Anxiety

Pain Pills
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I have a question about anxiety.Im ove 90 days clean and it seems to me the anxiety is getting wors instead of better? My life is no more stressful than 3 months ago so i just dont understand why now does it seem so strong?Some days(like today)i cant focus,and a part of me says...JUST GO HOME,JUST LEAVE i watch the clock,i really get myself going and i cant stop.I know i have to work,i cant be leaving ,but the more i feel that way,the worse i feel.I need to find some type of tools/ways to calm myself and talk myself through this.Any suggestions? What do you do(for those that do have issues with anxiety)and,how long does it last,i would think it would be over by now?Thanks~KIM
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Hey Kim could it be you may need an antideppresant?
After I wrote that I realized I had more to say,Sorry...
What I mean is the drugs we took had to of changed a part of us.I mean like our Chemical makeup?Could it be that you have depression?Yes I know you said anxious but feeling scattered is a sign of depression also.
How are the meetings going?Did you find a all women group yet???mj
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Kim
I forgot what drug it was you were taking but it could just be post acute withdrawal. Are you drinking a lot of caffiene? I had to cut down to one cup a day for quite a while in the beginning. My nerves were shot but I was also detoxing from benzos along with the opiates. Get some chamomile tea and sit back and relax. It will pass.
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Hi MJ! I really dont feel its depression.Though i did recently refil an old script for wellbutrin that i stopped taking because i didnt feel i needed it.I go worried this second trip around that i may get depressed so i filled it,just in case.But i havent taken it.This feels like full blown anxiet,something ive never had before,i mean i had it the first time i came clean,but it seems stronger this time.Almost unmanagable at times? But it comes and goes,its not constant,im just hoping it will end soon,or at least get less intense.

I have the info on the womens group,i havent gone yet because ive been going to a few different aa groups,im going to another new one tonight.Ive really been enjoying it and learning alot.It feels go to be able to totally relate to others just like me,maybe their storeis are different(and in a lot of cases they are)but the connection is there 100%.Thanks so much for asking MJ,how are things going with you?How are the girls doing? Are you having Thanksgiving at home? I am having it hree at my house,my grandmother wil be coming,my three boys and their GF's and my 2 grandchildren so its going to be a housefull.Im looking forward to it.Hope you have a great one too!~KIM
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12 Stepper,just today while i was feeling so much anxiety i realised i had just gotten done drinking my Starbucks iced coffee,and it did start shortly after that.I would hate to give them up,but that very well could be it and i drink coke as well,so...that probably is a big contributer.Tomorrw i will try the day with out it and see if its any better.Thanks for the advice.I was taking 15 norcos a day,i guess i got to eccept the fact that my body is going to go through alot of changes for awhile.Take care~KIM
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Hey Thank you for asking.Yes we are all good & yup Im cooking dinner & my mom is comming for dessert which is a great first for us.
Now you said you didnt take any of the wellbutrin?I think that takes like 4 weeks to kick in.Is there anyway to talk to your Dr about what you may be able to do.I realize talking to yourself to try to calm down sometimes doesnt always work?As for depression there are alot of different things that happen when you have depression,you dont always HAVE to be depressed.Im going to suggest going to like Web MD & learn as much as you can about what your feeling.It just worried me when you said that at times it gets "THAT BAD"I would hate for something bad to happen to you.Youve put so much of yourselve into your recovery,that is alot of work youve already done.No Id have to say learn as much as you can about the hows & whys your having these feelings.Dont drive yourself batty trying to figure it out,but try & see if there is something you can do to help that feeling...Hey I wanted to make sure I said Happy Turkey day.I hope you have a nice one....mj
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sounds dumb but take an aspirin and down a glass of water. i hope you feel better---
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Thanks alot MJ,i WILL look into it. I know the AD takes time,but for some reason,even back 20 years ago when i know for a fact i was very depressed,i refused to take them,which i guess is kind of stupid,i dont know why i feel that way.I'll have to do some research on it.As far as how bad it gets,its does get bad,like i said,i'll be at work and feel like i just have to get out of there,and yesterday i actually did,said i had to leave.But its not a feeling like...ive got to have a pill to calm down(becasue my husband has klonodine for his restless leg syndrome)and i KNOW i could take one of them FOR anxiety,but i would NEVER EVER touch them.Mostly becasue of the horror stories ive read,and with my pain pill addiction,i would find myself right back where i was only in an even worse spot.I appreciate your concern really,i just want to reassure you using has not crossed my mind over this anxiety issue,thank god,if i had those feelings on top of these,wow,i probably would use.

