I am the mum of a 25 year old son who is back on heroin after being clean for 9 months with the help of the neltrixone implant. Worked great till it wore off recently. I don't know if i can go through this again, in fact am i only pronlonging his death. What I can't understand is why he had to do it again after being clean for so long. Can anyone in here give me an insight to my delema.
I had 3 sons, lost 2 to heroin in 1999 six weeks apart. This one is my only child, how else can I help him.
Marie
Before I go any furthure please let me offer my deepest sympathy for your loses. I also need to take this time to tell you what an honor it is to post to such a strong mother. There exists no greater being than a mother! Your wings are endless and no matter how heavy they get....you still fly like the angels you are!
My name is Darin and I am a recovering heroin addict of 6yrs. I know you feel hopless or maybe even responsible but please know that this is not your burden to bare and not your fault. You have done all you could do.....the choice is up to the addict. For me I couldn't see my mom's pain or how I was killing myself. The tears, fears,or yelling didn't mean ~~~~until I faced my reality. Tell him to GIVE HIMSELF A CHANCE.....THAT HIS LIFE MATTERS NOW MORE THAN EVER! In my opinion, addiction boils down to choice and only your son can do that at this point. It's going to be hard for him to stay clean if he is not changing his behaviors and doing things different. Does he talk to you? Is he willing to try treatment again? Does he have any kind of a support network? Would he be willing to come here to talk to folk who share his pain?
Above all, consider the one that matters most....YOU! All the best to you!
Darin
My name is Darin and I am a recovering heroin addict of 6yrs. I know you feel hopless or maybe even responsible but please know that this is not your burden to bare and not your fault. You have done all you could do.....the choice is up to the addict. For me I couldn't see my mom's pain or how I was killing myself. The tears, fears,or yelling didn't mean ~~~~until I faced my reality. Tell him to GIVE HIMSELF A CHANCE.....THAT HIS LIFE MATTERS NOW MORE THAN EVER! In my opinion, addiction boils down to choice and only your son can do that at this point. It's going to be hard for him to stay clean if he is not changing his behaviors and doing things different. Does he talk to you? Is he willing to try treatment again? Does he have any kind of a support network? Would he be willing to come here to talk to folk who share his pain?
Above all, consider the one that matters most....YOU! All the best to you!
Darin
I was a recovering heroin addict for about six years. I started hanging around with a guy who was also recovering. He on the other hend was not clen as long as I. Unfortunatly he had a connection for smack ouy here. I probably should mention that I managed to move across country just to get away from it. He was very pursuasive. Next thing i know, I'm shooting up just as much as I was doing it before. Now I'm faced with trhe brutal truth, that if I don't stop immidiatly, I am going to lose my girlfriend who I love more than life in it self. I know it;s going to suck realy bad, because I'm going to have to do it without the help of the methadone clinic. Cold turkey! Damn is it going to be hard. But i can honestly say that I would rather go through a couple days of pain, than the rest of my life kicking myself in the a** for losing my girl, and everything else that love in my life. If anyone who reads this can tell me a website with a chat room, that has other people in my position, that I can talk to please let me know.
..Maza..
..I to would like to offer my deepest sympathies to you..As well as wot darin has said..Maybe you will find some support as a mother on the partners and families of addicts board.!!..Thats the power of the drug maza..it follows us wherever we go...thats why its hard to stay of it..some find their recovery easier than others..we all live different lives with different emotions..Addiction is a disease..and some fight so hard to beat the disease but it just gets the better of them at times..i hope your son finds the strength in himself to get free of his addiction and you all can live in peace from it..Robbie..
..I to would like to offer my deepest sympathies to you..As well as wot darin has said..Maybe you will find some support as a mother on the partners and families of addicts board.!!..Thats the power of the drug maza..it follows us wherever we go...thats why its hard to stay of it..some find their recovery easier than others..we all live different lives with different emotions..Addiction is a disease..and some fight so hard to beat the disease but it just gets the better of them at times..i hope your son finds the strength in himself to get free of his addiction and you all can live in peace from it..Robbie..
Real sorry to hear about your plight. Im five years in recovery and now have 13 month old son myself, couldnt imagine what it would be like to be in your sitch but i guess i put my mother throught the same deal. So sorry hey!
Just stay strong and hopefully your son will be willing to go through another programme. I know its aweful ( or must be ) for you but unless he is willing to do it for himself no one can do thisfor him.
its funny coz you dont really realise how your own actions ie drug use and addiction is affecting others especially your family until like me Ive had my own. It really puts things into perspective but stay strong and I hope for your sons sake and yours he does get clean and is able to lead a semi normal life where he can be proud of himself and achieve all his hopes and dreams.
xoxoxox
Just stay strong and hopefully your son will be willing to go through another programme. I know its aweful ( or must be ) for you but unless he is willing to do it for himself no one can do thisfor him.
its funny coz you dont really realise how your own actions ie drug use and addiction is affecting others especially your family until like me Ive had my own. It really puts things into perspective but stay strong and I hope for your sons sake and yours he does get clean and is able to lead a semi normal life where he can be proud of himself and achieve all his hopes and dreams.
xoxoxox
