....and so far so good! I jumped down another 4mgs. Now I realize that it has only been 1 day and sub has a very long half life. That means it lingers in the body longer than most drugs. So I suppose that I won't feel any side effects if I am going to for at least another day.
I think its easier to jump down from higher doses so I am taking advantage of that. I was at 8mgs down from 12 for the past 2 weeks. Now I only took 4mgs this morning and will stay there...even if it gets a little uncomfortable. I don't know yet but will let you know if I do.
I hope to be at 4mgs for two weeks...maybe less....and then another 2mgs drop. I feel no difference. I so believe that when one starts to taper from sub we worry needlessly about it and expect the worse. I am trying real hard not to do that.
So that's it....how is everyone else doing that is tapering? Any news? Lets here it!!!
Kee Kee I would suggest you have 1mg -chunks--LOL
From four mg to off hey maybe you just want off.I did to. Just stopped at 4 mg once and 2mg
There is one way to come off sub and that is slowly. 4mg to your goal of zero? I would be doing this with your doctor and drop 1/2 to one mg a month so 4 months and your off if you do well on 4 mg.
and you cut the nighttime dose. JMO its what was told for me to do Kee kee- I weaned off 3 times --its not that hard but when I tried it my way it did not work. I worked very closely with my doctor especially after getting off it after 8 months and then got that MRSA infection and had to start all over.
The second time I started on 8mg but if i remember correctly got right down to 4 mg then went real slow.
But maybe your different. Kee kee the worst thing that happens if you take to low a dose you get a little achy? you take another crumb.
Man do you remember the days before the sub? I was so messed up? LMAO
To this day I drove 45 minutes to get to a hospital in Full W/D if you saw me? I was shakin sweatin snot --cramped up dry heaves
Probably was in a seizure? but I knew the doctor had threatened me after I called her 9 times in 3 days begging she take me even though i was on xanax and all my other pills?
Had some magic pills and bada Bing the sub and motrin? 115 -75 -The doctor said she never saw the sub work so well They had a bed ready for me.
Sje made me stay fo 2doses 4 mg gave me a script and said If I needed to go to a hospital it had to be this one. She only worked out of a mental hospital.
kee kee no way I was going into a mental ward. I would still be there.
look glad your cutting just remember the lower the dose the higher % your cutting.
Glad your feeling good. Whatever you do make sure a doctor is watching over your care.
I am a bit messed up here. But I am not dying and puck the serequell. I have to stop it as per my doctor. So ?? so far Kee kee its the exercise work I am sleeping naturally. I have no idea what 2 yrs of that crap did to my brain but it messed up my blood.
OY VEY-PILLS
Jeff
Just had dinner with my family. Man Kee Kee my dad looks like a million bucks.
I spent the past 3 hrs going through wedding albums from my parents sister brother --we had a blast.
Life is good.
From four mg to off hey maybe you just want off.I did to. Just stopped at 4 mg once and 2mg
There is one way to come off sub and that is slowly. 4mg to your goal of zero? I would be doing this with your doctor and drop 1/2 to one mg a month so 4 months and your off if you do well on 4 mg.
and you cut the nighttime dose. JMO its what was told for me to do Kee kee- I weaned off 3 times --its not that hard but when I tried it my way it did not work. I worked very closely with my doctor especially after getting off it after 8 months and then got that MRSA infection and had to start all over.
The second time I started on 8mg but if i remember correctly got right down to 4 mg then went real slow.
But maybe your different. Kee kee the worst thing that happens if you take to low a dose you get a little achy? you take another crumb.
Man do you remember the days before the sub? I was so messed up? LMAO
To this day I drove 45 minutes to get to a hospital in Full W/D if you saw me? I was shakin sweatin snot --cramped up dry heaves
Probably was in a seizure? but I knew the doctor had threatened me after I called her 9 times in 3 days begging she take me even though i was on xanax and all my other pills?
