Hi
My first time here so be gentle. Trying so hard to quite pot, twelve years ive relied on it to numb the emotions but I don't want to be hooked on it anymore. Everytime I try to quit all the past pain hits me like ton of bricks. Started crying five days ago and now I cant stop. Ive had to end friendships that relied on the habit and a relationship with man who drinks and takes coke cos I know theyre all bad for me but I feel so low and lonely. Want a joint so much just so I dont have to feel so sad. Help
Hi Erin,
I am sorry that you feel so isolated. I am probably much older than you and hope that you meet the chatty young people on this site that can help you. You are wise to get out of all of that and to try and quit weed yourself. Be gentle and kind to yourself. Can you get any support from your family, or local counsellor, there are some fantastic people on this site who will contact you. I got involved cause I was so worried about my son and I have learnt so much from this site that I never knew or understood but don't really know enough about things really to advise you, the crying is probably all the sadness built up, I hope lots of people contact you with proper support. You have made a great first step.
love and hugs.
Cath
I am sorry that you feel so isolated. I am probably much older than you and hope that you meet the chatty young people on this site that can help you. You are wise to get out of all of that and to try and quit weed yourself. Be gentle and kind to yourself. Can you get any support from your family, or local counsellor, there are some fantastic people on this site who will contact you. I got involved cause I was so worried about my son and I have learnt so much from this site that I never knew or understood but don't really know enough about things really to advise you, the crying is probably all the sadness built up, I hope lots of people contact you with proper support. You have made a great first step.
love and hugs.
Cath
hi erin- when i first stopped smoking i cried and cried too. i was numbing a lot of pain too. it's normal. let the tears flow and listen to what they are telling you. all of this is part of the withdrawl....... it gets better.
hang in there!
jojo
hang in there!
jojo
hello erin
welcome aboard. i know exactly how you feel right now. and it is so very normal. just part of the recovery process. it is very hard at first. but i promise you, that if you just keep off the weed everything will get better. and faster than you might think. the first week is the hardest. after that most of the withdrawl symptoms start to fade. and then you find this whole new person you never knew before. dont give up. fight those urges with everything you can.
first off i believe you must get rid of everything related to smokin weed. keeping it around just says "i will use you again someday". you need to be gentle with yourself. get plenty of rest, drink lots and lots of water, eat healthy, get some sunshine everyday, exercise. and most of all believe in yourself.
find something to do to replace your smoking time. keeping busy will help keep your mind off the weed. take a walk, read a book, watch a movie, take a long hot bath, plant some flowers, paint your nails,cook, clean, just do something when you are having urges to smoke. anything. the urge will not last very long and will most likely be gone by the time you finish your chosen activity.
i wish you much luck. be strong. it will be worth it.
welcome aboard. i know exactly how you feel right now. and it is so very normal. just part of the recovery process. it is very hard at first. but i promise you, that if you just keep off the weed everything will get better. and faster than you might think. the first week is the hardest. after that most of the withdrawl symptoms start to fade. and then you find this whole new person you never knew before. dont give up. fight those urges with everything you can.
first off i believe you must get rid of everything related to smokin weed. keeping it around just says "i will use you again someday". you need to be gentle with yourself. get plenty of rest, drink lots and lots of water, eat healthy, get some sunshine everyday, exercise. and most of all believe in yourself.
find something to do to replace your smoking time. keeping busy will help keep your mind off the weed. take a walk, read a book, watch a movie, take a long hot bath, plant some flowers, paint your nails,cook, clean, just do something when you are having urges to smoke. anything. the urge will not last very long and will most likely be gone by the time you finish your chosen activity.
i wish you much luck. be strong. it will be worth it.
Hi erin,
I hope you are feeling better today.
love and hugs
Cath
I hope you are feeling better today.
love and hugs
Cath
Hi.
Yes i too know the crying. It doesn't last for too long although it feels like forever. I agree with Cajun Lady, her post was great she is a wise woman.
I gave up in detox and after 15years of smoking all day everyday. It was really hard to stop on my own. I was put of anti-deppressents as these help my brain to function without the pot it was so used to. This is not how everyone does it i can only say what worked for me. I didn't want to go on them but it really helped. I haven't smoked since feb 22nd and i have cut down my anti deppressents and should be off them in the next week or two. I feel ready and don't feel at all like the sad, sad person who entered detox.
I am also attending NA meetings which has helped heaps.It is amazing how many pot smokers are in those meetings as previously i thought it was only for other chemical addicitions.
Be nice to yourself. .
Goodluck.
Yes i too know the crying. It doesn't last for too long although it feels like forever. I agree with Cajun Lady, her post was great she is a wise woman.
I gave up in detox and after 15years of smoking all day everyday. It was really hard to stop on my own. I was put of anti-deppressents as these help my brain to function without the pot it was so used to. This is not how everyone does it i can only say what worked for me. I didn't want to go on them but it really helped. I haven't smoked since feb 22nd and i have cut down my anti deppressents and should be off them in the next week or two. I feel ready and don't feel at all like the sad, sad person who entered detox.
I am also attending NA meetings which has helped heaps.It is amazing how many pot smokers are in those meetings as previously i thought it was only for other chemical addicitions.
