Boo

Morning neighbor,

How are ya? Hows your neice doing? I'm home for the morning and this board has become a source of normalcy for me, hows that for crazy?

Redd
redd,

i hear you why is it us addicts arent comfy without some kinda chaos. thanks for asking about my neice. she is doing ok, they did a biobsy on her that was only supposed to last 10 minutes but because the tumer mass kept oozing out it last 50 minutes and they pulled out a pop bottle size worth of gunk, she is supposed to start treatment monday. so i am hoping since they were able to get most of the mass she wont need surgery. but i dont really know how all this works, we are all still learning. but amanda my niece is one hella strong fighter, she even went to school the next day after her biopsy. also i was glad to hear this isnt going to effect her graduation, she has enough credits right now she wouldnt have to go to school another day if she didnt want too. i was concerned about that cause she works her butt off at school and plus works a job.

how are you feeling? how much wieght has jack gained? any yet?


terrianne
She went to school the very next day? Wow, that is a trooper you have there. Its so sad to hear about someone so young to be faced with so much to deal with. I mean, as adults its hard enough to factor in something like that. I'm glad she has you.

Jack gained an oz, so thats awesome. We were able to give him my breast milk, which is the best for him right now. Hes being fed through tubes, he is so tiny Boo. He is scary tiny.

Right now all I can do is keep the faith for him, but its hard. I feel like I was dropped in another world.

Redd
i can only imagine redd, i know its gonna be a long road for your family too. but i just know it, i dont know how but i just know jack is gonna grow to be happy and healthy. these are all just learning and processes that we deal with. god sure wants you to definately learn and grow. but you are a blessing to us all as well as your family, i just know he has rewarded you greatly with jack.

terrianne
Redd...You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers...Stay positive and strong...Your loved on this board and have everyones support...
Amy, it always makes me happy to hear of women breastfeeding. All 3 of my boys were breastfed and I've always believed that it is the best way for them to start their lives. You haven't been able to hold him yet, right?

Never fear, you bonded all the time while he was still in the womb. I've been praying for y'all all along and continue to do so. I know the day that you are able to cradle your little man will be so special.

love to all of you

janet


CHRIS!

Its so good to see you. You and Boo are right, he'll get through this. My every waking moment is of him. I know you guys know what I'm saying when we realize the depth of our love when it come to our kids. I guess thats one of the hardest parts, I'm his mom, I'm supposed to make it better and I can't. Its killing me that its all out of my control.

Janet,
It will be weeks before I can hold him. I'm hoping for Thanksgiving. I think he needs it just as much as I do. Hes a week old and has not been cuddled yet.

Redd
Hey Boo and Redd,

Sorry to jump in, but I have to say an oz???!!! That's wonderful Redd. And he took breast milk too. That little guy is on his way and I'm so happy for you. God Bless you both.

Boo I'm so glad your neice is doing well. She's got a bit of you in her so I'm sure she's a fighter. I'm praying for you as well. You guys have a great day. IJ'm off to get my oil changed and fill the fridge. Beck


Hey Beck,

Yes, the doctors said the same thing...an oz was amazing for him. Most babies actually lose weight in the first week or two. The breast milk is full of fat for him and is just so beneficial in so many ways, so yeah, I'm lucky there that I was able to produce for him to receive. (you should see their pump)

good to see you Beck. your support means the world to me.

Redd
Amy.I'm off for the day..stupid football game, but wanted to tell you that I'm thinking about you and think you're one of the strongest people I know.

You are my inspiration and hope right now.

I love you
Lisa


Think again Lisa.

I love you too.