Had some magic pills and bada Bing the sub and motrin? 115 -75 -The doctor said she never saw the sub work so well They had a bed ready for me.
Sje made me stay fo 2doses 4 mg gave me a script and said If I needed to go to a hospital it had to be this one. She only worked out of a mental hospital.
kee kee no way I was going into a mental ward. I would still be there.
look glad your cutting just remember the lower the dose the higher % your cutting.
Glad your feeling good. Whatever you do make sure a doctor is watching over your care.
I am a bit messed up here. But I am not dying and puck the serequell. I have to stop it as per my doctor. So ?? so far Kee kee its the exercise work I am sleeping naturally. I have no idea what 2 yrs of that crap did to my brain but it messed up my blood.
OY VEY-PILLS
Jeff
Just had dinner with my family. Man Kee Kee my dad looks like a million bucks.
I spent the past 3 hrs going through wedding albums from my parents sister brother --we had a blast.
Life is good.
Jeff, your attitude is amazing, I think that is what gets you through. People underestimate the power of the mind...I think it essential to our overall well being. In fact I am sure of it.
Once I get settle on 4mgs....I will be cutting slowly....from there. My goal is to stabilize at 4mgs...then maybe in two weeks...I will start cutting perhaps 1mg per week I will see how it goes.
I would never jump off at 4!! That would be insane to me...I don't want to rush off it that fast. I have 8mg pills so I will cut them in quarters once I am good at 4mg.
Sorry I perhaps confused you! Hell sometimes I confuse myself...LOL!
How did that big presentation go of yours the other day? Did you land that deal or are you still working it.
I am hiring a new sales rep here and its been quite a process, its hard to find good solid people in Hawaii. Just different here...but I believe I have a good one...put him through all the hoops and he did well. He is a bit younger than perhaps I would like but that has its benefits too. He is off to Maui in the morning to meet the rest of my management team and then I will hire him!!!
I will be so relieved...I have been handling everything with a broken foot! Not fun!!!
Good to hear that you Dad is doing so well...he is one tough cookie isn't he!
Glad you had a good nite...its only 2 in the afternoon right now and I am thinking of an Ice Cappuccino!!!! Need my afternoon boost...trouble is....its a real process to get it...lol....but I will do it!!
Have a good one and thanks for your input on the sub...greatly appreciated!!!
Once I get settle on 4mgs....I will be cutting slowly....from there. My goal is to stabilize at 4mgs...then maybe in two weeks...I will start cutting perhaps 1mg per week I will see how it goes.
I would never jump off at 4!! That would be insane to me...I don't want to rush off it that fast. I have 8mg pills so I will cut them in quarters once I am good at 4mg.
Sorry I perhaps confused you! Hell sometimes I confuse myself...LOL!
How did that big presentation go of yours the other day? Did you land that deal or are you still working it.
I am hiring a new sales rep here and its been quite a process, its hard to find good solid people in Hawaii. Just different here...but I believe I have a good one...put him through all the hoops and he did well. He is a bit younger than perhaps I would like but that has its benefits too. He is off to Maui in the morning to meet the rest of my management team and then I will hire him!!!
I will be so relieved...I have been handling everything with a broken foot! Not fun!!!
Good to hear that you Dad is doing so well...he is one tough cookie isn't he!
Glad you had a good nite...its only 2 in the afternoon right now and I am thinking of an Ice Cappuccino!!!! Need my afternoon boost...trouble is....its a real process to get it...lol....but I will do it!!
Have a good one and thanks for your input on the sub...greatly appreciated!!!
Hello Kee Kee,
Down to 4 MGS? Feels good to accomplish these small goals doesn't it? To us its a big deal.
I stopped at 1 MG. Cutting those pills is fun till you get to a quarter, then it's, "how do I do this?." lol. I got a pill cutter that is all clear plastic so I could see what I was doing. I was able to cut the 1/4 (2MS) in half to get 1 MG.
