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Friends,

I cannot in good conscious, stay on the board with the rampant condoned drug use, rationalizing, name calling, drama and to top it off, the weird stuff that has gone on the last few days. Believe me when I say, this is not a trigger for me as I am beyond that...but rather disturbing.

I am also deleting my Bullwinkle344 AOL account so I will no longer receive email on this address.

I can't take this kind of stuff anymore. People I care about (and some I don't) are killing themselves and I certainly can't get through to them without being called a knucklehead or jerk off and quite honestly, I am too old and tired for this s***...I can't be party to their destruction.

I am sorry if this offends anyone.

I have 3 years of abstinece from Xanax, Pain meds and alcohol and I have many members here to thank for that and you know who you are.

My opinion of some things at present is far too low to be able to offer "fair and balanced" opinions.


Bullwinkle signing off..................

Dan,

I know you gotta do what you gotta do but quit...like forever? You are so needed here Dan. Maybe just take a break? This is just getting out of hand. Say it ain't so Dan. I really hope you reconsider, but you have to do what is healthy for you first and foremost...I hate to see you go I really do....

Jan
c'mon Danny, I know your skin is thicker than that. All you can do is say the things you know to be true for yourself, and in the meantime, maybe help out a person or two.

Regards,
Tom
Ditto what Jan said.
i hope its not over me but danny help me through a very hard time & saved my life and i mean it . i have came on here as a newcumber and talked abut alot of wild stuff until danny had told me something .

for 3 years now i could never get off oopiods i lost my hand and the docs where giveing me benzodiaphines high doses . i always thought it was the opiod withdrawl it would never go away but in realitey benzo withdrawl it was and im not kidden i was told by danny and from facts that xanox klonpin you can be in withdrawl for months up to 18 i looked it up and seen it for my own eyes . a few times i wanted to end it my life this year because it s brutal . i found my self takeing perscibed suboxone to get off painkillers , both togeather can kill me . the doctors knew it , i had alot of bad crap going on . guys i agree that the board got out of hand from me , but im not sure so i can take the blame . there is things i was told not to say .








BULLWINKLE1011 OR BULLWINKLE 344 TOLD ME TO TELL WATE HERE LOOK I COPY AND PAST IT FROM MY PRIVATE E -MALE



here it is

Can someone let LittleBeach know..I have her email but its on the other account and I deleted it..thanks


THATS DANNY S WORDS I DONT KNOW LITTLEBEACH BUT IF SHE DONT SEE THIS I WILL LOOK FOR HER .

Oh Danny. Please. You know as well as I do, the nature of this board. It's been a little wierder than most lately but it goes in cycles. You are so needed here, please re-think it. Take a break maybe? But come back, be here for those newbies that need advice and for us oldtimers that respect you. You have my email, keep in touch buddy. Lisa
Trust me on this one Lisa, this is a whole other level. I am sick about this because Danny was the voice of reason around here.

A gentle intelligent man with a heart of gold. Not even a pain pill addict but nevertheless his information and ideas on sobriety were so articulate and wise.

Josh said it himself...he saved his life..wow, what a contribution. You will be missed Danny. I am not far behind you!
Why KeeKee? Why you too? Talk about someone who is needed here....I just think that if we all start posting recovery related posts, that things will start to turn around. It can't hurt? The chat stuff is fun, but we need more recovery related posts from those of us that have recovery. Will you help me? I started a thread...
Okay, headed over there now.

danny is a great guy i wish he stayed on the board , but thats up to him . I respect danny to the fullest about his opions and about everything . if i would of came on tis board like 2 years ago im postive that those 2 years wouldnt be wasted with drug abuse , suicde attemps , crying , severe withdrawls , heart aches and so much more . I i could go back in time i would of . i dont think low of the board at all .

The thing is i was a nitwit and came on here speaking in tounges even up to a week or so ago when danny gave me that golen key to reach to the place i truely want to be wich is in my inner soul and in my head & heart and feel like danny saved 1 life wich is mine . yea i came on talking about that i went to college i was going to be a phamcst a rphd i had 2 years left and phyc therapy as well , and i was acting like a moron thinking i knew it all and its not going to grab me like the rest , im serious about this .




look i really do apolize and to the fullst to everybody on here . such as keke cow girl . keke always inspires me to , megan as well .when i came back home from the phycatic unute it made me truely relize that pills are not the answer and everything that was done for me since yesterday and today even if it is a kiss from shawna i can feel the gentle kiss with out the fog of the benzos im not totaly clean yet but im comeing off suboxone i have 25 pills left KEKE
AND BENZOS AT THE SAME TIME IM IN FULL WITHDRAWLS FROM BENZOS NOT SUBOXONE .





all i have to say is when ever i post something i agree it should be about recovery not talking about pills and stuff like danny said and the other guy on this page .





i will say im 23 years old im suffering bad but in the long run i am beating the devil out of my life and im praying and soon enough i will be free from this unbaren prison of suffering . im not trying to mae danny like a god who saved my life nor an angel i look at hiswords and him as a real person and i mean that . because all you have to do is say 1 thing or do 1 thing for sombdey and it could change there lifes for ever and for the best .









