Yep, been at it again, I feel so ashamed of myself. My family and I just found out that my dad has lymphoma cancer, this is his second time having cancer, last time it was lung, now this. I got really drunk the other night, thinking this is how I"ll deal with the news today. I know I don't want to go back to this nightmare again, just seemed the easy way to get this horror show out of my mind. Anyway, got to get back on track, just thought I would share where I am today.
Big Hugs
lovedove
Big hugs Love-dove -
I lost my brother at his age of 40 to lymphoma cancer. "Great" Fred Hutchinson Cancer Center / Hospital in Seattle Washington.
I'm 5 years younger sister.....Miss him so to this day.... which I used to continue my drinking. I'm still drinking. I thought drinks would help....I keep drinking and its not helping.
You sound like you know better, so get back on to it and help the family. They can't lean on you if your not there (drunk). In respect of your father. Who may need you now.
Hugs, Chance
I lost my brother at his age of 40 to lymphoma cancer. "Great" Fred Hutchinson Cancer Center / Hospital in Seattle Washington.
I'm 5 years younger sister.....Miss him so to this day.... which I used to continue my drinking. I'm still drinking. I thought drinks would help....I keep drinking and its not helping.
You sound like you know better, so get back on to it and help the family. They can't lean on you if your not there (drunk). In respect of your father. Who may need you now.
Hugs, Chance
Hi there Chance, thank-you for taking the time to reply. I do know better, I think it was just a melt down, but it scared me, the last time my dad got sick, I was a complete mess, but I know I didn't help myself or my family as much as I could have, so this time around I really do want to stay sober and strong for everyone.
And I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your brother to cancer it is such a devastating disease I am also on the West Coast, Vancouver B.C. Canada and there is a great team of cancer specialist here so I'm praying, that's all I can do.
Big Hugs to you Chance
lovedove
And I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your brother to cancer it is such a devastating disease I am also on the West Coast, Vancouver B.C. Canada and there is a great team of cancer specialist here so I'm praying, that's all I can do.
Big Hugs to you Chance
lovedove
love-dove
SOOOOO sorry to hear about your dad, that is a very tough one.
don't beat yourself up too bad about your slip. Just let it be a slip, jump straight back into your recovery and keep moving forward. You know deep down drinking won't help you deal with this problem it will only make it worse. So don't punish yourself about it just take a deep breath and pick yourself up and move forward.
You can be that strong, reliable person your Dad is depending on right now and think how good it will feel to know you can be there for him at this time and for all your family.
take care of you
Idgie
SOOOOO sorry to hear about your dad, that is a very tough one.
don't beat yourself up too bad about your slip. Just let it be a slip, jump straight back into your recovery and keep moving forward. You know deep down drinking won't help you deal with this problem it will only make it worse. So don't punish yourself about it just take a deep breath and pick yourself up and move forward.
You can be that strong, reliable person your Dad is depending on right now and think how good it will feel to know you can be there for him at this time and for all your family.
take care of you
Idgie
So sorry to hear about your Father LD. Just start over again...you can't be of service to your family if you continue to drink. I anethesized to numb the emotional pain, but it was still there when I came to, and usually the pain was worse!
I'm sorry about your dad... I lost my dad when I was 23 and my oldest brother just a few months later... that might have been the beginning of my self-medication stints. But I think the best thing you can do for both your dad and yourself is to stay strong...even though I'm not really the best at that... but don't be too hard on yourself...
Hi everyone, thank-you so much for your support. Yep it's a toughie all right, but you gals are absolutely 100% about the drinking only making it worse, I am thankful that I realize that, I haven't touched any alcohol now for 7 days, so I'm praying that I will stay strong. I'm letting go and letting God. I've phoned about getting some councelling so I'll go from there.
Thanks again, your support really means alot to me.
Big Hugs to you All
lovedove
Thanks again, your support really means alot to me.
Big Hugs to you All
lovedove
How'd your Friday night go LD? I'm off to a surf contest down in Oceanside, CA ~ my daughter is surfing in the State Finals in the Longboard division. So nice to up early w/o a hangover....usually I partied it out every Friday night and was waaaaaaaaaaaaaay hungover on Saturdays. Hope you are doing good and that you are sober!
Hi VWGirl! My Friday night was a sober one!!! :) I definetely do not miss the hangovers! I had forgotten how terrible they really are, I feel good today, I have to work this morning and it feels good to go in with a clear head! Thanks for asking about me hun. Hope you had fun last night!
I'm going shopping after work today, need some summer clothes!
Big Hugs
lovedove
I'm going shopping after work today, need some summer clothes!
Big Hugs
lovedove