8 mgs can be cut in half to give you 4 MGS. Half of 4 MGS will give you 2.MGS. When you want to go to 1MG or 1/2 MG its a good idea to ask your doctor for the 2 MG tablets. With The 2 MG tablets you can be more precise with cutting them and also get down. to 1/2 MG. You will only need a perscription for maybe 5 tablets. It would depend on your taper schedule.
Subocone 1/2 life means it's only half its strength 24 hours later. For instance if you take 8 MGS at 9AM Monday morning at 9AM Tuesday morning you will have 4MGS in your body. Suboxone stays in your system for 72 hours.
What has your doctor said about your taper so far? I'll bet he's tickled pink about your progress.
Catherine
Down to 4 MGS? Feels good to accomplish these small goals doesn't it? To us its a big deal.
I stopped at 1 MG. Cutting those pills is fun till you get to a quarter, then it's, "how do I do this?." lol. I got a pill cutter that is all clear plastic so I could see what I was doing. I was able to cut the 1/4 (2MS) in half to get 1 MG.
8 mgs can be cut in half to give you 4 MGS. Half of 4 MGS will give you 2.MGS. When you want to go to 1MG or 1/2 MG its a good idea to ask your doctor for the 2 MG tablets. With The 2 MG tablets you can be more precise with cutting them and also get down. to 1/2 MG. You will only need a perscription for maybe 5 tablets. It would depend on your taper schedule.
Subocone 1/2 life means it's only half its strength 24 hours later. For instance if you take 8 MGS at 9AM Monday morning at 9AM Tuesday morning you will have 4MGS in your body. Suboxone stays in your system for 72 hours.
What has your doctor said about your taper so far? I'll bet he's tickled pink about your progress.
Catherine
WTG Kerri! Are you keeping your sub doctor updated on your progress?
How's the leg doing?
How's the leg doing?
Okay...here is where I am going to get blasted! My Doctor isn't aware! I know I know...not good! But you have to understand this guy...he will be furious. I don't think he wants me to taper. It is his belief that I should be on it longer...I just know it....when I asked him months ago how long I should be on it...he told me NOT to worry about that...to worry about working my program and the steps.
So I have been struggling about whether to tell him. I have an appointment on the 19th and I was going to tell him then of my progress.
I should be stable at 4mgs by then.
Okay....blast away....LOL
So I have been struggling about whether to tell him. I have an appointment on the 19th and I was going to tell him then of my progress.
I should be stable at 4mgs by then.
Okay....blast away....LOL
I understand totally.
Jeff
Jeff
KeeKee, I bet you're an inspiration to all the sub users here and anywhere you encounter them. You have a great attitude and I don't doubt for a second that one day soon you'll be free. Success is fun to watch. Keep filling us in on your progress.
xxxxxoooooo
I didn't see your last post when I wrote this. I don't understand why he would be furious. To me, it seems like he should be proud of you. I only know about Sub what I've read here, but less is better, right? I wonder if there are some Sub Dr.'s out there like some of the drug Dr's we've all known of. The kind that don't want you clean for whatever warped reasons.
I still think you're doing great! >smile<
xxxxxoooooo
I didn't see your last post when I wrote this. I don't understand why he would be furious. To me, it seems like he should be proud of you. I only know about Sub what I've read here, but less is better, right? I wonder if there are some Sub Dr.'s out there like some of the drug Dr's we've all known of. The kind that don't want you clean for whatever warped reasons.
I still think you're doing great! >smile<
Kee Kee,
Bad Kee Kee, bad girl!!!
You wrote " ...he told me NOT to worry about that...to worry about working my program and the steps..." Your doctor sounds like a very wise man. He said to you he didn't think you were ready because he didn't think you are ready. Your resposibility is to prove to him and yourself that you are.
Your doctor does not want to keep you around. I'm sure he has a large waiting list of people waiting to get into the suboxone program. Addicts are a dime a dozen. He won't be hurting if you leave him.
