Why, why, why did I score??? Eight weeks clean using sub then for some reason I managed to talk myself into a "wee treat".
Who is that person in my head called addiction?
F*** back to square one again. It's funny, in my game of snakes and ladders I have wraps of smack for snakes.
Anywhooo, tomorrow is day 2 and thats got to be better than day 1.
Stay safe people.
Been there honey, thought of doing it yesterday and didn't, think of doing it every day actually. It gets better with time, but everytime I want to score I remind myself of what it's like being sick, and I can talk myself out of it. You had eight weeks clean and used once, so whats going to be messing with you right now is your head. Make the dope your enemy. It wants to control you, wants to break our will, wants to strip you of everything you love and wants to take your life away, dont let it win!!! Tomorrow is another day, and another day sober. You messed up, so what now? Pick yourself up and don't look backward. Yesterday is not around the corner waiting for you, only tomorrow is. Live it with a clear mind, live it in control of yourself!
Good luck, you will be in my prayers.
Good luck, you will be in my prayers.
I was shooting for nearly 3 years, been clean 11 months and still have cravings. Not to long ago last week I was so close to getting some. It happens "we move on" don't keep it up. One day at a time is all anyone has.
I can totally relate to you. You have done really well. and you will continue to do so. I am on methadone, and thought I had done well because I had not used for 1 week, but I thought yeah, it won't hurt it will be just the once etc. and I had a go wednesday and thursday. Well, it is Friday today, I just hope that I can stay away from it today.
GOOD LUCK
GOOD LUCK
bin clean for two years amd i still get the cravings. just try and remember why it is your getting clean and what it feels like when your ratting. the aches and pains, spewing your guts up, your arse falling out as your bowels get back to normal and days without a real sleep. those cravings will always be there, although they do get weaker.you have to learn to be stronger than they are and not let them beat you. at the end of the day its a fight.allbeit an inner fight. if you were fighting would you just lay back and let the opponent beat you? i hope you would'nt. i hope you would fight it with every bit of strength you have inside you untill the opponent pissed off and left you alone. because the cravings do eventually go if you fight it. then before you know it your going weeks without having one and you get stronger and better at fighting it.you need to find something constructive that you enjoy to fill your time. for me the cravings tend to come when i'm bored with too much time on my hands. i started body building and martial arts and when i got a craving i would go down the gym or read up. body building and martial arts are good as they teach you self control and give you that self confidence back which takes a battering when you've been on heroin. i feel like i'm preaching now so i'll end. thats what worked for me. find what works for you. keep on fighting and dont let it beat you. i wish you all the best. P.M.A. (POSATIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE)
