Anybody Here?

thank you Danielle
after all those replies from different people I do feel better, cause we all relate to each other in one way or another, and yes you are right, people who have strong will can do any thing..
FarStars, how are you feeling today?

I just got up (worked last night and went to bed about 5am) and have to go to my day job... but it's so cold I don't want to leave the house!
do you have insomnia Danielle, staying till 5 am..well I do too sometimes, when I'm sad I dont eat or sleep, which make me hate to go to work.. but I do feel better today
I would love to use the messenger to talk to you all, but I need to buy a new computer cause the old one is died and I'm using the one at work, and here we are not allowed to chat.
I work at night as well as having a day job, so that's why I was up so late last night....

But, yes, I do have insomnia..... I have it so bad that I really don't sleep AT ALL unless I take my ambien. Even if I worked all night and have been up for 24hrs by the time I go to bed, I still just toss and turn.... I'm sure 50% of it is due to the pain pills, but I had insomnia before I got hooked on these things, so it's not entirely because of those... I'm a worrywart.... I lie there and worry about EVERYTHING. I have horrible nightmares and I also have a condition called "sleep paralysis" which makes me scared to fall asleep (this I am convinced is 100% due to the pain pills... what happens is my mind wakes up before my body does... I can't move a muscle, I'm literally paralyzed from the neck down, for about 30 seconds). So I like Ambien because it puts me to sleep and doesn't give me a "hangover" effect the next day...

I don't really do instant messenger because I'll have 5 people trying to talk to me at once, so these posts are better for me anyway....but I'm almost always around, so if you ever need to talk, just post to me... or you can email me at danni80419@aol.com
Sorry