Your doctor is going to be pleased with your taper. You are showing him not only are you ready but you have already tapered. Now show him how responsible you are by going to your appointment and telling him everything you have done since your last visit.
I'm proud of your taper so far. You have done so well.
Catherine
Bad Kee Kee, bad girl!!!
You wrote " ...he told me NOT to worry about that...to worry about working my program and the steps..." Your doctor sounds like a very wise man. He said to you he didn't think you were ready because he didn't think you are ready. Your resposibility is to prove to him and yourself that you are.
Your doctor does not want to keep you around. I'm sure he has a large waiting list of people waiting to get into the suboxone program. Addicts are a dime a dozen. He won't be hurting if you leave him.
Your doctor is going to be pleased with your taper. You are showing him not only are you ready but you have already tapered. Now show him how responsible you are by going to your appointment and telling him everything you have done since your last visit.
I'm proud of your taper so far. You have done so well.
Catherine
Hey there, Catherine, what you said makes sense.
I wondered if some Sub Dr's might have other motives but with the waiting lists and all, I guess it's unlikely. It's good to know that method of recovery will be done by Dr's who are truly looking out for their patient's best interests.
xxxxxooooo
I wondered if some Sub Dr's might have other motives but with the waiting lists and all, I guess it's unlikely. It's good to know that method of recovery will be done by Dr's who are truly looking out for their patient's best interests.
xxxxxooooo
Kat, thank you that! I just know that I have learned so very very much about myself and addiction and the drug suboxone. I never would have believed that I would have come this far.
When I think back to all that I went through because of my addiction, it makes my skin crawl. What I do know that no matter how defeated, how down and depressed I was, I never gave up...even when it seemed like there was absolutely no answer. I hope and pray that I am able to send that message.
I don't endorse sub at all...I talk about what worked for me and still is when I thought my life was over. You are so kind to say these things to me!
We all have something to offer here..sometimes some of us are a little further ahead or a little further behind. It doesn't matter, what matters most is that we eventually get there! Somehow...by hook or by crook we get where we are suppose to be and help others to see that it can be done. That is so rewarding for me and others.
Catherine....I know I should NOT be running my own show, this has gotten me in trouble in the past. I really believe for my Doc..its not a matter of income for him. Its the "running my own program" that he has a problem with.
With my next appointment I will come clean to him...I mean I will have to...no way in heck I need him to be RXing that amount of suboxone...I don't want that on my conscience either.
Thanks guys...for keeping me honest...it hard to tell on yourself but so necessary for us.
When I think back to all that I went through because of my addiction, it makes my skin crawl. What I do know that no matter how defeated, how down and depressed I was, I never gave up...even when it seemed like there was absolutely no answer. I hope and pray that I am able to send that message.
I don't endorse sub at all...I talk about what worked for me and still is when I thought my life was over. You are so kind to say these things to me!
We all have something to offer here..sometimes some of us are a little further ahead or a little further behind. It doesn't matter, what matters most is that we eventually get there! Somehow...by hook or by crook we get where we are suppose to be and help others to see that it can be done. That is so rewarding for me and others.
Catherine....I know I should NOT be running my own show, this has gotten me in trouble in the past. I really believe for my Doc..its not a matter of income for him. Its the "running my own program" that he has a problem with.
With my next appointment I will come clean to him...I mean I will have to...no way in heck I need him to be RXing that amount of suboxone...I don't want that on my conscience either.
Thanks guys...for keeping me honest...it hard to tell on yourself but so necessary for us.
Kee Kee,
You are an inspiration to me and to other addicts. You are an inspiration as a fellow human being on the planet. You have come so far.
I agree that suboxone should be used with caution. I was a cronic relapser and suboxone was my last option. Suboxone is powerful stuff. It sounds crazy to get addicted to suboxone to stop your drug use but it will work if you know what you are getting yourself into. My reaction to suboxone will be different than yours. With suboxone there isn't a "one size fits all". You must be under doctors care, suboxone isn't candy. Suboxone isn't a cure for addiction. If you haven't come to terms with your addiction when you stop taking suboxone you will start taking pills again the next day.
