It's amazing to me that just 2 weeks ago my life was so different. I can't believe how much things have changed in the last 12 days. It makes me feel like an idiot for the years I wasted. Just 12 days ago I could barely go out in public because I was so ashamed of myself. I hated myself and was convinced everyone thought I was a bad person. Sometimes I even thought people were talking about me. I was so paranoid! And I read on this board everyday how great life is once you get clean but even though I read it I wasn't really hearing it. I don't know why I didn't believe it but I didn't. And now just 12 days later everything is so much different. I can once again look people in the eyes and not feel so self-concious. It feels good. There is one thing bothering me though. My husband pretty much reached his limit on how much he can take. He's not sure weather or not things are going to work out. I guess all I can do is keep being the best me I can be and pray that things will work out. All I know is that no matter what I am better off now then I was 12 days ago.
Shelly
You just gave me hope. I am 6 days clean and I still feel cruddy, I have anxiety and I am depressed. But it makes me want to push through and make it another 6 and maybe I will feel like you.
I WILL NOT USE TODAY
I WILL NOT USE TODAY
Shelly, glad you are doing so well. That is fantastic. As for your husbutt....if that's the way he feels there is really nothing you can do about it.
Don't let his issues keep you from having the life that you deserve. I am saddened hen I hear stuff like that. What ever happened to "for better or for worse". or "in sickness and in health"?
Would he have had enough if you had diabetes, or MS or cancer? Normies don't get addiction. Its not a moral issue....you are not a bad person, you are sick and need and require his support.
Blows my mind....not everything is roses in any marriage but he really needs to step back and reaccess what the real issues are.
If he in not willing or able to help you get through this and to encourage you to get well.........then that is his problem!! You need to worry about you right now and you really have to be very very selfish when it comes to your recovery.
Sorry to hear about this...but keep up the good work! F him.
Don't let his issues keep you from having the life that you deserve. I am saddened hen I hear stuff like that. What ever happened to "for better or for worse". or "in sickness and in health"?
Would he have had enough if you had diabetes, or MS or cancer? Normies don't get addiction. Its not a moral issue....you are not a bad person, you are sick and need and require his support.
Blows my mind....not everything is roses in any marriage but he really needs to step back and reaccess what the real issues are.
If he in not willing or able to help you get through this and to encourage you to get well.........then that is his problem!! You need to worry about you right now and you really have to be very very selfish when it comes to your recovery.
Sorry to hear about this...but keep up the good work! F him.
