Please read my post to you on MJ's Good Morning thread.
T-mom,
Thankyou for the kind words. 70 days is awsome! Congratulations keep up the good work. I know some days are a b--ch but it's worth it. I have days too when I feel like just throwing up my hands and saying F-it, but I know thats my disease talking to me and I need a kick in the a-s to do what I have to do. It's not even what I have to do it's what I want to do. I don't have to stay clean and sober but I want to, and it damn sure beats living in the hell that I got real good at creating for myself. I'm glad those posts helped ya', they help me too, thats why I do it. Whatever I post I gotta read. It's such a simple thing really staying clean and sober it's me that complicates everything. "It's a simple program for complicated people". Truer words were never spoken. Ask an alcoholic/addict the time and he'll tell ya' how to build a clock! lol I know exactly how ya' feel. There were times I swore life was easier when I was using. Thats because the only thing I ever really thought about was my next score. Today I have responsabilities and I'm still learning how to handle them. I'm learning things today I should have learned as a young adult. Thats why for me, meetings and fellow addicts help me so much. I can talk to a guy at a meeting or on the phone thats been where I'm at now and ask, "How did you get through or handle whatever it is I'm dealing with at any moment". It's a learning process. It would be easy to say screw it and pick up, but that isn't who I wanna be today. At the end of some days when the only thing I accomplished was staying clean and sober I'm grateful for that and I give thanks for that. Because for me, not picking up isn't normal and it's a big deal to get through a day sometimes without picking up. I've learned that no day is bad as long as I go to bed at night clean and sober. Hang in there mom, it gets better, this too shall pass.
If nobody told you today they love you, I love ya',have a good day,thanks again.
Take care.......................................God bless.....................................Bob
Thankyou for the kind words. 70 days is awsome! Congratulations keep up the good work. I know some days are a b--ch but it's worth it. I have days too when I feel like just throwing up my hands and saying F-it, but I know thats my disease talking to me and I need a kick in the a-s to do what I have to do. It's not even what I have to do it's what I want to do. I don't have to stay clean and sober but I want to, and it damn sure beats living in the hell that I got real good at creating for myself. I'm glad those posts helped ya', they help me too, thats why I do it. Whatever I post I gotta read. It's such a simple thing really staying clean and sober it's me that complicates everything. "It's a simple program for complicated people". Truer words were never spoken. Ask an alcoholic/addict the time and he'll tell ya' how to build a clock! lol I know exactly how ya' feel. There were times I swore life was easier when I was using. Thats because the only thing I ever really thought about was my next score. Today I have responsabilities and I'm still learning how to handle them. I'm learning things today I should have learned as a young adult. Thats why for me, meetings and fellow addicts help me so much. I can talk to a guy at a meeting or on the phone thats been where I'm at now and ask, "How did you get through or handle whatever it is I'm dealing with at any moment". It's a learning process. It would be easy to say screw it and pick up, but that isn't who I wanna be today. At the end of some days when the only thing I accomplished was staying clean and sober I'm grateful for that and I give thanks for that. Because for me, not picking up isn't normal and it's a big deal to get through a day sometimes without picking up. I've learned that no day is bad as long as I go to bed at night clean and sober. Hang in there mom, it gets better, this too shall pass.
If nobody told you today they love you, I love ya',have a good day,thanks again.
Take care.......................................God bless.....................................Bob
Hi T~mom,
Congrats to you on 70 days!! That is awesome!!!
Bob~ What can I say....awesome post...thats it exactly!!!
take care all
gina :)
Congrats to you on 70 days!! That is awesome!!!
Bob~ What can I say....awesome post...thats it exactly!!!
take care all
gina :)
Carol-
WOW!!! 70 days!!! Congratulations!
WOW!!! 70 days!!! Congratulations!
Bob- gotta say..I am proud of you...but you need a better SRV pic...
bob..
are you taking classes from the 'teresa school for long posters...'....lol...
just kidding... couldnt have said it better myself or wouldnt have been shorter either...lol..
t-mom... congrats... there are certain milestones and that is one of them... good work and keep it going.... '
Teresa
are you taking classes from the 'teresa school for long posters...'....lol...
just kidding... couldnt have said it better myself or wouldnt have been shorter either...lol..
t-mom... congrats... there are certain milestones and that is one of them... good work and keep it going.... '
Teresa
Hi Teresa,
I try my best to say what I need to in 100 words or more! lol
Take care.........................................God bless......................................Bob
I try my best to say what I need to in 100 words or more! lol
Take care.........................................God bless......................................Bob
Bob, I enjoyed every single one of them. And I needed them. I am actually going to attempt to try a new meeting tonight, an NA meeting. I have never been to one, only AA. Not sure, hubby is sick and I may have to be here for l.b., but I want to make it.
This is truly the first time I have had thoughts of my picking up. I knew it had to come sooner or later. What a b****!
Thanks again.