Telling on yourself is liberating. I told a lie to cover up for the lie about the other lie. When I started telling the truth it was like a 5000 pound sack of rocks was lifted off my sholders. That's also when I discovered that the world didn't revolve around me. lol
I can't wait for your doctors apointment. Your doctor is going to be giddy with delight. Does he know all about your programs? Tell him everything you have been doing regarding your recovery. Tell him all your plans.
By the way, it's time for you to take time for yourself. Take a class, learn Ballroom Dancing, sculpting, knitting, plant a garden, go visit Graceland, join the DAR, buy a car and restore it. Do something you have always thought about. Make a plan and stick to it. Get out of your own way and enjoy yourself. Put your recovery to good use.
Catherine
You are an inspiration to me and to other addicts. You are an inspiration as a fellow human being on the planet. You have come so far.
I agree that suboxone should be used with caution. I was a cronic relapser and suboxone was my last option. Suboxone is powerful stuff. It sounds crazy to get addicted to suboxone to stop your drug use but it will work if you know what you are getting yourself into. My reaction to suboxone will be different than yours. With suboxone there isn't a "one size fits all". You must be under doctors care, suboxone isn't candy. Suboxone isn't a cure for addiction. If you haven't come to terms with your addiction when you stop taking suboxone you will start taking pills again the next day.
Telling on yourself is liberating. I told a lie to cover up for the lie about the other lie. When I started telling the truth it was like a 5000 pound sack of rocks was lifted off my sholders. That's also when I discovered that the world didn't revolve around me. lol
I can't wait for your doctors apointment. Your doctor is going to be giddy with delight. Does he know all about your programs? Tell him everything you have been doing regarding your recovery. Tell him all your plans.
By the way, it's time for you to take time for yourself. Take a class, learn Ballroom Dancing, sculpting, knitting, plant a garden, go visit Graceland, join the DAR, buy a car and restore it. Do something you have always thought about. Make a plan and stick to it. Get out of your own way and enjoy yourself. Put your recovery to good use.
Catherine
Catherine!!! Thank you so much for the vote of confidence. It really is so empowering to hear those things. I am working very hard at this.
I have an enormous amount of stress in my life right now. The old me would have just said "F" it and immediately poured myself an nice martini in a fancy glass. That in turn would lead me to more "F" its!! Well we all know where that road leads! NOWHERE!! DEADEND.
So, I know that I am growing...I have done the work and will continue to do it. While so very far from being the person that I can be and want to be, I see that there is hope and light at the end of the tunnel....if and only if I continue to do the right things. These things are not easy, especially in light of all the drama that seems to be swirling around me at this time.
The right things.....work my program...go to meetings...open up and share whats going on. Telling on myself!! This I would never have done 6 months ago. I use prayer alot...the serenity prayer is so short but it has such significance in my life.
Today is day 2....when I woke up this morning...I was feeling a little "restless", I guess is the best way to describe it. Not w/d...or achy....just "restless". I feel that I didn't sleep that well either. Probably because I didn't!!! But I don't think that that has anything to do with the drop.....just life as it is right now.
So then...I took my 4mgs and am now getting on with my day. Its a full one....I feel good....I am so grateful for that...day 2!!! I am officially at 4mgs of suboxone! I will not go up....I know I can handle the drop!!
Thank you all for you continued support of me and my crazy journey. It is my wish that I can show the newcomer...or even the old-timer that is still stuck...that there is hope indeed!
I have an enormous amount of stress in my life right now. The old me would have just said "F" it and immediately poured myself an nice martini in a fancy glass. That in turn would lead me to more "F" its!! Well we all know where that road leads! NOWHERE!! DEADEND.