Amy
Redd, I am happy to hear that you are bf and that he is gaining weight. I am thinking of you all and huge hugs and prayers your way.
Kerry
Hiya red that oz will soon lead to 1lb im sure of it hun jaxxxxxxxxxx
Amy,
I just wanted to tell you I am still thinking of you and praying for Jack everyday..
I know he is going to come home very soon. I remember a long time ago when babies had to be 5 lbs to leave the hospital. I had Kristin a month early back in 1991 in Dayton Ohio and I was able to bring her home at 4 lbs 8 oz. She was 4 lb 15 oz when she was born but then lost a little and I took her home 4 days later.. So that's why I wondered if they told you what his weight needs to be to go home. I know little Jack has a little ways to go but he'll get there and you will tell him oneday how impatient he was-LOL My Mom and my grandma were both 3 lbs babies and like Dottie said it was many years ago..Today with all the technology premies have a great chance..Your right it is amazing. It's like being in a whole other world walking into the NICU......

I was praying for you that it was just braxton hicks and you would get a shot to stop them and go home. I never thought your water was going to break. I am sure you didn't either huh? That would be so scary...It's true though they come when they are ready and he was ready. Terrianne wrote something on saturady the 5th saying hey Redd want me to sneak you in some chocolate every mother deserves that after delivering a baby. Well this before we knew you had him. I told her in e-mail I said don't say that she better not have delivered him 3 months early, your going to jinx her. Well she must have had the physic thing going on because on the 7th Mike came on and told us you delivered on Saturday the 5th..The day Terri posted that... Remember the Goos Morning threads from a long time ago Terrianne and you would read off each other a lot. Posting the same thing at the same time..It must be a Michigan thing:-0)

Well sorry to ramble. I was just thinking of you and thought I would let you know. Take care Amy.. You will get to hold Jack very soon. He is a very lucky little baby to have you for a mommy. Hang in there.. Love, Rae


Hey Amy, Sorry I missed you! I am SO happy to hear about Jack. I know he's going get on gaining and things will work out great soon. Keep the faith, and keep the milk flowing! LOL I can imagine what their pump looks like, and just this conversation brings back memories of that feeling of the milk "coming down". I would love to be there again,,,,,,,,but only for a day.
You are all in my thoughts and prayers daily. Call when you feel like it, or have time.
Love, Carol
Amy and Terrianne, it's so good to hear you both sounding hopeful.
Congradulations on that oz, Amy! Can't wait to see pictures.
I'm amazed at your niece, Terrianne, going back to school the very next day.
These are two strong children.
Love, Kat
Hey Rae...a.k.a. my pregnancy advisor,

No, you don't ramble. I appreciate having you out there in cyber space. You're right, Boo does have a radar on me, we were just talking about it. I used to think it was coincidence, then creepy, and now I just go with it. She knew which NICU Jack is in with out me telling her. At least I think she does. I got that vibe anyways. It doesn't surprise me she called it.
Once I got to the hospital that Friday, I knew I was in labor. The doctors didn't think so much, til they examined me and my water had broke, dialating, efacing...the whole nine yards.

Jack right now is at best case scenerio, when you factor everything in. The doctors always say that...factor everything in. Its not really a matter of his weight at this point, its when he can breathe and eat on his own. They actually weigh him in grams, I go by lbs and oz. He has to eat very slowly, because he could develop intestinal infection. Hes being monitored every second for apnea, where he could just stop breathing. Its something in his brain that isn't stimulated enough for his brain to tell his body to breathe. The doctors said almost all babies under 30 weeks will have this at some point. There are several ways to treat it, depending on the degree. Jack is yet to have that happen to him, which every day I take as a victory on his part .Theres just so much Rae, from monitoring even his eyes to his lungs, his blood pressure, just everything. I actually have a list of what to ask them every day. The good news is that preemies develop faster than full term babies, so hopefully all of this won't take as long. Then we have to monitor for other things later on. The list is endless.

Now, who is rambling? Sometimes I don't even know whats what anymore.

Thanks for listening Rae, you're a good person. You've always been there for me. I can't wait for the day I tell you hes coming home.

Redd

Kerry, Carol and Jacky, thanks for the send out. Your support means the world to me. I can feel the positive vibes.
Redd,

I'm on my way out the door but I had to read the update on Jack and say -- you never ramble. You simply have a ton on your plate and it's sweet of you to share your news with us.

You're such a lovely person. Your family is so lucky to have you, as are we.

Best love to you and the baby, the boy, and the man,
Gina