Be nice to yourself. .
Goodluck.
Good morning Erin,
Not sure of your age, but my 18 & 19 yo have stopped smoking this last week. My 19 yo flipped out yesterday due to me setting limits with him now, and cried. I know it must be part of his w/d from pot, but my 18 yo has been working almost 14 hour days and keeps his mind buzy, so as not to focus on getting high...he told me wednesday he can actually start seeing with a clear head. It took getting him away from all his friends and influences, or we were going to put him back in rehab....its so sad to see at such a young age to have such a strong need for pot, guess it comes from bothhis parents being addicts. But you have started taking the right steps.......keep buzy and work on yourself.......CRY as much as you need.so be it if it takes you a month to cry.its ok.and be proud of yourself for taking these steps.
BE STRONG!!!!!!
Krazi/Traci
Not sure of your age, but my 18 & 19 yo have stopped smoking this last week. My 19 yo flipped out yesterday due to me setting limits with him now, and cried. I know it must be part of his w/d from pot, but my 18 yo has been working almost 14 hour days and keeps his mind buzy, so as not to focus on getting high...he told me wednesday he can actually start seeing with a clear head. It took getting him away from all his friends and influences, or we were going to put him back in rehab....its so sad to see at such a young age to have such a strong need for pot, guess it comes from bothhis parents being addicts. But you have started taking the right steps.......keep buzy and work on yourself.......CRY as much as you need.so be it if it takes you a month to cry.its ok.and be proud of yourself for taking these steps.
BE STRONG!!!!!!
Krazi/Traci
This is Erin, somehow now logged in as loopylou! Not sure what happened there. Thanks to you all for your words of support. Had very difficult week with exam stress, family problems (theyre all addicts of some kind or another, drugs and alcohol) and generally feeling really isolated and lonely.
Still really miss getting stoned and just not thinking about all the rubbish stuff but im doing ok and ive stopped crying!!! Hooray! Thanks again, youre all diamonds.x
Still really miss getting stoned and just not thinking about all the rubbish stuff but im doing ok and ive stopped crying!!! Hooray! Thanks again, youre all diamonds.x
erin
glad to hear you are feeling better. hang in there. it gets better every day.
glad to hear you are feeling better. hang in there. it gets better every day.
Hi Erin,
How is today going ?
How is today going ?
Hi guys
Erin again
Im not doing so good today. Havent smoked but am already working out a plan to get some if i feel the same tomorrow. Am drinking instead, which isnt good but havent had much. Doesnt give me the same out of it feeling pot does anyway.
Feeling really isolated and lonely. Havent got family i can lean on. Mum always drunk, brothers always drunk or off heads on meds, drugs and alcohol! Dad dead....... you guessed it, he was a drunk!
Dont even want to be round people, feel like ive got nothing in common with anyone else and i just dont have anything to say. Sure people just think im unsociable and rude.
Am waiting therapy for my issues but got to wait 4-5 months before being seen. Good job im not suicidal! Just a tragic co-dependant personality who is always drawn to addicted people cos its all ive ever known.
Erin again
Im not doing so good today. Havent smoked but am already working out a plan to get some if i feel the same tomorrow. Am drinking instead, which isnt good but havent had much. Doesnt give me the same out of it feeling pot does anyway.
Feeling really isolated and lonely. Havent got family i can lean on. Mum always drunk, brothers always drunk or off heads on meds, drugs and alcohol! Dad dead....... you guessed it, he was a drunk!
Dont even want to be round people, feel like ive got nothing in common with anyone else and i just dont have anything to say. Sure people just think im unsociable and rude.
Am waiting therapy for my issues but got to wait 4-5 months before being seen. Good job im not suicidal! Just a tragic co-dependant personality who is always drawn to addicted people cos its all ive ever known.
While you are waiting, Erin, would you be able to come up with a few things that would relax you besides the obvious? Some ideas are, reading, journalling, dancing, listening to favorite music, bathing, candles, art, puzzles, etc. ? Take especially good care of yourself. Put your needs first, see what happens. <smile>
hey erin- getting rid of this krap is much to get thru, the board will help!
in addition to what ww suggested how about yoga? it helps me :) jojo
in addition to what ww suggested how about yoga? it helps me :) jojo
JoJo, I miss my yoga ! Since my youngest has taken over the front room for summer video games, I've let it slide...I must get him to move his schtuff !
love,
D
love,
D
erin
i know this is rough. i have been there. just be strong and hang in there. your feelings and emotions will be on a roller coaster for a few weeks, but then they will begin to level out. i promise. but if you smoke, you will find your self going through all this again soon. give your self what you need right now. get plenty of rest, eat good, get some exercise, and get some sunshine. and dont worry about what others think. you just need to do what is best for you right now. recovery like addiction is selfish. and thats ok. hope you have a better day. YOU CAN DO THIS.
i know this is rough. i have been there. just be strong and hang in there. your feelings and emotions will be on a roller coaster for a few weeks, but then they will begin to level out. i promise. but if you smoke, you will find your self going through all this again soon. give your self what you need right now. get plenty of rest, eat good, get some exercise, and get some sunshine. and dont worry about what others think. you just need to do what is best for you right now. recovery like addiction is selfish. and thats ok. hope you have a better day. YOU CAN DO THIS.
