Hi everybody there:
I used Methadone as main addiction for 2.5 years(60ml), i tried to quit cold turkey on 60ml, last year and unfortunately i could not stay on my way,and relapsed in 5th days of recovery! this time i tried to decrease my dose first. me and my doctor took 5ml every 2weeks. actually i had just a little and tolerable problems at the first OR second night of each changes. and my body went to detoxing just for 1night. and tomorrow of that i was high again for almost 2weeks. and again and again to 10ml. my job is starting early morning and i could work completely to stage of 10ml. after that from 10ml to 5ml(for 2weeks),My problem went bigger BUT TOLERABLE!!! and I went from 5ml to 3ml and 2ml for few days and cut my drug on 2ml exactly 9 days ago. the first 2days i just felt tired and a little problems but i could sleep at night! the biggest and most terrible problems showed from day 3 to day 5! during this time(day3 to day5),i was thinking its impossible to quit this material and i promised myself to make decision on 10th day to relapse and use again OR STAY in my recovery way! so i was just waiting for 10th day to use my dose and feel good and normal! BUT GOOD NEWS IS I FELT BETTER from 6th day and better and better up to now! now im in 9th days and im NOT waiting for 10th day anymore! I DID something that was my dream! something that i thought never happen for me(in all this 2.5 years and specially 3th to 5th days of detoxing!!!),so i never,ever destroy this paradise again! its better to find some one to take care of you in detoxing process,that you can talk to her/him about your pains and problems,although I DID NOT HAVE ANYBODY FOR THAT else my sweet,hero,and kind 12 daughter who i really proud to have her who made and make me stronger as a single dad...
my recommended:
1. do your detox process slowly, and never go cold turkey until you have to...!!! you should be patient,its a 3 or 4 or more month process but pretty sure IT IS POSSIBLE...:)
2. be patient and be sure you be GOOD and will see the light at the end of this dark tunnel soon.
3. make your mind free and just focus on your detoxing just for few days from you cut the drug.
4. just thing you wanna remove this huge mountain so it should not be easy but be sure IT IS POSSIBLE and so sweet after done! tell yourself nobody feels sick and terrible for long time! and your bad feeling get finish in 5 or 10 or maximum 15 days!(depends on your body and your dose befor detoxing).
5. I used 2 tablet OXAZEPAM 10(SedaRin) at noon, 2 TABLET IPOPROFEN, and 2 ADVIL (just for first week), these didnt make me sleep but help me to feel more relaxe. and after 1 week I took Trazodone 50ml for remove feeling Hopelessness.
6. NO SLEEP, NO HOPE , NO ENERGY and think about suicide(!!!),are so common signs of detoxification of methadone , so try to deal with them and be sure they remove slowly and you just should be patient. YOU WILL LOVE YOURSELF AND YOUR LIFE SO SOON,just after few days.
7. HOT BATH!!! HOT BATH and HOT BATH!!! you have no idea how much it can help you to feel better. I got 4times/day between 3th to 5th days and it really saved my life...
8. you will be so sensitive in these days of detoxification, so do not be ashamed to CRY !!! i think it help you to balance your feeling! i did it with hear every single music or think about sabotages that i did before ....;)
9. FORCE yourself to EAT,as much as you can! I KNOW ITS SO HARD but eating, walking outside help you for sure.specially drinking water, drink and drink so much.
10. although you cant sleep at the night but take hot bath and go to bed and just close your eyes and try to relax,although your feet jumping and trembling legs!!! hear to relaxing music and stay in low light...
11. unfortunately i have experiences of detoxing of white,brown,black and green drugs(Lol), in the past years.(sorry im not allow to say their names but imagine all strong and low drugs),so i can not say which one is better and detoxification of which one is easier!!! all are devil and enemy of your health and do not compare together! some are effect on your mind,some effect on your body and unfortunately Methadone effects on your both, mind and body! so you have to work and be strong on your body and your mind at a time...
12. at the end i wanna let you ,my friends ,know , we are real hero, we are so stronger than other people who never try drugs, people who judge us every single day without walking in our shoes. after pass 2,3 or maximum 10 terrible and painful days,YOU SHOULD PROUD OF YOURSELF AND YOUR GOD AND YOUR CLOSE FAMILY .
I hope this comment help everybody who really want to change and rescue their life and BE IN NEW AND SWEET LIFE. i'm so glad to celebrate my birth day in next few days with MY CLEAN AND NEW MIND....:) and you can celebrate your next birthday exactly like me with so much happiness and HOPE OF FUTURE ... :*
I try and hope i will come back here after 6 month and tell you i'm clean for 6month.
