Hi All,
As some of you know I went to visit my friend of 27 years. Long story short she left her husband and took her 3 kids (My God Children) to her parents. There was soo much drama that I cut my trip short and came home 2 days early. Her parents are raging alcoholics. Her mother got so drunk every night that she was falling down in the hallway and wetting herself. Every single night I was there cocktail time started at 5:00 and ended with both of them passed out. My best friend and her 3 children have to endure this every night!! F'ing ridiculous!!!
If that isn't aweful enough my friend's older sister had just gotten a DUI 2 nights before I arrived. She was pulled over after she was spotted driving down a sidewalk. She is a xanax addict. So she was just put in detox/treatment. From reading the pill boards I got a bit of an insight into that addiction. She had a list of things she wanted the family to bring to her at the center next week when she can have guests. Well one of the things on her list was her vitamins. I suggested that they look in the vitamin bottles to make sure she didn't have pills in there. Low and behold she had vicodin tablets and xanax pills and ativan pills stashed in the bottom of the vitamin bottles. I know that the staff at the treatment center would have caught that stuff before it went in but that is just a glimpse of the weekend I had.
It was just too much and my own sobriety is worth more. I never had the urge to drink or anything but it was damn hard to see people in active addiction. So I split!
Anyway...It's great to be back to a no drama household! Thanks for letting me vent and stop it from rolling around in my head any longer.
Hope everyone is doing well...gonna go catch up on all the posts I missed for the last few days!
Valarie
Welcome back to the "Light Side," Valarie. Sorry it was so tough on you, but you're sober. THAT COUNTS! It's amazing that the research continues so fervently. I'm sad for your friend--but glad you made it out. Welcome back.
Thanks pal. I guess it's always good to get a reminder of why I quit drinking. It's just damn sad on so many levels.
I am sooooo happy to be home. Sure makes me appreciate the life I have now.
How goes it with you. What did you do all weekend with your SU out?
IM Shane.
I am sooooo happy to be home. Sure makes me appreciate the life I have now.
How goes it with you. What did you do all weekend with your SU out?
IM Shane.
Val, I know how hard that must have been...it's super hard when I go down into the "trenches" like that...I thank God that you shared that with us, it reminds me of what's waiting out there still and that it is still not working out there for alcoholics.....I'm glad your home sober, safe and sane! I too just relish in the no drama, no chaos household that is now my home....what a blessing that is!
Hi Geri,
Yep it was tough. I have been around plenty of drunk people since I got sober but never like this. The drunk people I have been around are the typical social drinkers that drink too much when we are out to dinner or something. Never the falling down mean and nasty type. The type I was.
It was like I was looking in a mirror or something because S used to tell me that I would get really belligerent when I was drunk. I always woke up with unexplained bruises so I assume I fell down alot. It was just so pathetic! It made me have a deeper appreciation for my own sobriety and a more empathetic attitude towards those still struggling to get sober. It was a great reminder for me. I think I have tried to put it all behind me and I really don't dwell on too much of my drinking and drugging past anymore. It's good too go back occasionally just to keep me on track...if that makes sense.
Anyway VeeDub...thanks for reading my rant on this. It was just weighing heavily on my mind and I had to spill it. I got in on the last flight into OC last night and I kept S up really late talking about it. He is a good listener but he still drinks so he couldn't really relate to it on the level that I know all of you would.
Hope you are doing well. Tell Rach hello. I also hope that K sees the light soon my friend. We all come to it eventually right? At least I like to think so anyway. :-)
Yep it was tough. I have been around plenty of drunk people since I got sober but never like this. The drunk people I have been around are the typical social drinkers that drink too much when we are out to dinner or something. Never the falling down mean and nasty type. The type I was.
It was like I was looking in a mirror or something because S used to tell me that I would get really belligerent when I was drunk. I always woke up with unexplained bruises so I assume I fell down alot. It was just so pathetic! It made me have a deeper appreciation for my own sobriety and a more empathetic attitude towards those still struggling to get sober. It was a great reminder for me. I think I have tried to put it all behind me and I really don't dwell on too much of my drinking and drugging past anymore. It's good too go back occasionally just to keep me on track...if that makes sense.
Anyway VeeDub...thanks for reading my rant on this. It was just weighing heavily on my mind and I had to spill it. I got in on the last flight into OC last night and I kept S up really late talking about it. He is a good listener but he still drinks so he couldn't really relate to it on the level that I know all of you would.
Hope you are doing well. Tell Rach hello. I also hope that K sees the light soon my friend. We all come to it eventually right? At least I like to think so anyway. :-)
Valarie, I'm sorry you had such a hard time. Your friend is lucky to have you on her team and right now I'm sitting in a little glow of gratitude that you were here for me when I was spinning like a top in my own maze of mirrors. You didn't lack compassion and insight for me and that turned a key in the lock. You opened my mind to the possibility that I wasn't thinking straight (and because thinking was my ONLY secure place and it felt like my life depended on it you can imagine what it took to turn that key and get me thinking about my thinking....)
