Brought Tears To My Eyes

Heroin
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Many here know i have family addicted "i'm a ex addict". Whenever i talk about a cousin on H keep in mind it's not just ONE cousin. I come from a big SCREWED up family lol. Anyhow i saw this on ONE of my cousins WIFES web pages it touched me. I do hope she would not be angry i posted it here but, i feel it needs read.
She wrote:
Im worried. I love him. I may have changed some words for his dignity...But he knows who he is. Dear FRIEND, My One Good Friend, you know I'd do anything to help cure your disease. I know how trapped you feel inside but it's a deadly way to release -the pressure that keeps building up. You don't know what to do, the poison counteracts the pain, you've let it take control of you. My angel with a tarnished heart, you've broken your own wings. I've afflicted myself with another's pain, you've changed everything. You're dying a silent death, and you can't even see that what you do to numb the pain, Is driving me insane. I will be your heroine, I will be your fix. I will help you to relax, when your thoughts are in a mix. I will be your saving grace, and I will be your friend. Let me be the light, when you think there is no end. Once you made me smile FRIEND, but you stole that smile away. I cannot be happy, when I see that you're in pain. And what keeps running though my head, is how easy it could be. You can't lose your habit, so instead you're losing me . I felt I needed to post thaaat once again. Its been a few years since i have needed to say these words. """"""That was what she wrote it really ment something to me.""""" maybe i'm just sappy or it touched me more personal because i know personally who it was wrote for.
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I can relate. My daughter is addicted to pain pills. She went into treatment about 2 wks ago, I only found out the day she asked me to take her. I felt the same as you. I wanted to be all the things to her that you mentioned. Now that I know, it is all I think about. 'Will she make it? Will one of her little girls find her dead. I am so sad, not just for her. This addiction has made all of us that love her addicts. My "fix" is hearing her voice on the phone and she sounds better. When she has a bad day, I suffer. Love makes us slaves to good and bad. It affects eveyone that cares. Love can not be controlled.

Christina's Mom
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Wow that WAS powerful. gave me chills. Deep pain. I know so very well. actually it's my best friend.
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Wow very touching and I relate to that so much.

So meaningfull, deep and very true.

xx
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Oh great...tears before breakfast! That was beautifully written and expresses so clearly how some of us feel...I once told my boyfriend that I wished I could be his high. Guess we just wish they'd love us more than the H...

Have posted this before but it's kind of the same feeling...thanks for posting this ZG...it does help to know others feel the same...in here we are not alone.

Maddy x





Beautiful Poison

This beautiful poison courses through your veins
Holds you, rocks you in your sleep
Caresses your hair, smiles with her eyes
Shes always there for you, loves you

No-one could ever give you more than this
Feel her warmth, wrap her arms around you
Bathe in the sunshine of her laughter
Chase her as she teases you and runs

But as she turns to face you
See the needles in her eyes
She covers your eyes with her hands
Blocks out the light, the life

Let me release her fingers from you
Breathe new life, seel weeping wounds
With a kiss that will not turn against you
A heart that beats for yours
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..ZG..
..That just sums up wot we all know..that it ain't just the addict that heroin affects..sad but a good post..Robbie..