Hey lady, I need a friend right now and I just sent out an email to you. Talk soon.
anything I can do to help Pam?
Pam just wanted you to know, im pulling for you, and offer my help in any way too. you can make it through anything my friend....with love lw
Thanks baby girl, I have tunnel vision right now and yes mam, I'll send out an email to you in just a sec. What I have to blab about is not appropriate for the forum and it does not pertain to anything or anybody on here except me. Thanks for the wake up call Janet. I don't know why I didn't think of you. Guess I was responding to an email that I got from Brook and was responding and venting everything on her and not thinking about all of the others that have listened to my crybaby a$$..........
Honey, you should know by now that your emotions are running a little off...I'll be looking for your mail. I'm going to send a picture of the kitchen table that my husband made. I just got online and ordered some unfinished chairs to go with it. Emailed Mom & Dad to tell them that we WILL be having Thanksgiving dinner in the house. Looks like I'll have all the out-laws...ooops, mean in-laws over too, so we'll set up a folding table in the living room too.
pam,
my support and prayers are comming your way, just remember god never gives us more then we can handle. try and stay strong and work through it head on. you have always seemed to come out the other side walking tall from everything i have read on here from you. i know you have it in you and i have confidence in you. your a true trooper and we all are here for you
terrianne
my support and prayers are comming your way, just remember god never gives us more then we can handle. try and stay strong and work through it head on. you have always seemed to come out the other side walking tall from everything i have read on here from you. i know you have it in you and i have confidence in you. your a true trooper and we all are here for you
terrianne
Janet, the table is beautiful or what is the other word that Terrianne uses? Beautimous..........there, I think that I spelled it right. Heck, ya'll know what I mean.
Terrianne, I guess that I forgot what these emotions were like. Anyhow, I'm not liking all of the negative in me right now and there is a ton of defensiveness bouncing off of the walls in my house right now and it is just too much to take in all at once and I'm hanging on for dear life. God, I just get so tired of trying to make everything alright and perfect around here, in my house, to only be told that I have failed. Do you know what I mean?
Thanks for listening girls and thanks for keeping me in your prayers. It really means alot. I wish that I could hug all both of you right now.
Terrianne, I guess that I forgot what these emotions were like. Anyhow, I'm not liking all of the negative in me right now and there is a ton of defensiveness bouncing off of the walls in my house right now and it is just too much to take in all at once and I'm hanging on for dear life. God, I just get so tired of trying to make everything alright and perfect around here, in my house, to only be told that I have failed. Do you know what I mean?
Thanks for listening girls and thanks for keeping me in your prayers. It really means alot. I wish that I could hug all both of you right now.
Pam, get pissed off. Your at your best because your words are right on! Don't let anyone push your buttons.
your beautimus.
your beautimus.
pam,
i know all to well what you mean, but first things first, you have to focus on getting you well and clean, then when your better and you do your daily job you just do it the best to your ability and giving it your all and in your heart you know you can go to bed doing things the best you could for that day. thats all that matters. no one expect you to be perfect. i only know of one perfect man that ever walked this earth and he died so that i didnt have to be perfect and i am forgiven for not measuring up. you have to work on doing what makes you happy, your family will start noticing that and they will want in on the fun, you will see when you change with in yourself others around you will start changing in a much more posative way. thats how it worked for me
terrianne
i know all to well what you mean, but first things first, you have to focus on getting you well and clean, then when your better and you do your daily job you just do it the best to your ability and giving it your all and in your heart you know you can go to bed doing things the best you could for that day. thats all that matters. no one expect you to be perfect. i only know of one perfect man that ever walked this earth and he died so that i didnt have to be perfect and i am forgiven for not measuring up. you have to work on doing what makes you happy, your family will start noticing that and they will want in on the fun, you will see when you change with in yourself others around you will start changing in a much more posative way. thats how it worked for me
terrianne
Pam,
Hang in there. Sounds like things are really tough right now. I am sorry about what you are going through but have a feeling you will pull through and be stronger for it. Look to the support you have and keep pulling your strength from within. Don't forget to breathe.
love,
pm
Hang in there. Sounds like things are really tough right now. I am sorry about what you are going through but have a feeling you will pull through and be stronger for it. Look to the support you have and keep pulling your strength from within. Don't forget to breathe.
love,
pm
Janet... make sure you got my email honeybunny... been having problems with it, today..
Thanks
Pam, it will be ok. Just when you think it won't, it always works itself out.
Talk when I get home tonight.
Thanks Girls, I have only taken 1 and a half of a pill all day and my hun is on a roll over here and I'm just about to fall to pieces. It has been a long day. Physically, I don't feel really bad, but mentally, Oh God, I can't describe. Tears have been flowing down my face since about 30 minutes after my hun woke up and I just can't stop crying. His words are just killing me. Really, I wish that he would just haul off and knock the chit out of me and be done with it. He's never touched me with anything but his hurtful words and I was praying that today would be somewhat better. I suppose things can't get any worse so maybe they will get better, I'm praying.
Pam,
Sometimes the words cut worse than the physical. Any chance you can get out of there for a bit, take a walk, get away from him for some time? I'm sorry you are in that kind of unfriendly fire today. Not what you need during this time.
I wish there was something more I could say. I know alot of times women can't get away but I always want them to in situations like these.
Sending courage, and self love your way.
love,
pm
Sometimes the words cut worse than the physical. Any chance you can get out of there for a bit, take a walk, get away from him for some time? I'm sorry you are in that kind of unfriendly fire today. Not what you need during this time.
I wish there was something more I could say. I know alot of times women can't get away but I always want them to in situations like these.
Sending courage, and self love your way.
love,
pm
PM, no I can't get away right now or he would kill me. Plus, someone put roofing tacks in our driveway Friday night while I was away and our new Benz has tacks in two tires. Thank God we have No Flats or I don't know what we would do and the nearest dealership is over an hour away. We know who did the tacks but instead of calling the police, like a normal person would do, my hubby has sworn everyone in our house to secrecy on this one because he wants to beat the chit out of the guy that did it, yet it is all my fault in his eyes. Whatever....... I just don't understand that part of it and my daughter got the tacks in her tires too. Then to boot, while my hubby was away on vacation last week spending thousands of freaking dollars, I stayed right here at home and didn't spend one dime of our money. My oldest son supported me and my daughter off of his measly paycheck of less than 200 bucks last week. God, I just wish that car would self ignite and burn to the ground. I know, that is really stinkin thinkin but I'm just sick of it all and on top of all of this he is all up in my face trying to make me get up and work on all kinds of damn projects that I could give a chit less about and just a few minutes ago, my damn washing machine overflowed all over the place. Yeah, i got up and cleaned up that damn mess, but I'm done with chores for the day.
Brook, got the email.
Pam, take a deep breath, and try to relax. I know things are coming at ya a zillion miles an hour and you just aren't ready for it.
Take a bubble bath and bring a book in, make sure you lock all doors and put some music on, so you don't have to listen to bullsticky.
Do something nice for you! you deserve it
Pam, take a deep breath, and try to relax. I know things are coming at ya a zillion miles an hour and you just aren't ready for it.
Take a bubble bath and bring a book in, make sure you lock all doors and put some music on, so you don't have to listen to bullsticky.
Do something nice for you! you deserve it
