Being Twenty-something

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Being Twenty-Something

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realising that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognise is that they are realising that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job...and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realising that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realise that you have certain boundaries in your life and you are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute you are insecure, and then the next - secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realise that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One nightstands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself...and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realise is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Charmed
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Charmed:

How right you are!! I turned 24 yesterday, and as far as my life goes, I don't have a clue where to begin! I am thankful that over the last couple years, even though I was tainted by the harsh effects of meth, I feel as if I identified the inner me. You know, the spiritual side, the what do I stand for, and how do I want others to veiw me. I've found that through GOD anything is possible....Have Faith..and even when it's bad..and you think you can no longer go on..something finds you and lifts you up...it can be as small as the sun singling you out and beating down on you to make the darkest day bright. I firmly beleive that you must explore yourself inside, and decide who you are...before anyone else can possibly KNOW you.
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Thanks Mrs SD,

Sometimes I think I have it all figured out, what I want, when I want it, who I am, what I believe in, I've experienced so much in my short life and often feel like an old lady. But other times, well I still feel like a lost little girl. Thanks for the post, nice to read anothers perspective

Hugs
Charmed
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charmed,
i turn 23 tomorrow. and i never thought my life would be like this. as a kid i always wanted to do so many things. i never said hey i think i'll be a junky when i'm older. well i guess none of us ever said that. i always thought i would become successful, not an addict,with a dead end job. atleast i have my hubby and kids, if i had chosen a different way i would have never met him. he is wonderful, so i guess everything happens for a reason. you live and you learn. i have learned alot i guess.
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On the 27th? It is already your birthday in NZ so start celebrating! I usually sing my friends happy birthday in swedish, I'm a terrible singer though so you are lucky to be on the other side of the world! I don't know how to write it either, bugger. lol. So I guess I'll just be the first to wish you a Happy Birthday, 23, you are so young! justonemore gave himself sobrierty for his 50th birthday, 35 years of crack. I reckon you are strong enough to give yourslf that present. You are really lucky to have a husband and kids. All I ever wanted in life was to get married and have kids. Then I chose H over my husband, first dream down the drain, and the chances of me ever getting pregnant a re pretty much non-existant so throw away dream 2. I now have a new dream and that is to finish and publish my book, hopefully I'll then be able to say that I did something that made a difference in this world, even if just to a few, my life will somehow feel worthwhile....

Hope ya have the best birthday ever
hugs
Charmed
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charmed,
well thanks for the birthday wish. and thanks for the thought of a song. hope you have a nice night.
raerae