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MY LAST TRIBUTE TO DANNY ) I THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR HELP BECAUSE THERE WAS A 90% CHANCE I WOULD OF DIED A FEW DAYS AGO OR LAST WEEK JUST TRUST ME ON THAT ITS FOR CERTAIN .

IM SIGNING OFF TO GO TO BED MAN THIS IS A WICKED WITHDRAWL BUT ATLEAST IM DONE WITH DRUGS FOR GOOD . thank you danny and the rest love always joshua
Gotta run right now...just wanted to say...WOW...this is terrific...this is how is suppose to work..one addict helping another.

Josh, you are a miracle...I have watched it unfold...you keep up the work and keep coming back!

You rock!
You are a miracle Josh. Big hugs...
Bull, I know we have our differences, but from what I've heard you have had a lot of great influence on people, just because there are some disagreements you dont leave. Would you quit your job if your family needed you? Well from what it seeems like you have one here, that does. I'm not trying to make you feel guiilty, if you feel you need to leave for whatever reason. You told me you would not talk to me but you would continue to offer advice and help to others, this was 2 days ago. Do yourself, this board, and me a favor. If you leave and someone does not benefit from your guidance I'd feel horrible. You had your beliefs and I have mine, again..based on what I have heard from many folks here, you have helped a lot of people. If you need to leave for yourself then I will respect that, but please, do not leave for the wrong reason. Even While I was pissed at you, everyone on this board were in my prayers, including you. Either way it turns out, I wish you nothing but the best man. - Chris
Hey Dan your such an asset to the site but like all the assets this site once had sheer frustration takes over sometimes. There is a saying "if you cant beat them join them" ummm not that this site would apply lmao. I used to spend a lot of my time here studying trying to learn a new way forward. you dont have to be smart to see what goes on here but being smart sure helps you keep out of it well most of the time lol. jaxxxxxxxx
Take a break Danny.I get pissed too.I start to think nobody's sober on here because of all the pill taking with people who have been coming here for years.It get discouraging but what I do is start generalizing.I do know some members on here who have been abstinent like Lisa,Stacey,Kat,Gina,Yourself,Elim,and many more that I can't think of right now.They are doing the deal and represent the core strength of this board.

You're an asset here.You're message gets through no matter how frustrated you get.People in the middle of addiction will hear exactly what they need to.It doesn't always mean they are ready to stop.We need a core group here that will reign all the drug talk in and start talking about a solution.Without that it's just a BB for drug talk.

I know you are not in the program but our philosophies about abstinence are right in synch.
You can't get clean by taking other drugs .
That is not an ambiguous statement.Only a drug addict would see it that way.LOL
danny
i was hoping that you hadnt closed your e mail yet so i could get in contact with you but for some reason i cant connect this morning to my email. dont forget to add jewels to the list of recovery! tim you said you couldnt remember all the people who are truly clean, might i add that i am clean too! fortunately i adore everyone here on the board and have no ill feelings towards anyone, i have tried hard to keep it that way and send God's love in what i post. not all my posts were about recovery but the times that they werent my posts still brought positivity as i received in return wonderful small talk in the mornings and such that truly made my day and helped me in my recovery. i value the friendships i have made here and through out my struggles daily to stay clean everyone here would be in my thoughts throughout the day.
i hope and pray the board can get back to that and for all new comers welcome! like they say in NA you are the most important person here, because without you how are we to keep what we have without being able to give it away?
since i am a religious person i must say that satan has gotton his way here, satan comes to DESTROY! lets not have him get his way, Jesus must prevail, remember the Easter message we just had for those of you that believe.
i know we are not suppose to push religion Lord Jesus Christ as my higher power, my Savior, my Father, and my friend. i have truly suffered but get through with my faith. i was knocking on deaths door as well, God bless you danny and all people on this board, you know how to get a hold of me danny, you helped me trememdously as well. love jewels
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dont forget to add jewels to the list of recovery! tim you said you couldnt remember all the people who are truly clean,


Jewels,Nothing implied.I just wasn't about to try and rack my brain so early.LOL
Danny, Just wanted to let you know I value our friendship even though you piss me off at times LOL like you did last night posting this message.I know your reasons for leaving but at some point I hope you will reconsider and come back. Shantel
Danny...I would have never known just how bad the benzo wd could be w/o you...I may not have wanted to hear it that night...but it was the truth and the drug is a nightmare. It helped me to distinguish what was opiate wd and what was benzo wd. You are the real deal...you don't mince words. Too many people offer advice on how to replace drugs with MORE drugs and I understand it disgusts you...it should. For what it's worth...you are a valuable person here and can truly save another from their own self-imposed demise....don't leave forever....God knows..I have beome the b**ch from hell here....Take care.....Sharonn
Danny,i agree with many things,the board has become unbelievable lately.People are losing sight of what this site is for.But...this still is a good board,with good caring people,you being one of them.I hope you decide to just take a break and come back when things have settled in your mind.You are needed as we all are.~KIM