Hello from UK
I am now quit from pot, officially. Today i threw away HUGE ammounts and it feels like a bereavement.
I am going to say goodbye to those parts of me and all those things associated with it. I am now 33, have smoked most days since 17 yrs old and i HVAE HAD ENOUGH.
and everyhting after - you are still quit. Is August west still posting here? (hello if you are)
I am prepared for the onslaught to come. I know the first few days and weeks will be relatively 'easy' and that the hard parts will probably come later on.
I just want to wish everyone the best of luck to stay off this most despicable, trecherous drug.
Today i have finally seen the light.
For the last 1.5 years, i have been cutting down, from daily to 6, then 5 days, to 4, then 3 days a week to recently only weekends. Gues what??
It doesn't work. You cAnnot 'cut down', you end up thinking about pot/smoking constantly. When i did have it, i felt guilty, got paranoid, had horrible thoughts, didn';t enjoy it. When i was not having it (thro the week, 5 days) i was wanting it/plannning it/thinking about it ALL DAY.
It takes over your life, ruins your motivations for eveything else except it. I absolutely hate it.
I am a mother. Pot makes you grumpy, irritable, rude, selfish, lazy. I do not wish that on my little ones any longer, even if they never, ever saw me do it.
sorry if the tone of this is strong, but i am revelling in my new-found utter hatred of that stuff.
Any comments welcome.
Take care you all,
smokefree
And the number one reason to STOP.....
*******It doesn't work. You cAnnot 'cut down', you end up thinking about pot/smoking constantly. When i did have it, i felt guilty, got paranoid, had horrible thoughts, didn';t enjoy it. When i was not having it (thro the week, 5 days) i was wanting it/plannning it/thinking about it ALL DAY.
It takes over your life, ruins your motivations for eveything else except it. I absolutely hate it.
I am a mother. Pot makes you grumpy, irritable, rude, selfish, lazy. I do not wish that on my little ones any longer, even if they never, ever saw me do it.******
Hi Smokefree 12,
For the next while you will be feeling plenty of emotions, comfortable and uncomfortable. You can do this..... welcome. All emotions are welcome here as well, I find. :-) Or at least now that I've been taught that there are no good or bad emotions just the comfy emotions and the emotions that feel intense.
Peace,
Diana
Hey SF, good for you...it shows a lot of strength that you were able to dispose of your left over product. Many, me included, couldn't do that with it staring us right in the face.
Yeah, there will be some uncomfortable moments ahead. If you're anything like me, insomnia is the first thing you'll notice. I've been trying to sleep for 3 hours now. Up and down, can't sleep, read some, get up and walk around the house, jump on the computer for a few... I'm just not sleepy. About to try a shower... more likely than not, I'll have to suck up a long day of work on very little sleep... but I put myself in this position. Last night, when I was able to sleep, I woke up drenched in sweat, so bad that I had to change clothes. Nope, this is no fun... I even had the thought cross my mind to take a resin hit... but that would be the same as starting all over again... so I'll suffer through the withdrawl, just as I'm sure you are... hang in bro.
J
Yeah, there will be some uncomfortable moments ahead. If you're anything like me, insomnia is the first thing you'll notice. I've been trying to sleep for 3 hours now. Up and down, can't sleep, read some, get up and walk around the house, jump on the computer for a few... I'm just not sleepy. About to try a shower... more likely than not, I'll have to suck up a long day of work on very little sleep... but I put myself in this position. Last night, when I was able to sleep, I woke up drenched in sweat, so bad that I had to change clothes. Nope, this is no fun... I even had the thought cross my mind to take a resin hit... but that would be the same as starting all over again... so I'll suffer through the withdrawl, just as I'm sure you are... hang in bro.
J
Thankyou both from the bottom of my heart. WW, you have great wisdom and your words helped me. This time i have a feeling i am going to do it, it feels different fro the previous attempts.
I have never thrown such huge ammounts away, that felt very, very good!!
I don't know how far down the quit road you are (let me know?) but i wish you all strength too.
I shall reply to more messages and visit this site as often as i can.
Thanks again.
J - i really, really hope you managed to sleep. I have been through that phase previously - it does get better (the ability to sleep, cessation of swaets etc). You can get through it, don;t give into that demon stuff, as like you said, you'd have to start again. Then go through what you are so nearly through again. But no-one can make that decision but you. I shall look out for your posts.
I hope we can all keep focussed and resolved.
I am keeping busy and mindful of all the massive benfits coming to me by quitting. It is NOT a sacrifice, but a huge relief.
Thanks again
all the best
sm12
I have never thrown such huge ammounts away, that felt very, very good!!
I don't know how far down the quit road you are (let me know?) but i wish you all strength too.
I shall reply to more messages and visit this site as often as i can.
Thanks again.
J - i really, really hope you managed to sleep. I have been through that phase previously - it does get better (the ability to sleep, cessation of swaets etc). You can get through it, don;t give into that demon stuff, as like you said, you'd have to start again. Then go through what you are so nearly through again. But no-one can make that decision but you. I shall look out for your posts.
I hope we can all keep focussed and resolved.
I am keeping busy and mindful of all the massive benfits coming to me by quitting. It is NOT a sacrifice, but a huge relief.
Thanks again
all the best
sm12
Hi SF
Nice to see fellow UK smoker here.
Im only about one week off the pot and am having ggod days and bad.
Maybe you know if there is anywhere to get help in UK, meetings etc.
Im 33, a mum too and been smoking a very very long time.
Tried all the tricks, cutting down etc, totally failed, if its in the house i just had to smoke it though like you only when little ones werent around. Not that im claiming my habit didnt have effect on them, im sure it did especially my lethargy and inability to feel motivated sometimes. Ususally too busy looking forward to bedtime so i could make spliff!!!
Keep posting, im pretty new here but i dont think id have done this well without all the support ive got from everybody here.
Lou.x
Nice to see fellow UK smoker here.
Im only about one week off the pot and am having ggod days and bad.
Maybe you know if there is anywhere to get help in UK, meetings etc.
Im 33, a mum too and been smoking a very very long time.
Tried all the tricks, cutting down etc, totally failed, if its in the house i just had to smoke it though like you only when little ones werent around. Not that im claiming my habit didnt have effect on them, im sure it did especially my lethargy and inability to feel motivated sometimes. Ususally too busy looking forward to bedtime so i could make spliff!!!
Keep posting, im pretty new here but i dont think id have done this well without all the support ive got from everybody here.
Lou.x
