 6 for me!! I am very excited & so is my hubby. We went out last night with another couple who is like us. He smokes, she doesn't so it was great to be social & ALIVE!! It was great to be understood & with people who are supportive. They kept commenting on my energy & how bright my "new" personality is. LOL We spoiled ourselves with an exquisite dinner & I truly feel renewed & refreshed. Tonight I'm making lasagna as a thank you to my hubby for being so awesome!! Love to everyone!!
Cole
Yes, it is day 6 for me!! I am very excited & so is my hubby. We went out last night with another couple who is like us. He smokes, she doesn't so it was great to be social & ALIVE!! It was great to be understood & with people who are supportive. They kept commenting on my energy & how bright my "new" personality is. LOL We spoiled ourselves with an exquisite dinner & I truly feel renewed & refreshed. Tonight I'm making lasagna as a thank you to my hubby for being so awesome!! Love to everyone!!
Cole