So, I know that I am growing...I have done the work and will continue to do it. While so very far from being the person that I can be and want to be, I see that there is hope and light at the end of the tunnel....if and only if I continue to do the right things. These things are not easy, especially in light of all the drama that seems to be swirling around me at this time.
The right things.....work my program...go to meetings...open up and share whats going on. Telling on myself!! This I would never have done 6 months ago. I use prayer alot...the serenity prayer is so short but it has such significance in my life.
Today is day 2....when I woke up this morning...I was feeling a little "restless", I guess is the best way to describe it. Not w/d...or achy....just "restless". I feel that I didn't sleep that well either. Probably because I didn't!!! But I don't think that that has anything to do with the drop.....just life as it is right now.
So then...I took my 4mgs and am now getting on with my day. Its a full one....I feel good....I am so grateful for that...day 2!!! I am officially at 4mgs of suboxone! I will not go up....I know I can handle the drop!!
Thank you all for you continued support of me and my crazy journey. It is my wish that I can show the newcomer...or even the old-timer that is still stuck...that there is hope indeed!
Way to go Kee,
I'm sure you know all of us on sub and yet to taper are reading your posts with more than just a glance. Thankyou for sharing with us.
Wendy
I'm sure you know all of us on sub and yet to taper are reading your posts with more than just a glance. Thankyou for sharing with us.
Wendy
Hey Keekee,
Im so happy for you.You sound very excited and every determined to do this.I totally understand,i feel exactly the same way.
For me,taking sub was a huge huge decision.I honestly didnt want to do it to begin with,but in the end,i felt it was the only thing that would help me,and it has helped,beyond my highest expectations.But i also never intended to be on it for 8 months either.
When i told my Dr last month what my intentions were,he was all for it.In the beginning,even two months ago,when i would bring it up,he would say the same thing as your dr,we'll deal with it when the time comes,he even said"when and IF the time comes"...that was it for me,there is no if's ands or buts about it.I wanted off and thats the bottom line.
I agree following through this with a dr is the best way to go,be we know ourselves better than anyone,i know for me persoanlly,THIS IS THE TIME,not a month from now,2 months,6 months,or whenever my Dr might decide.NOW,is the right time for me.And luckily he agreed with me,actually,i gave him little choice,i simply told him straight out,i want off,ive done this long enough,im strong,ive got a good foundation,i know i can do this.What could he say???LOL
So,again,i know that you know,this is the right thing for you.Just tell your Dr exactly how youre feeling and im sure he will be understanding(after he gets over the initial turmoil of you starting this without him)personally,i didnt tell my dr i had already started,i just said im ready,now we're on the same page,i just started a few chapters ahead of him.
Good luck,youre doing great! 4mg from 12 is awesome,im happy to hear youre not getting any bad side effects.
Im still getting the 8 mg pills,but when i see my dr on the 13th,i will tell him i want the 2 mg,it will make things much easier.
And like my dr said(worse comes to worse,if i find it difficult,i can always bump it back up a bit for awhile then go back down.)And you can also do the same if theres any problems.I expect some dicomfort.I just dont want full blown WD's,but i honestly dont feel thats going to happen.Im at 2mg now and doing alright.I think it was you whgo asked if i felt this gloom and depresasion was caused by my decrease in the sub? The answer is no,ive had this pretty much all along.Once off the sub,im getting on an AD immmediately.~KIM
Im so happy for you.You sound very excited and every determined to do this.I totally understand,i feel exactly the same way.
For me,taking sub was a huge huge decision.I honestly didnt want to do it to begin with,but in the end,i felt it was the only thing that would help me,and it has helped,beyond my highest expectations.But i also never intended to be on it for 8 months either.
When i told my Dr last month what my intentions were,he was all for it.In the beginning,even two months ago,when i would bring it up,he would say the same thing as your dr,we'll deal with it when the time comes,he even said"when and IF the time comes"...that was it for me,there is no if's ands or buts about it.I wanted off and thats the bottom line.