GOD BLESS YOU...:*
Ty for your story, i am a single dad also , i have a 11 year old daughter, ive been debating how to go about my detox , because it is goin to happen one way or another, ive been trying to come down from 17mgs at the clinic but they wont let me move because there is no current doctor , been waiting for over a week for them to get a new one. I been struggling in my head to just jump ship at 17 , i do have close family to help , but recent situations, being finance , might force me to do the cold turkey method. I read alot, and watched alot of videos, ive gone and bought imodium d, daily vitamin that i started a week ago, and some valarian root and melotonin,
and also magnessium pills, and lastly a heating blanket. I went to the therapist to talk bout anixiety, and the chiropractor to allign my back. I dont have thoughts of using, or becoming addicted, i just am afraid of dying during the detox, ive been told many times u cant die, but i fear the panic attacks. that is my story so far, im so glad you did it, i cant wait till i can say i have done it also , Good Luck .
and also magnessium pills, and lastly a heating blanket. I went to the therapist to talk bout anixiety, and the chiropractor to allign my back. I dont have thoughts of using, or becoming addicted, i just am afraid of dying during the detox, ive been told many times u cant die, but i fear the panic attacks. that is my story so far, im so glad you did it, i cant wait till i can say i have done it also , Good Luck .
hi worried dad, tnx to replied me:) Actually my daughter would seen me every single day that i have to drink a liquid before i start my day but i told her there is a medicine drug that i have to use it to tolerate my surgery pain!( i had a surgery few years ago!!!), as i said i didnt have much problem to 3rd day of detaxy,and on 3rd day,i told her i got a bad flu that make me sick for few days! but when she saw i do not drink my daily liquid anymore,i think she got what is my problem and from then she went to so kind,gave me so positive energy and massage my body and just reminded me that i can pass these days,safe and good...:) and i could stand up from day 7 again and slowly slowly do my duty as a single parent again.
i suggest you, if you can put ur daughter to one of ur family just for few days(3rd to 6th days), if not, go shopping befor detaxy and buy everything you and she need for few days and so can have rest for that days completely. explain to her you feel sick and bad for few days so she will support you as a lady for sure. me and you know they are our home queen.:) for sure she feels boring days that her dad can not help and make her fun as before but it is temporary my friend! it not for ever and you become good so soon.in my opinion its so worth for you and your daughter to tolerate this few hard days instead of living with drug. all of us know we are so better and responsible and powerful person when we are clean and sober. so take it easy, YOU ARE NOT BAD DAD,otherwise you never thought about recovery!!! im not sure i understood why you wanna go cold turkey very well?! if it is just because the doctor is not in clinic for few days,i think it better to wait for your doctor and do detoxy slowly and tapering your dose down to 2ml or 1 ml and then do your detaxification. it really works to decrease your problem and pain specially in your situation! and its good that you research and read so much about this,at least you know what is waiting for you after cutting ur doses. I GIVE YOU MY WARM PROMISE THAT YOU WONT BE DEAD , but its hard body not as much as you go to die! but should give yourself time and be patient to reach your goal! IT IS FOR SURE POSSIBLE AND IM SURE YOU WILL GET IT SOON...we all here cause of reasons that force us to quit ,so remind your self IT IS TOO SHALL TO DO and YOU MUST ARRANGE YOUR RECOVERY AS SOON AS YOU CAN.
hope this info can help you in your pride way.
i beg you feel free to ask anything that i can help you...
in all these hard days just think how much you be better person and better dad if you can reach recovery and put the drug in garbage.
i will pray for you and others friend although i need your pray too...
TRUST IN GOD,HE HELPS YOU SURLY ...
be patient and just do it.:)
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i suggest you, if you can put ur daughter to one of ur family just for few days(3rd to 6th days), if not, go shopping befor detaxy and buy everything you and she need for few days and so can have rest for that days completely. explain to her you feel sick and bad for few days so she will support you as a lady for sure. me and you know they are our home queen.:) for sure she feels boring days that her dad can not help and make her fun as before but it is temporary my friend! it not for ever and you become good so soon.in my opinion its so worth for you and your daughter to tolerate this few hard days instead of living with drug. all of us know we are so better and responsible and powerful person when we are clean and sober. so take it easy, YOU ARE NOT BAD DAD,otherwise you never thought about recovery!!! im not sure i understood why you wanna go cold turkey very well?! if it is just because the doctor is not in clinic for few days,i think it better to wait for your doctor and do detoxy slowly and tapering your dose down to 2ml or 1 ml and then do your detaxification. it really works to decrease your problem and pain specially in your situation! and its good that you research and read so much about this,at least you know what is waiting for you after cutting ur doses. I GIVE YOU MY WARM PROMISE THAT YOU WONT BE DEAD , but its hard body not as much as you go to die! but should give yourself time and be patient to reach your goal! IT IS FOR SURE POSSIBLE AND IM SURE YOU WILL GET IT SOON...we all here cause of reasons that force us to quit ,so remind your self IT IS TOO SHALL TO DO and YOU MUST ARRANGE YOUR RECOVERY AS SOON AS YOU CAN.
hope this info can help you in your pride way.
i beg you feel free to ask anything that i can help you...
in all these hard days just think how much you be better person and better dad if you can reach recovery and put the drug in garbage.
i will pray for you and others friend although i need your pray too...
