Questions to ask yourself when the demons start circling in your head (assuming we all have issues) :-)
Today, for example, my self-talk was, "I'll never reach my full potential as a human being."
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1.) What is the evidence for this?
2.) Is this always true?
3.) Has this been true in the past?
4.) What are the odds of this really happening? (or being true)
5.) What is the very worst that could happen? What is so bad about that? What could I do if the worst happened??
6.) Am I looking at the whole picture?
7.) Am I being fully objective?
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Peace of mind to you all and....
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Be good. - E.T. :-)
you are doing great, i am loving reading your post, you had mentioned you had some questions for me re. some previous post? i will try to answer them. if they are personal and you want to email. try to email at jamvw@hotmail.com, let me know if you do, cause it doesnt work so well, then iwill give you my regular address, as it has my full name in it, dont like posting it on the board, congrats on not smoking last night, i promise it gets easier.
I just read that I'm not supposed to swear. My apologies to the mods and anyone else I've offended with my angry language. I will take hippienerds advice and get creative with my swearing instead. :-) Jamv, forgive me, I had forgotten about that question I wanted to ask. This memory thing is really upsetting. I hope that gets better too. I will try to jog my memory by reading your stuff again.
Funny how I AM remembering really bad puppy poo from my life. Like burning myself with cigarettes in my teens. I have ALOT of work to do in therapy. That's really messed isn't it?
Confession: Had a cigarette today. I quit smoking cigs in May 2003. I followed my husband out to the garage because we were engaged in a deep conversation about my past abuse. So while he smoked a joint, I asked for a cig,as he has switched to oil and tobacco now. I feel kinda mad at myself but there are worse things. My goal: give him all garage keys and lighters and call the sexual abuse hotline next time I get freaky.
Funny how I AM remembering really bad puppy poo from my life. Like burning myself with cigarettes in my teens. I have ALOT of work to do in therapy. That's really messed isn't it?
Confession: Had a cigarette today. I quit smoking cigs in May 2003. I followed my husband out to the garage because we were engaged in a deep conversation about my past abuse. So while he smoked a joint, I asked for a cig,as he has switched to oil and tobacco now. I feel kinda mad at myself but there are worse things. My goal: give him all garage keys and lighters and call the sexual abuse hotline next time I get freaky.
Looks like you not only talk the talk, but walk the walk. Remember not to push yourself too hard. (this is not meant as permission to relapse) We are human and overstressing ourselves is not healthy or wise. Maybe you should write a book!
Interesting you should say that. I was thinking last night I should print out everything I've written here since November before it's gone. I can't believe it's almost a year.
Regarding permission to relapse...caught myself thinking at one point yesterday, "hey, I could get stoned right up until therapy starts and have a fresh start when I go in."
Pretty bad.
day 19 AND healing.
Regarding permission to relapse...caught myself thinking at one point yesterday, "hey, I could get stoned right up until therapy starts and have a fresh start when I go in."
Pretty bad.
day 19 AND healing.