I agree following through this with a dr is the best way to go,be we know ourselves better than anyone,i know for me persoanlly,THIS IS THE TIME,not a month from now,2 months,6 months,or whenever my Dr might decide.NOW,is the right time for me.And luckily he agreed with me,actually,i gave him little choice,i simply told him straight out,i want off,ive done this long enough,im strong,ive got a good foundation,i know i can do this.What could he say???LOL
So,again,i know that you know,this is the right thing for you.Just tell your Dr exactly how youre feeling and im sure he will be understanding(after he gets over the initial turmoil of you starting this without him)personally,i didnt tell my dr i had already started,i just said im ready,now we're on the same page,i just started a few chapters ahead of him.
Good luck,youre doing great! 4mg from 12 is awesome,im happy to hear youre not getting any bad side effects.
Im still getting the 8 mg pills,but when i see my dr on the 13th,i will tell him i want the 2 mg,it will make things much easier.
And like my dr said(worse comes to worse,if i find it difficult,i can always bump it back up a bit for awhile then go back down.)And you can also do the same if theres any problems.I expect some dicomfort.I just dont want full blown WD's,but i honestly dont feel thats going to happen.Im at 2mg now and doing alright.I think it was you whgo asked if i felt this gloom and depresasion was caused by my decrease in the sub? The answer is no,ive had this pretty much all along.Once off the sub,im getting on an AD immmediately.~KIM
hey guys i have done my taper too!
i have been on 8 mg since july 10th
i started cutting 1 mg a month.
on april 15th it will be a whole month of 7 mg.
so far so good! dont feel any different!
next 30 days will be 6 mg!!!!
good job everyone!
jewels
i have been on 8 mg since july 10th
i started cutting 1 mg a month.
on april 15th it will be a whole month of 7 mg.
so far so good! dont feel any different!
next 30 days will be 6 mg!!!!
good job everyone!
jewels
Yeah...good for you Jewels! That is fantastic. Slow and steady..there is no need to rush off...I think its more of a psychological thing to get off quicker.
Kim I am so glad you are at 2mgs..that is excellent. Again slow and steady, its not a race.
Thanks Wendy! I need the encouragement and am so happy if my posts are helpful!!
Last night was a little "dodgy"...I was definitely feeling a little uncomfortable. However, it wasn't enough that made me want to take more sub. I just rode it out and went to bed and was sleeping soundly by about 10:30. I didn't wake up jonesing or anything so that was a bonus too. But it was on my mind first thing! This hasn't happened in a while. I mean sometimes I would forget my sub for hours after being up. I would just remember and then take it. So things are different for sure.
I think it important to note that I usually take my sub in the morning...I like to get it over with and get on with my day. One thing that I hate about being an addict was the constant thinking about pills.....with sub...I don't get that at all. I can go about my day without even a second thought1
I took 4mgs again this morning and am hoping that tonight will be smoother...if not I will ride it out again..because I know I will make it until morning again.
I know its not a race...I have to keep reminding myself of this. Tonight I will go to my favorite meeting of the week. Its a newcomer's meeting. They are so powerful!
I also celebrate 5 months clean...tomorrow actually...November 6/06...my clean date. The day the madness ended! I am so grateful for all that I have. Thank you everyone for helping me and getting me along on this journey!! That is 151 days!! But who's counting...lol...that is a very long time for an addict to not be doing what we addicts do!! 151 DAYS....wow. I never believed that I would get to 10 days or 20 days....30 or 45 days seemed impossible!! Okay...lol...enough of that I think you get the picture!!
P.S. Stacey!! Jimmyjangles...where are you?? Hope everything is ok. I think of you often sweety. I know that you are on sub too and want to make sure you are doing ok. Check in here....
Kim I am so glad you are at 2mgs..that is excellent. Again slow and steady, its not a race.
Thanks Wendy! I need the encouragement and am so happy if my posts are helpful!!