Well, ive done it! Another day and i didnt get any smoke. Your words of support have been fab and im so chuffed i found this site. Thanks for all the advice. Been a tough day too, found out big brother probably being sentenced to custodial next week. Cant even be bothered to take that on board. He's his own worst enemy permanently drunk or off his head and codependant mother always picks up pieces for him when he messes up (which is often) And he's 40!!!!!!
Going to focus on nothing more than me and my beautiful boys, 11 & 7, they need me more than anyone else does.
Keeping strong friends
Thank you so much.x
Going to focus on nothing more than me and my beautiful boys, 11 & 7, they need me more than anyone else does.
Keeping strong friends
Thank you so much.x
erin
congratulations on another day. one day at a time.are you having any physical withdrawl symptoms? let us know. we may have ideas to help. have a great day.
congratulations on another day. one day at a time.are you having any physical withdrawl symptoms? let us know. we may have ideas to help. have a great day.
HI Erin,
I feeel for you, but also admire your commitment to not using. I was a pothead for 17 years, and have been clean for nearly 6 months. I used to numb my emotions, and once I stopped I was not ready for the surge of feeling that came with it. However I found the going to meetings realy helped, as an alternative to skiinning up and getting high. I also was very careful not to cross addict with alcohol, and quit that oo - simply because I understand myself as an addict - pot lead to coke, led to booze led to gambling etc.and each and everty possible permeation, as long as reality remained distant. Then it crashed on my head as it always does.
Take it easy on yourself, and focus on your own recovery. Be selfish in that. Your f***ed up family willl have to change their own lives - and you will be able to show them how through example if you succeed.
If the craving get realy bad I promise myself I will use tomorow, and then when tomorow comes I say I will use tomorow - and so far tomorow stays a day away.
So just for today I am clean, and I hope just for today you will succeed.
My thoughts are with you
feel it...
I feeel for you, but also admire your commitment to not using. I was a pothead for 17 years, and have been clean for nearly 6 months. I used to numb my emotions, and once I stopped I was not ready for the surge of feeling that came with it. However I found the going to meetings realy helped, as an alternative to skiinning up and getting high. I also was very careful not to cross addict with alcohol, and quit that oo - simply because I understand myself as an addict - pot lead to coke, led to booze led to gambling etc.and each and everty possible permeation, as long as reality remained distant. Then it crashed on my head as it always does.
Take it easy on yourself, and focus on your own recovery. Be selfish in that. Your f***ed up family willl have to change their own lives - and you will be able to show them how through example if you succeed.
If the craving get realy bad I promise myself I will use tomorow, and then when tomorow comes I say I will use tomorow - and so far tomorow stays a day away.
So just for today I am clean, and I hope just for today you will succeed.
My thoughts are with you
feel it...
Hello again
Havent used again today!
Am suffering physically though. Sleeping is hard, and im dreaming a lot, really vivid, emotional dreams that leave me feeling exhausted. Dreamt i was taking acid with jamie oliver in my wedding dress while his wife watched!!! Very bizarre! Like to have that one analysed!!! lol
God, im laughing! Been a long time.
Im less naggy with kids and had a good time with them tonight. Weather in UK is beautiful. Oh and i went shopping and bought a dress i cant afford to go to a summer ball that i dont want to go to.
Do feel a bit like im going a bit mental, but not in a bad way. Just not so shut off from real world i think.
Also realised over past few days that im a total addict. Not just pot but any drug. Im an addict who has chosen not to use anything other than pot for the past 12 years. Ive used pot as a way of numbing cravings for other stuff, foolin myself that it was ok. What a wally
Anyway, i know what i am now, and am beginning to see who i am too.
Scary, but good.
Lots of love. Lou xx
Havent used again today!
Am suffering physically though. Sleeping is hard, and im dreaming a lot, really vivid, emotional dreams that leave me feeling exhausted. Dreamt i was taking acid with jamie oliver in my wedding dress while his wife watched!!! Very bizarre! Like to have that one analysed!!! lol
God, im laughing! Been a long time.
Im less naggy with kids and had a good time with them tonight. Weather in UK is beautiful. Oh and i went shopping and bought a dress i cant afford to go to a summer ball that i dont want to go to.
Do feel a bit like im going a bit mental, but not in a bad way. Just not so shut off from real world i think.
Also realised over past few days that im a total addict. Not just pot but any drug. Im an addict who has chosen not to use anything other than pot for the past 12 years. Ive used pot as a way of numbing cravings for other stuff, foolin myself that it was ok. What a wally
Anyway, i know what i am now, and am beginning to see who i am too.
Scary, but good.
Lots of love. Lou xx
Well done another day clean. Its amasing how the days add up. When I quit I had loads of using dreams - pretty freaky. I know have dreams about other stuff too. God knows its been a looong time since I can remeber a dream - brain functioning a bit better methinks.
Congrats again.
and remeber - just for today
Congrats again.
and remeber - just for today