It sounds like youre going to have a nice turkey day yourself,enjoy your day with your family.Thanks for always replying to me,it means alot to me.~KIM
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Kim, yes you may need and A/D. Also, I once recommended to another that they take one dramamine and it does help to calm one down. I have used dramamine myself when times were rough and they helped me immensly. Take Care...
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Gidgit,do you really think the dramamine will work? It doesnt make you jittery at all?Thats something you can buy right over the counter right? I would like to give it a try,that just might work,thanks for the info~KIM
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Kim, I recommended this to Wendy a month or so back and it worked like a charm. Yes, you can buy it over the counter and it is not habit forming.
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You are my savior,i am buying some today,maybe tomorrow i will make that huge dinner,enjoy my family and actually be able to do it without feeling like im jumping out of my skin,thanks so much!~KIM
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You are welcome. Happy Thanksgiving.
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Funny this topic is up...just yesterday one of my daughter's friends stopped by my work. He's got 210 days clean..and is suffering greatly from anxiety. I too told him he may need medication. He said he feels weak to HAVE TO take medication. I feel so sorry for people with this condition because they not only feel terrible they feel ashamed to have to take medication..such a stigma attached. I will pass on the draminine info to him..hopefully it will help him. He's a young kid, 23, and struggling to keep his sobriey. I'd hate to see anxiety ruin anyone's chances. It's so unfair.
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Dear Kim I needed to say something to you because of what you wrote.You were saying about how even 20 years ago you didnt want to take them,It has taken me a very long time to come to terms with my depression.I always felt as if having depression makes me a weak person.Why is there such shame that comes with mental illness?I think that for that reason alot of folks wont admit 7 get help or take their meds.Even now its kinda hard for me to accept but than Ill think back to everything Ive been through & I realize I am not a weak woman.I just have a mental illness,that if I let it it would take over my life.
Also beings I care for you I just want to say please be careful taking dramamine or anything else right now.If by chance you have a chemical imbalance you could be doing more harm than good so please just be careful.Let me know how you make out...mj
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Kim,

I take Paxil for anixety. It is in the antidepresant faimly it also works on anixety. You may want to ask your doctor about it,

Lovebird
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Kim,

I wouldn't take any anti depres. meds just yet. Perhaps you have a vitamin deficiency. It might be a lack of B vitamins. The opiates really hammer your systems ability neutralize protiens and the neural transmitters in your brain. Try taking some B complex vitamins and brach chain amino acids. Also, you may need to stop the starbucks for a while. The vitamins are much easier on your brain than those stupid anti depresant drugs. I have a buddy on zoloft and he's a freakin' zobbie half the time. He can't even have sex with his wife... That stuff is just bad news.
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bikeman While I agree that our addictions really use up our bodies & I think she should talk to her Dr I do need to say that for some(myself)antidees help me live a more normal life than when I didnt use them.I suppose its like any thing else it will effect different people in different ways.For some it the only type of"normal"theyve known...mj
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Molly,

I am so sorry. I didn't mean to generalize Antidpres. meds that way. You are very right, some folks have benifited from them. I just have some friends that are not themselves anymore due to their use or perhaps abuse. Who knows. I have chosen the natural/spirtual way to clear my mind. I guess after my addiction to Lortabs I have a bias towards any prescription pills.
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Just so you know I totally respect your point of view also.Like I said its like anything else its different for each person.I can understand you saying that because Ive seen that too but I had to make sure I put up the other point of view too.I hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving filled with lots of good food & love.Take Care...mj