Last night was a little "dodgy"...I was definitely feeling a little uncomfortable. However, it wasn't enough that made me want to take more sub. I just rode it out and went to bed and was sleeping soundly by about 10:30. I didn't wake up jonesing or anything so that was a bonus too. But it was on my mind first thing! This hasn't happened in a while. I mean sometimes I would forget my sub for hours after being up. I would just remember and then take it. So things are different for sure.
I think it important to note that I usually take my sub in the morning...I like to get it over with and get on with my day. One thing that I hate about being an addict was the constant thinking about pills.....with sub...I don't get that at all. I can go about my day without even a second thought1
I took 4mgs again this morning and am hoping that tonight will be smoother...if not I will ride it out again..because I know I will make it until morning again.
I know its not a race...I have to keep reminding myself of this. Tonight I will go to my favorite meeting of the week. Its a newcomer's meeting. They are so powerful!
I also celebrate 5 months clean...tomorrow actually...November 6/06...my clean date. The day the madness ended! I am so grateful for all that I have. Thank you everyone for helping me and getting me along on this journey!! That is 151 days!! But who's counting...lol...that is a very long time for an addict to not be doing what we addicts do!! 151 DAYS....wow. I never believed that I would get to 10 days or 20 days....30 or 45 days seemed impossible!! Okay...lol...enough of that I think you get the picture!!
P.S. Stacey!! Jimmyjangles...where are you?? Hope everything is ok. I think of you often sweety. I know that you are on sub too and want to make sure you are doing ok. Check in here....
KeeKee...while I think what you're doing is great, getting off the sub, how your doing it might not be too smart honey. Not telling your dr is being deceptive and being deceptive is addictive behavior. It's those kinds of behaviors that you need to nip in the bud. So what if he's furious? If you tell him you want to wean down, that's up to you but he needs to know only for the fact that you need to be honest about what you're doing. I finally got to that point where sneaking around just didn't work for me anymore. It leads to other behaviors before long. Just a thought....
You are so right Lisa. I couldn't agree with you more. I will tell him without a doubt. I have my appointment on the 19th of this month and I will have to tell him because I won't be needing my usual script.
Thanks for the reminder, I need to stay honest and I need to keep things real!
Have a good night
Thanks for the reminder, I need to stay honest and I need to keep things real!
Have a good night
Doing well today. I am feeling just fine. I am a little miserable but I don't believe that that is because of the sub drop. Just a case of the blahs.
I have another stray animal here. Kearra is famous for that. Now we will have to deal with tears and the same lecture again. Poor thing I would love to get her a dog or a cat there are just so many variables right now. My kids grew up with cat and a dog of there own and many strays came and went. So she got it from her mom!
Leg is doing awesome. I am limping around some now on one crutch or sometimes no crutch. I almost went with the boot yesterday but the Dr scared me sufficiently enough that I opted for the safety of the cast for only two more weeks.
I must be getting old..the younger me would have got the boot without hesitation! Damn maybe that's why I feel so gloomy!!
Anyway...Happy Easter everyone. I will be thinking of you all! I know we each have our own unique set of circumstances but what we all have in common is addiction...so no matter where you are at in your recovery!! you are so cool to me!!!
I have another stray animal here. Kearra is famous for that. Now we will have to deal with tears and the same lecture again. Poor thing I would love to get her a dog or a cat there are just so many variables right now. My kids grew up with cat and a dog of there own and many strays came and went. So she got it from her mom!
Leg is doing awesome. I am limping around some now on one crutch or sometimes no crutch. I almost went with the boot yesterday but the Dr scared me sufficiently enough that I opted for the safety of the cast for only two more weeks.
I must be getting old..the younger me would have got the boot without hesitation! Damn maybe that's why I feel so gloomy!!
Anyway...Happy Easter everyone. I will be thinking of you all! I know we each have our own unique set of circumstances but what we all have in common is addiction...so no matter where you are at in your recovery!! you are so cool to me!!!