TRUST IN GOD,HE HELPS YOU SURLY ...
be patient and just do it.:)
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I shall include you in my prayers, and yes i have told my daughter the same thing, she sees me drink my "medicine", i also xplained to her , that im goin to get pretty sick, when its time to stop taking it, and to answer why Cold Turkey and not taper, i might not have a choice in the matter, ive been trying to go down on does for 2 weeks now, and the clinic doesnt have a acting doctor, so they cant step me down , ive been ready for so long but was always afraid of getting sick. I said to my self the other day , what am i waiting for, no matter when , i will get sick, no matter if its today or a month from now, i want to make a better life for me and my daughter, i want to get a real job, a good job, most areas around here test for methadone, and that brings me to my second reason for a possible quick cold turkey, finance is tight at the moment, and its sink or swim soon, on that homefront. Did you use any other meds, to help with the detox, ive read to ask my family doctor for clonodine, what is that, and is that addictive. Each day i drink the bottle i leave some in it, its to hard to tell, whats left cause someone once told me the white pill powder thats floating in there isnt all methadone its filler, i dont know , im really torn on what to do , i could transfer to another clinic and step down , but that is another headache , cause its farther , plus the money to get there, and will affect time like working. what did you use for back and leg pain. the advil, I must say im very proud of you man, i teared up when reading your post cause it hit home, same boat , please keep coming back and let us know how your doing. good luck god speed.
tnx worrieddad, it looks you and ur brain are so ready to jump out and its too good, cause you can be sure you can handle this issue when you are ready as much as now! for that problem about go cold turkey, I have to say I Had similar problem when i reached the 10ml few weeks ago,that my doctor was is trip and clinic couldnt take some from my dose and told me i have to stay on 10ml until the doctor come back(around 1 month!!!), but my plan was so clear and i wanted to quit as soon as possible, so i chose the plan B..;) i took my prescription for 10ml, go to pharmacy and took the first dose from there for 10ml then I took my doses for next week and in my home with a syringe(1ml), I divided all my bottle from 10 to 5ml,by myself!!! so i used 5ml for that week,and next week when I went to pharmacy to take my next watch dose, I asked the guy to give me half of my dose(5ml) then and asked to give me another half of 10ml to carry and promised i use that in the night! but I never did that!!!! (a little positive trick!!!). so I could divided my doses again from 10ml to 5ml and I could stay on 5ml for more week and also I have my methadone for rest of my plan(took from divided bottles), and after a week that i was on 5ml ,I used syringe(1ml) again and set bottles up for 3ml for a week and then 2ml for 1more week and then quit!!! and never come back to clinic to renew my prescription again!!!! and also all my plan got done! i'm not sure if this trick works for you cause here is so different with there for methadone and im not sure you are able to have carry or no?!!! anyway, your dose is not so much that can make you worry really, and may you face a little a little and just a little more problems than what i faced to!... and this is not a big deal against ur volition and your strong decision. I hope to see you again here so soon with so much good and positive news about yours:) Actually today is my 13 days of detoxy,absolutely i do not feel 100% good but I'm on way and thanks god i passed the horrible part and i feel so happy and feel 70% ok now.
i still have so little legs and foot pain and jumping just for 2 hours/night and still does not fix my sleep now and i have just 2 or 3 hours sleep from 5 am but fortunately I DO NOT NEED METHADONE ANYMORE TO BE ALIVE and i think its worth.:)
best wishes for my bro and i will wait for good news from you.
waaaaaarm hug:*
i still have so little legs and foot pain and jumping just for 2 hours/night and still does not fix my sleep now and i have just 2 or 3 hours sleep from 5 am but fortunately I DO NOT NEED METHADONE ANYMORE TO BE ALIVE and i think its worth.:)
best wishes for my bro and i will wait for good news from you.
waaaaaarm hug:*
CLEAN-HAPPY MAN how you doin man, i just wanted to check in with you.
Clean Happy Man? How man mg's per ml when you speak of jump off point? I am 13 days semi stable now at 10mgs per day. (first attempt at that dose only lasted 3 days) I will talk today with doctor and get helper meds to support final jump off. I am more and more encouraged by each person that clears methadone addiction. At 10mgs it at least seems to feels almost like I am off already. Nerves are a little raw and pain is crisp but livable.
