Hi everyone,
as i have said before I am recovering from heroin addiction.....most of my recovery has been centered around my use of heroin, most of the people I have met in recovery have been heroin addicts themselves.......Always felt that i just didn't fit the "profile", although in the program they say that is just denial.
Since coming to the marijuana board I realizethough how much more I fit in here than there.......heroin was just a big mistake in my life......I had had a sort of breakdown and was looking for a numbing substance....but i never loved heroin. don't think of relapse from it, because i don't miss it at all....didn't like who i was on it, or the things I did.......remember the first time I did an opiate and felt so devoid of God and my spirituality.........
Never felt that way on pot......when i smoked i still rejoiced in every day......used to love walking.....in my mode.headphones on, happy as a clam..NOT glorifying smoking, although it may seem that way, but realizing how much more I belong here than there......It is only pot that I miss........I loved smoking, pot was my friend for many many years...ever since I can remember. Loved my own company, loved myself....just loved the euphoria of it.
i guess what i am trying to say is how much i love reading everyone's posts, and feel i can relate to every one of them.......
thank you
your welcome. and thank you. i too feel a sense of belonging with this group. keep up the good work.
thank u cajun lady......