Anyway, just wanted to say thanks because I'm back in touch with that realisation and my gratitude for it. Long may it continue. It would be so easy for me to kid myself.
Martin.
Anyway, just wanted to say thanks because I'm back in touch with that realisation and my gratitude for it. Long may it continue. It would be so easy for me to kid myself.
Martin.
Hey Val: welcome back,good to see you again. Too bad your trip was such a disaster but look at it as a reminder of where we alkies came from and how easily we can go back. Makes you feel extra grateful I bet to have what you have now?I think of the poor kids and their mama and what they will have to endure while living there. Hope things work out for them soon. God bless and take care ...((( )))
Yep you said it Pirate! Extra grateful. I don't think I have ever been so grateful. I hope you are having a great day pal.
Thanks Martin and you seriously crack me up. "Got you thinking about thinking"??? LOLOL....I am not sure if you ever posted your picture on the picture thread but I picture you to have those little thought bubbles above your head like they do in cartoons. But I picture you to have like a million of them because you over think things so much! lolol...Have a good day Martin. :-)
Thanks Martin and you seriously crack me up. "Got you thinking about thinking"??? LOLOL....I am not sure if you ever posted your picture on the picture thread but I picture you to have those little thought bubbles above your head like they do in cartoons. But I picture you to have like a million of them because you over think things so much! lolol...Have a good day Martin. :-)
I'm happy your home and away from the self induced insanity. It certainly make a person very thankful that they found their way back to the living. I do feel bad for those kids, your friend and the parents who are still in denial.
What's so sad is she left her husband from his alcoholism and is now in a similar environment. At least I think thats what you said. That she and the kids aren't in physical harms way. I will say a prayer for them.
Glad your back home and safe with your SU. Miss your ESH when your gone.
Have a good sober day Val.
What's so sad is she left her husband from his alcoholism and is now in a similar environment. At least I think thats what you said. That she and the kids aren't in physical harms way. I will say a prayer for them.
Glad your back home and safe with your SU. Miss your ESH when your gone.
Have a good sober day Val.
Hi Val, welcome home.
Hey Valarie, just thought I'd drop into your thread and say hi! Good to see you round, your presence always makes me smile!
Izzy !
Izzy !
There's a picture thread?
I'm the one in the bath covered in bubbles and with a puzzled look on my face....like I've found the soap somewhere it shouldn't be. .....
I'm the one in the bath covered in bubbles and with a puzzled look on my face....like I've found the soap somewhere it shouldn't be. .....
Chris, Kat, Izzy and M....thanks for the replies. I am finally back to my normal self after a couple of days. It's amazing how that stuff sticks with ya. Like I said it was a good wake up call and reminder for me of where I do not want to be.
It's great to be back! :-)
It's great to be back! :-)
Welcome home my soul sister! I missed you.
I am sorry you're weekend was difficult. Cunning, baffling, powerful, huh? Glad you are putting the weekend behind you and appreciating your beautiful, sober life.
Again, welcome back.
Hugs.
I am sorry you're weekend was difficult. Cunning, baffling, powerful, huh? Glad you are putting the weekend behind you and appreciating your beautiful, sober life.
Again, welcome back.
Hugs.
Hey Zip,
Glad to be home and back to the land of calm! How are you doing girlfriend?
Glad to be home and back to the land of calm! How are you doing girlfriend?
Valerie...YGM! :)
Oh Val,
Do you think the picture thread needs a bump for Martin? I for one would like to see him in a bubble bath. Of course the soap must stay hidden.
Plus there are some faces missing on that thread. Like Lacey, Stacey, Ms. Katbird, Cookster, Zac and that little pony. I feel like I'm missing someone. Am I? Sorry if I am. What do you think?
Do you think the picture thread needs a bump for Martin? I for one would like to see him in a bubble bath. Of course the soap must stay hidden.
Plus there are some faces missing on that thread. Like Lacey, Stacey, Ms. Katbird, Cookster, Zac and that little pony. I feel like I'm missing someone. Am I? Sorry if I am. What do you think?
You said it cybersister! If you can find it bump it. There is a really old pic thread from a year or so ago that has most of us on it.
Zip....back at ya YGM
Zip....back at ya YGM
Thanks Val,
It's fun to see some old and new faces.
Crap I feel horrible as I forgot we don't have a picture of our sweet Izzy. I knew this AM I was missing something, someone. My brain. Forgive me dear. And any body else I didn't mention.
It's fun to see some old and new faces.
Crap I feel horrible as I forgot we don't have a picture of our sweet Izzy. I knew this AM I was missing something, someone. My brain. Forgive me dear. And any body else I didn't mention.
Hey would somebody tell me what all the abbreviations mean. etc. BFF,BTW,YGM. another time I would not have asked because of fear of looking stupid but hey I am learning the only stupid people are the ones who don't ask questions. Then again I am also learning to be honest LOL
