Hi everyone,
I joined the board yesterday and posted that I was 5 months clean. Well I lied. I had taken prescribed darvocet from my doc for bad tendinitis this week and followed the directions for the first few days. Then of course, I had to take 3 at a time. I asked the doc for a non narcotic pain reliever. She called me the next day and said she'd call in Darvocett. I said is that ok? She said yes. Now who the hell am I trying to fool here. I knew those darn pills were a narcotic....did I call my sponsor and tell her I was taking them? No. Did I tell my hubby? No. Did I hide them and have 3 in my pocket? Yes. Did I try to get a refill? Yes. But by the grace of God or whoever or whatever, the script would not be refilled. I told my sponsor this am and went to my 10:30am meeting where I introduced myself as a person in her first 30 days of sobriety. Boy, as soon as I told my hubby, sponsor and meeting, a weight was lifted. I then went to my sponsor's house and we read the 3rd step in the 12X12. It was like the little devil on one shouldur and the angel on the other last week. Sheez!
Well it could've been a lot worse. I feel that I have learned a lot from this and I know that this disease has the upper hand on me. I thought I could take those pills by myself, stinkin thinkin.
So now I am on day one of my sobriety and thankful to be here and thankful that my relapse wasn't REALLY crazy. I am so thankful that I came back.
So I am very sorry for posting my being clean for 5 months...I was until this past week. Day one...here I am!
Thank you for letting me share this,
Pam
Pam....you're a brave, honest woman. Everyone falls backwards in life sometimes..EVERYONE. You're going to start over and do just fine because you can no longer lie to yourself or others. Good for you.
Dear Pam,
I am new to this board, but wanted to congratulate yourself on your honesty and encourage you. Consider it as a small bump on the road. You stopped it in time ( or it was stopped by your higher power ) and have learned from the incident. Your right it could hqave been worse.
You are always very kind to others on this board ( from what i have read lately) so be kind to yourself and forgive yourself.
When you know better..you do better.
Love,
Ali
I am new to this board, but wanted to congratulate yourself on your honesty and encourage you. Consider it as a small bump on the road. You stopped it in time ( or it was stopped by your higher power ) and have learned from the incident. Your right it could hqave been worse.
You are always very kind to others on this board ( from what i have read lately) so be kind to yourself and forgive yourself.
When you know better..you do better.
Love,
Ali
sobriety takes practice
just like becoming addicted did.
Kudos to you for speaking up RIGHT AWAY.. instead of 6 months from now when you would be completely physically addicted all over again.
The pills will always sound good to you no matter how much sober time you have.
Be ready for that. And know that you are not less of a person just because of this.
Good luck to you.
Keep talking.... that is the best help you can get.
just like becoming addicted did.
Kudos to you for speaking up RIGHT AWAY.. instead of 6 months from now when you would be completely physically addicted all over again.
The pills will always sound good to you no matter how much sober time you have.
Be ready for that. And know that you are not less of a person just because of this.
Good luck to you.
Keep talking.... that is the best help you can get.
shewolfe, ali and heartache,
Thank you
hugs
Pam
Thank you
hugs
Pam
Pam:
Your rigorous honesty is an inspiration! Thanks for sharing and keep coming back.
Rachel
Pam, honesty is the key to recovery. Just take baby steps and you will get there. I will be here for you anytime. You will make it honey.
By the way, could you address yourself by another name than Pam, that is my name and this could get real confusing here, if you know what I mean. Take Care and keep on posting and getting the truth out.
By the way, could you address yourself by another name than Pam, that is my name and this could get real confusing here, if you know what I mean. Take Care and keep on posting and getting the truth out.
Hey Pam,
Thank you for the kind words.
I'll go by P2......(Pam # 2)
That work? I know...2 Pams could get confusing.
Thx,
Hugs,
P2
Thank you for the kind words.
I'll go by P2......(Pam # 2)
That work? I know...2 Pams could get confusing.
Thx,
Hugs,
P2
Thanks P2, you don't want to get confused with me. Trust me...
I get into tooo much trouble around here.
Listen, don't beat yourself up. We all make mistakes and you have gotten honest with your mistake. Now, pick youself up and carry on honey.
I get into tooo much trouble around here.
Listen, don't beat yourself up. We all make mistakes and you have gotten honest with your mistake. Now, pick youself up and carry on honey.
Thx Pam,
That is just what my sponsor said and talking about it just helps. I moved meds around in the cabinet where I used to keep them. Put them in another cabinet to have a frest start. Old cabinet has too many memories.
Dumb question, but can I assume you are in Florida? I'm out in the bay area in CA.
P2
That is just what my sponsor said and talking about it just helps. I moved meds around in the cabinet where I used to keep them. Put them in another cabinet to have a frest start. Old cabinet has too many memories.
Dumb question, but can I assume you are in Florida? I'm out in the bay area in CA.
P2
Yes Mam, I am in the cold azzzzz Sunshine State. Northwest Florida. It is getting down to 30 degrees again tonight..........yikes. We are under a freeze warning......So much for the Sunshine State.
Down to 30 tonight??? Whew, sounds like New England. It's going down to about 40 or so tonight here. Cold nights, warm days here. It was a good year for the grapes.
How'd you make out with all the hurricanes?
P2
How'd you make out with all the hurricanes?
P2
We did real good this year, but there is always next year. This is the first year in many that we didn't get clobbered..........
Glad to hear it. Strange weather this year.
I gotta do some housework...ercghghghhg
Enjoy your evening and thx for the support Pam
Hugs,
P2
I gotta do some housework...ercghghghhg
Enjoy your evening and thx for the support Pam
Hugs,
P2
You are welcome honey, glad I could be here for you. I'm headed off to bed, all by my lonesome........wah, wah, wah...............
LOL...sweet dreams Pam!
P2
P2
Pam,
All my family lives in Pensacola. I go there many times a year. That's the best beach ever!!!
Stacey
All my family lives in Pensacola. I go there many times a year. That's the best beach ever!!!
Stacey
Ha, I'm about 60 miles East of Pensacola. We'll have to visit one day. I have to say, Seaside is the best beach though.......just cause i live there. lol
