I just saw the post you made to me on the other prescription drugs forum, and just in case you don't happen to see it I wanted to reiterate the fact that you should keep your mouth shut if you don't know someones story, and not make assumptions that are not true, especially when the thread was addressed to a specific person-NOT YOU! So get your facts straight before you start acting like you know everything!!!
By the way Kiwirain, I have discovered that the majority of the posts you make are negative and rude, you should really seek professional help for this anger issue you have. Just because your clean does not make it okay for you to put other people down, and act like you know more than everyone else.
Hey Stardust:
Ouch hehe.
How are you lately? Great, I hope. Dont sweat ugly posts. Just shake your head and pity whatever fools may think. You know you... that is all that matters. Some people are just nasty people (not assuming you are Kiwi, I dont know you) and those people are to be tolerated or ignored. Take it from someone who knows. Ha!
Some people have to bash and beat on others to make themselves feel better. Especially sick people. Consider them worse off than you and love them a little more.
Remember... the only reason a person would hate you, whom you have never wronged, is because they want to be just like you. So, with that said, dont let it bother you. It is there problem to harbor, not yours. :)
Talk to you later!
Ouch hehe.
How are you lately? Great, I hope. Dont sweat ugly posts. Just shake your head and pity whatever fools may think. You know you... that is all that matters. Some people are just nasty people (not assuming you are Kiwi, I dont know you) and those people are to be tolerated or ignored. Take it from someone who knows. Ha!
Some people have to bash and beat on others to make themselves feel better. Especially sick people. Consider them worse off than you and love them a little more.
Remember... the only reason a person would hate you, whom you have never wronged, is because they want to be just like you. So, with that said, dont let it bother you. It is there problem to harbor, not yours. :)
Talk to you later!
Hey Mrs-thanks for the advice. I normally would just ignore a negative post like that, but when someone is accusing you of things that are nowhere near true, and assuming things, I had to clarify. I am doing good. I am on day 7 without pain pills, and I still have hard times, but I am getting through! How are you today?
star,
dont sweat it, you been around enough that we have read where your coming from and understand whats up. i know how it is when someone tries to twist your words to mean something else. anyone with half a brain can see right through that. you dont have to justify yourself to no one.
did you find a new meeting yet? hows that going? i know in your area there is probably alot of ponticrack meetings. i couldnt find any meetings in my area except ponticrack or waterford. it resulted in a huanting nightmare for me. what area were yu attending?
terrianne
dont sweat it, you been around enough that we have read where your coming from and understand whats up. i know how it is when someone tries to twist your words to mean something else. anyone with half a brain can see right through that. you dont have to justify yourself to no one.
did you find a new meeting yet? hows that going? i know in your area there is probably alot of ponticrack meetings. i couldnt find any meetings in my area except ponticrack or waterford. it resulted in a huanting nightmare for me. what area were yu attending?
terrianne
I just wanted to jump in here and say hello to everyone.
Don't sweat Kiwi, I didn't read his post to you but I know his style. Sometimes he really means well but it doesn't seem that way. I remember when I first joined this board about 6 months ago, I used to get so mad at him. If you read back through some old posts of mine you will see me going off on him for what he says to others. Then there have been other times I have read his posts to people and he has been right on about them. So don't worry about it, his approach comes across harsh at times. Deep down we all know Kiwi is a softy that needs a big fat hug:-) So just scrool past his posts if they rub you the wrong way!
Hope you are feeling better.. Congrats on Day # 7 that is awesome. Rae
Don't sweat Kiwi, I didn't read his post to you but I know his style. Sometimes he really means well but it doesn't seem that way. I remember when I first joined this board about 6 months ago, I used to get so mad at him. If you read back through some old posts of mine you will see me going off on him for what he says to others. Then there have been other times I have read his posts to people and he has been right on about them. So don't worry about it, his approach comes across harsh at times. Deep down we all know Kiwi is a softy that needs a big fat hug:-) So just scrool past his posts if they rub you the wrong way!
Hope you are feeling better.. Congrats on Day # 7 that is awesome. Rae
Hi Terianne-thanks for the kind words of understanding. I am doing ok, still trying to get through the W/D's which are mostly over. I have attended meetings in Troy and West Bloomfield. I like the one in WB, it is just far for me. I think I am going to try going to other ones when I start to feel better. For now, I am sticking with something close to me. If you have any suggestions I would greatly appreciate it though as to where to go. I just had a really wierd experience at a Woman's meeting not too long ago in Troy. They didn't like when I said I was an "addict" instead of alcoholic and told me if I was uncomfortable with saying, that I needed to find another meeting. I understand where they were coming from with that, but it was a wierd experience to have at me first meeting at with that particular group. I just felt like they were not very welcome. I think I am will try an NA meeting around here. How are things with you? Can you believe this is May and it is so cold!!
Thanks Rae- I will do exactly that from now on (scroll past), it is just frustrating when I am still struggling so early in my recovery to be attacked like that. Thanks for the explanation though. I hope everything is going well for you.
By the way-all these posts in response to what I said reminded me of why I come here in the first place for support. I really appreciate your comments.
7 days is AWESOME! Great, in fact.
Hun, I know you have been around long enough to see how I am treated by a particular group, though I still come here with my head held high and refuse to play into the little games. Why? Because I am wanted and needed here and it has been proven on countless occasions, despite the evil pleaded from others for me to go away.
I WISH someone would have been there for me to teach me what I was getting into before I became an addict. I am out to save as many souls from the hell I lived through as I possibly can in a lifetime.
Never feel as if you have to justify yourself to anyone here. I certainly dont. Out of bitterness, I am accused of being everything from a wannabe addict (who in gods name would want to pretent to be an addict, that thought alone tells you where some people's heads are) to being a straight out liar. Never once have I tried to justify or reason with such people. Nor will I. My maturity is far beyond the likes of such.
