Hi you guys ~ just checkin' to make sure you both are doing well...maybe you are busy with all the end of the school year activities, etc...kinda like I am...just wanted you to know that I was thinking about the two of you and hope you are well.
I've been thinking of you guys too....hope everything's going good for you. Looking forward to your posts;)
Hey Bob and Gina where are you?
Light and love Zac
Light and love Zac
Hi Vw, Jayde and Zac,
Thanks for thinking of me. Sorry I haven't been around. Life has been a little nutty for me. I have had to step back from online again for a bit. Been spending most of my time in my face to face recovery. I have learned from past experience that when there is drama I have to walk away. Even though this time didnt involve me, I could feel myself being pulled in. So I had to step back. Also in my f2f life I have some stuff going on. I have psycho neighbors, lol. Long story short, they are being evicted. It started out about a stupid swingset, if ya can believe that. Went to the wife threatening my 10 yo daughter constantly. Noone saw her do it so no proof to report her. Was having a really hard time because my will wanted me to go beat the living crap out of her!! Believe me sometimes it is very hard to do Gods will. I kinda let her get to me last week and we had an arguement, then the next day I was mad at myself for letting her get to me. I was told to pray for me, now you can imagine what I am praying, lolol. I told my sponsor and others...well I am just not there yet! And I cant get there just yet either. I am talking about it though. I have to find a way because I have to see her for another 5 weeks before she moves.
Right now when I pray I say...well I want to pray the b**** dies but that is wrong so whatever I am suppose to be praying for , I hope it comes.Cause this crap is killing me, I am losing sleep over it.
It was suggested that I just pray that I go to bed alone. Well it sounded just ridiculous at first.I figured I would give it a try. But it worked. I actually fell asleep without all that crazy s*** in my head for the first time in weeks. Today I feel better.
Also Bob's grandmom died last week so we attended the funeral. Now for 3 days I was obsessing about how I could not go cause the luncheon there was gonna be alcohol there and blah blah. But that I had to attend. I was totally freaking out! I talked to my sponsor about it and some other women in the program and finally decided to go. But that I would not face the bar, if I got up and left my soda not to pick it back up ...etc..stuff like that. I was still kind of freaking though. So I get to the luncheon and now I am looking around and see there is no alcohol anywhere. In my head I am now saying ..well...what kind of funeral is this with no damn alcohol. I cant believe I was actually pissed after all that , you think I would of just been happy it wasnt there!!! Anyway I got over it. lol
Hope you all have a great day and thanks again for thinking of me. oh and btw yesterday the 17th I celebrated 10 monthes!! I cant believe it. Life is good.
take care,
gi
Thanks for thinking of me. Sorry I haven't been around. Life has been a little nutty for me. I have had to step back from online again for a bit. Been spending most of my time in my face to face recovery. I have learned from past experience that when there is drama I have to walk away. Even though this time didnt involve me, I could feel myself being pulled in. So I had to step back. Also in my f2f life I have some stuff going on. I have psycho neighbors, lol. Long story short, they are being evicted. It started out about a stupid swingset, if ya can believe that. Went to the wife threatening my 10 yo daughter constantly. Noone saw her do it so no proof to report her. Was having a really hard time because my will wanted me to go beat the living crap out of her!! Believe me sometimes it is very hard to do Gods will. I kinda let her get to me last week and we had an arguement, then the next day I was mad at myself for letting her get to me. I was told to pray for me, now you can imagine what I am praying, lolol. I told my sponsor and others...well I am just not there yet! And I cant get there just yet either. I am talking about it though. I have to find a way because I have to see her for another 5 weeks before she moves.
Right now when I pray I say...well I want to pray the b**** dies but that is wrong so whatever I am suppose to be praying for , I hope it comes.Cause this crap is killing me, I am losing sleep over it.
It was suggested that I just pray that I go to bed alone. Well it sounded just ridiculous at first.I figured I would give it a try. But it worked. I actually fell asleep without all that crazy s*** in my head for the first time in weeks. Today I feel better.
Also Bob's grandmom died last week so we attended the funeral. Now for 3 days I was obsessing about how I could not go cause the luncheon there was gonna be alcohol there and blah blah. But that I had to attend. I was totally freaking out! I talked to my sponsor about it and some other women in the program and finally decided to go. But that I would not face the bar, if I got up and left my soda not to pick it back up ...etc..stuff like that. I was still kind of freaking though. So I get to the luncheon and now I am looking around and see there is no alcohol anywhere. In my head I am now saying ..well...what kind of funeral is this with no damn alcohol. I cant believe I was actually pissed after all that , you think I would of just been happy it wasnt there!!! Anyway I got over it. lol
Hope you all have a great day and thanks again for thinking of me. oh and btw yesterday the 17th I celebrated 10 monthes!! I cant believe it. Life is good.
take care,
gi
Gina, Glad to hear from you...progress not perfection, progress not perfection...easy for me to say when I'm not standing in your shoes, huh? I know for me, like I stated in my previous post, this is just a very busy time of year...I was feeling a little squirrely myself yesterday (anxious) got my butt to a meeting and wound up leading it and then got the literature commitment...go figure...God usually straightens me right out. lol...anyhoo, again, glad to hear from you. Please wish Bob a Happy Father's day from me.