Laugh it off and move on past the post. Some live to jerk chains, never give anyone the power to alter your mood or feelings in the least. Noone deserves that much control over you.
I got ya back. Know that.
Hun, I know you have been around long enough to see how I am treated by a particular group, though I still come here with my head held high and refuse to play into the little games. Why? Because I am wanted and needed here and it has been proven on countless occasions, despite the evil pleaded from others for me to go away.
I WISH someone would have been there for me to teach me what I was getting into before I became an addict. I am out to save as many souls from the hell I lived through as I possibly can in a lifetime.
Never feel as if you have to justify yourself to anyone here. I certainly dont. Out of bitterness, I am accused of being everything from a wannabe addict (who in gods name would want to pretent to be an addict, that thought alone tells you where some people's heads are) to being a straight out liar. Never once have I tried to justify or reason with such people. Nor will I. My maturity is far beyond the likes of such.
Laugh it off and move on past the post. Some live to jerk chains, never give anyone the power to alter your mood or feelings in the least. Noone deserves that much control over you.
I got ya back. Know that.
star,
i know, one day i have on a sundress ands the next day its a sweater!!! i'm not liking that. i went to a walled lake meeting when i went. i heard west bloomfield and birmingham meetings were good ones to attend. but definately please take my advise and stick with womans meetings and daytime ones if its possable. yeah i hear a/a has a "thing" about keeping it all alcohol related. but they welcome all addictions its just something about having to stick to some rules and by laws written back in the days of bill w. i dont really know and get into all of the poloitics of it. and you really dont wanna get me started on all of that !!!! besides for which i wouldnt openly here on this public forum out of respect for the people who attend and have had great success and lives have been spared through the programs and for that alone i commend the whole process.
terrianne
i know, one day i have on a sundress ands the next day its a sweater!!! i'm not liking that. i went to a walled lake meeting when i went. i heard west bloomfield and birmingham meetings were good ones to attend. but definately please take my advise and stick with womans meetings and daytime ones if its possable. yeah i hear a/a has a "thing" about keeping it all alcohol related. but they welcome all addictions its just something about having to stick to some rules and by laws written back in the days of bill w. i dont really know and get into all of the poloitics of it. and you really dont wanna get me started on all of that !!!! besides for which i wouldnt openly here on this public forum out of respect for the people who attend and have had great success and lives have been spared through the programs and for that alone i commend the whole process.
terrianne
Thanks again for your advice. How are things going without the xanax? That is my next battle I need to fight. I wish so much that I wold have researched the anxiety meds my Dr put me on before starting to take them.
Terianne- I guess it might be worth it to continue driving the 30mins to the meetings. It just seems like there has to be decent ones closer. I guess I have plenty of time to try out different ones!
On another note-I am so ready for it to warm up again! This weather is just not right!
On another note-I am so ready for it to warm up again! This weather is just not right!
I cant remember the last time I took any so really good. I am scared to death of the stuff. I have hundreds of 'bars" but I am prescibed .5 mils on an 'as needed bases". As needed to me is one step away from calling 911 because my techniques arent working.
I wish I could practice my techniques without an attack but unfortunately, you have to have an attack to practice getting through it.... er!
Where are you these days? Still at 6 mils? Did you look at the taper schedule at www.benzos.org?
I wish I could practice my techniques without an attack but unfortunately, you have to have an attack to practice getting through it.... er!
Where are you these days? Still at 6 mils? Did you look at the taper schedule at www.benzos.org?
star,
how much xanax are yu taking and how often, i used to take tat as well, i found when i quite taking it my anxiety was next to nil. xanax actually creates more anxiety. i tapered off mine with phenebarbitol in 5 days through a detox dr. i took lots prolly close to 9 milligrams a day
terrianne
how much xanax are yu taking and how often, i used to take tat as well, i found when i quite taking it my anxiety was next to nil. xanax actually creates more anxiety. i tapered off mine with phenebarbitol in 5 days through a detox dr. i took lots prolly close to 9 milligrams a day
terrianne
Hey Star- I read the posts and I just wanted to say- Good For You on being 7 days clean. That is Huge and I admire you for your determination! I'm sorry you are having some negative and ugly posts. Don't forget how great you are doing and how much we all love and support you here. Keep on truckin.....we love you!
I have never taken more than 3mgs in a day. I am not taking anymore than 1.5 at night as needed now. That is good that you are doing so well without them. I did check out that website-thanks it was very informative. I am trying to practice alternative methods when I feel my anxiety coming on such as breathing or taking a walk. It is going to be a battle, but I really feel ready to fight!
Mrs- I was taking alot more than 2 lortabs a day when I was using. I am definetely trying to take the xanax only as needed, and deal with the anxiety the best I can during the day. At night and in the early morning is when my anxiety is at it's peak. I know what you mean about the heart beating and breathing. I have gone to the ER so many times thinking I was having a heart attack because of anxiety.
The biggest thing for me during an attack is I am too aware of my breathing and heart rate, which in turn makes the panic more intense.
You are doing yourself a huge favor by only taking what you need. It will help you immensely when you begin your taper.
You take just two lortabs daily? Or am I confusing you with another?
You are doing yourself a huge favor by only taking what you need. It will help you immensely when you begin your taper.
You take just two lortabs daily? Or am I confusing you with another?
Terianne-Iposted above, I am at 1.5mgs at night, trying to cut down gradually. I know your right about it creating anxiety. I really feel like my anxiety got so much worse when my Dr. originally put me on the xanax, zoloft and clonopin. I wish I would have made the choice to use alternative methods. So do you still get anxiety often?
